2 years ago. October 29, 2021 at 2:50 PM
I’ve taken quite a while off from my sub life. Do I miss it? Absolutely
Late at night when my head is clearing from the day I think about how nice it has been to have someone of my own. The connection, the excitement of it all.
Mine would be a online relationship. I understand how some feel about that, and it’s ok, it’s definitely not for everyone. We all have our own lives and choices to make, but even online it can feel very real, the good and the bad.
I think we all wonder if it’s still in us at some point and time. It can absolutely be hard, but if you’ve gotten a taste of the good it can be just intoxicating enough to make us want more at some point, and maybe I do.
Finding that person we admire. Who makes us think and also relax, excites us physically, and at other times make us laugh out loud reading their newest message. Just being able to please one another on so many different levels. Yummy
Yeah, I kinda miss it.
Take my hand down the long dark hallway.
I’ll follow without question, knowing your love for me will never disappear into the silence. Your strength, your guidance, your amazing fucking brain and wit. I trust you like I never have before.
Take me to your room, let me hear your voice as you tell me what I’ll be doing. Put me on my knees, show me how I’ll make you happy tonight. Would you like my mouth Sir? Here, here’s my mouth. Whatever you desire I want you to have. You have given me what I need, I have given you the same. Now I want to give back even more, I want to blow your fucking mind.
You know I want you. You know I need you. At some point I will find you.
How many Doms can handle a brat? I’ve never actually liked that term, in a lot of ways it only demeans our feelings. We speak up, we’re being a brat. We’ve have a bad day at home and aren’t on our best behavior, we are a brat.
Who can weather the periodical storm with me? Who is strong enough to take my hand and guide me through it? That’s who I’ll admire and give myself too. Guide me, love me when I’m not perfect, fight with me that’s fine too. Show me you care and I’m in.
Each experience we have is a lesson. We’ve all heard that before of course, but sometimes it’s harder than others to find it.
There are times we’re just too busy blaming to understand the lesson that we need to see. I’m sure this is a common problem; it’s his fault, it’s her fault, and so on.
After emotion wears off and it’s fresh in our brain is the best time to reflect. Bringing ourselves to a kind of higher level from what we were before.
“How can I improve as a person?” “Am I able to improve that one thing that has been a issue to so many?” I think so, or I can try at least.
But if I fail and disappoint again, at least I have identified something I want to improve.
That’s an accomplishment in itself, right?