Thoughts of the Phoenix

I give up. I'm done. No sense even looking anymore. Every time I think I might've found someone, he either pisses me off; or we just realize we're not a good match. So, I'm done. 

If you are just going to lie to me, about having read my profile; then don't waste either of our times messaging me. I can always tell within a few sentences if you've read it or not. I am not stupid. You think I'm okay with groveling? You didn't read it. You don't know my name? You didn't read it. You don't know I'm more into the service aspect, i.e., cleaning, cooking meals, doing the shopping, rather than the sexual aspect? You. Didn't. Read. It. So do not think you can trick me into believing you've actually read it, when it's clear as a crystal, that you didn't. 

So, this is a little way for you all to get to know me. Ask me as many questions as you want in the comments and I will try to answer them as much as I can. One rule; absolutely *no* sexual questions of *any* kind. 

This is one of the better sites, but I'm still surprised at the number of messages I've received; from both Doms and subs who seem to just to want to jump right into a dynamic or even just play, without getting to know each other. That has got to be the most foolish thing I've encountered. This is not something you just jump into, even if it's just play. You have to trust each other. That isn't developed overnight. It takes time. Conversation. If you're just an insta-dom or insta-sub, then you will never find a truly fulfilling dynamic. Of course if you are just an insta, then I doubt you really care. 

So, I had a talk with my baby sister tonight and it was a rough one. At least from my perspective. She's actually 23 but at just under ten years younger, she'll always be my baby sister to me. Anyway, she's got a new job and it's a rough one. She's a cook at a nursing home, so she's on her feet all day and it's long hours. 8-12 I believe. That's a long time to be on your feet. Anyway, she was upset because she's stressed out with her home life. She's got a boyfriend, and of course he's got a job, but even though she has a job as well, and two kids to take care of; he still expects her to do the majority of the housework and gets mad over shit like his laundry isn't done for work. That's fucking ridiculous. He's a grown man, he should've learned by now how to do his own laundry. She's not his mommy or his maid. He needs to grow the fuck up and start doing his share. It's going to be nearly impossible for them to split the housework evenly, but it needs to be as close as possible. I was so pissed at him for being so fucking selfish and expecting her to still do the housework and take care of the kids even though she works now as well. It was very hard to not let her see how furious I was, because even when she's upset with him; she really doesn't seem to like it when the rest of us call out his flaws. Just, typical relationship loyalty I guess. I understand that. But anyway, to the point of this post. I left Oklahoma to move out to Virginia when she was still a baby, she'd just turned a year old and I had just turned 11. I never really got to see her grow up. So I've always been very protective of her. Probably even more so than an older sibling would be of their younger sibling. In fact, I'm like that with everyone I'm really close to. Very protective. Even if they're older than me. My soul sister, Jessi is nine years older and I'm extremely protective of her. So now I'm starting to wonder, is this natural protectiveness another sign of my dominance that I just didn't see? 

Had a job interview for a bather's position at a dog grooming salon, and I was officially offered the position!! Working towards becoming a groomer myself, so super excited because this will definitely help. But without a doubt, also very nervous. Only really have personal experience bathing dogs, so let's hope I can handle other's dogs!