Travels and trials in my journey

   All of us know that one guy…the one that knows everything and has done everything. I am NOT that guy. The more I read and study the more I realize that I know actually very little. 
    In my opinion, it’s the ones that will take the time to read and learn about something that are the ones to keep. Many submissives I know are extremely bright and well read. Seldom is the case that you find one talking about how great they are.

    Each day and each situation are a learning event, and should be for us all. Every person that I meet teaches me something, either about them or about myself. As a man that doesn’t know everything, I value what I learn regardless of how painful it is to me.

    I know that I have unwittingly caused harm along the way in my journey. I’m not proud of it but I will own it. It’s not malicious. It’s not by design. It’s living and learning. We all only get this one shot at this life. Being remiss and not pursuing your dreams is not the way we were meant to live. 
    Go and find your other part. Take the risk.

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   I have spent a lot of time thinking recently. Many things crossed this addled brain of mine,  it one that stood out was just how much I’ve learned about the lifestyle. From what humble beginnings I feel that I have evolved into the semblance of a Dominant.

    It’s been a slow journey, to be sure. I still marvel at how much I learn and yet each thing I learn leads me to discover something else I didn’t know. As the old saying goes ‘you don’t know what you don’t know until you learn it’

   Not just about being a Dom. I’ve learned about submission and what it means to the one that gives it, as well as how much I should treasure it. It’s not a thing easily given (red flags if they do!) nor is it a thing to be handled carelessly.

   Some of the best times of my life have been with a submissive woman. Hands down. I only hope that she has felt that joy and love and care that I felt towards her. By nature, I am a very stoic person. They have seen the silly me, the smiles and the deep care.

    I said all of that to say this. I am still learning. I will continue to learn until I die. I don’t have the answers. I may not even know where to find them yet. But I will keep trying. And I will keep looking. Some people would give up. I won’t. I am a Dom and I am still learning.

   Life is unfair. There. I said it. We all know that feeling and have probably all been driven to the edge of our wits by seemingly random quirk in the universe that makes events conspire against us. From football teams to the love of our lives, nothing seems to go as planned, or even hoped for that matter.

   I find, however, that seeing the happy pairs in here, and in day to day life, give me increasing hope for my future in this lifestyle. I am getting older, true, but I do believe that the right one for me is out there. And I, through some odd miracle of chance, might be the right one for her and we might actually meet and be able to be what we are to each other.

   The vanilla world, sadly, does not see what we see in the lifestyle. That’s what drives me nearly mad. All of our variations on dynamics just cannot be comprehended by the average person on the street. 
    I saw a girl the other day with a very simple and elegant collar on. I smiled and kept walking. The look in her eyes told me that she picked up on the fact that I knew what it was. She smiled ever so slightly and continued on. I could see the pride in her eyes that someone recognized it for what it was. It was a brief moment of exchange that everyone else probably didn’t catch. But we did. 
    I long for that level of understanding with my submissive. 
    Thank you all for taking the time to read this 

Thanks tk Butterflies and cuffs for a great challenge! My two songs are both motivators for me..the songs will speak for themselves!

I hope you all enjoy!!

‘Sir….may i please explain?’ Her downcast eyes and demeanor took the edge off of him. She was beautiful and sometimes stubborn, but he did love her so much. The fact that she was his submissive made their relationship all the sweeter . Because of that, he softened and gave in to her.

   ‘Yes, of course you may….’ He trailed off ‘I didn’t mean to be so strict on you. We had an agreement that you would not spend your money on your friend and I did not take your feelings into account. ‘
   ‘Sir, she needed my help and I couldn’t force myself to leave her stuck as she was.’

   ‘Yes, little one, you are right.’ His eyes softened as she looked up at him. Tears were welling up in her eyes and he really didn’t want to make her cry.

  ‘Come here, love. Let me hold you.’

   She sprang from the floor and lept to his arms. His solid frame felt reassuring to her and she almost immediately burst into tears.

  ‘Shhhhhhh….it’s alright….its ok…..I’ve got you now….you’re ok baby.’ He whispered softly into her ear. He carried her her slowly over to his chair and sat down with her curled into his lap, the sobbing gone, replaced by sniffling and her arms wrapped tightly around his neck.

   ‘You know I love you, snoopy.’ She laughed at his use of her pet name and hugged tighter.

   ‘I love you, Sir.’ She giggled as she kissed his neck and rubbed his chest. ‘I’m so sorry…’

   ‘No, dear…I’m the one who’s sorry. I made a mistake. Never again, I promise you.’ 
   She smiled and played idly with a button on his shirt, breathing in his scent and remembering why she loved him so much. He was strict sometimes yes…by  the loved her much more than most knew. 

   ‘Can we nap now, daddy?’

   He laughed and picked her up…’Yes, baby, we can.’

   She knelt on the cold floor and stared hard at the ground. It was cool and she knew she would not stop it. Her Sir had given her a strict schedule to keep to and she had knowingly violated that directive. All she could do now was pay the price for not following his guideline.

   She almost didn’t hear his car when he pulled in but gathered herself when she heard the drivers door close and his footfalls approach the door. She winced when the door swung open hard and she felt his eyes boring into her soul.

   ‘What the fuck did we just talk about the other day?’

  ‘Sir, I didn’t..’
   ‘Be quiet. You know better.’ He snapped as he set his jacket, gloves and cap down. ‘You know that I really trust you, right?’

   ‘Yes, Sir. I do.’

   ‘Then you have earned this for not being conscious of your daily responsibilities.’

    Inspire of his obvious displeasure, she felt the heat begin to glow in her belly and the moisture start to gather in her nipples and between her legs. He walked off and she remained planted where she was. Soon, the clinking of the cuffs could be heard and she knew what he intended to do. 
   He walked back in and looked down at her. She was stunning and so so obedient and he hated to have to chastise her for a failure. But damn she looked hot chained up. He smiled to himself briefly thinking how fortunate he had been to find her.

     ‘Wrists in back. Stand. You know the drill.’

    She did. All too well. She stood immediately and crossed her wrists behind her and shivered as the cold metal touched her skin, causing her pussy to clench against her will. 
  He cuffed her and walked her to her corner. Her wrists were pulled up and fastened to the chain hanging from the eye in the ceiling forcing her head down. He quickly cuffed her ankles closely to each other and fastened them to the wall just in front of her. Her juices were flowing freely now and her nipples ached for attention.

     He touched her face gently and spoke softly to her. 
  ‘Do not disappoint me this way again. Understand me?’

    ‘Yes, Sir’ she whispered as she felt more cold steel bite into her nipples. He pulled the chain taut on them and let his hand slide down her stomach to her pubic mound.

  ‘Two hours this time. And don’t move a muscle.’

In my short time here, I’ve noticed a vast number of different kinds of people. I find most really nice and entertaining as far as their blogs go. I have spoken to a few people and find them largely forthright and helpful.

    It’s this mishmash of people that makes this site so appealing to me. As always , there are a few bad apples, but that what makes this so real in my short amount of time here.

    Braggarts are bound to surface and surely need to be sent packing. I’ve seen evidence of people banding together, as it was, to make their feelings known and it’s a wonderful thing.

   I’ve seen some cry out for help or opinions and seen it readily given. This is what I really like about it. 
  I’ve made a few friends here and we talk occasionally about nothing. Yes, I get it, this is a kink site. But this is where we should all be most ourselves. No pretensions. I see no need to try to impress anyone with someone you’re not.

    I’ve said my piece and I thank you all for being such gracious hosts and wish you all kinky happiness .

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Thanks Kyiv for the great challenge! I can’t figure out how to post the videos on here, but the on that moves me is a scene in Green Berets with John Wayne. Two of the main characters, SGT Peterson and a cocky civilian reporter are at a mortar pit returning fire during an invasion of their camp. 
   The reporter is watching the chaos around him and Peterson, who is considered a shyster and a screwup turns to the reporter and says

’This is what it’s all about, MR Beckworth!  Are you going to stand there and referee or are you going to help?’

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Hey everyone!

   It’s hard to believe that the month is almost half gone already. Some bits of snow have actually made it here making the month seem a bit more normal. 
   The blustery days make me long for snuggles by a fire and under a blanket. Warm cup of coffee, and the contented sigh of a warm body next to me.

   Someday…we all keep the faith that it will happen for us, and it will! Never ever give up. I won’t …not until she’s here with me.

  Best wishes for a great day and a marvelous weekend.

Time

Here with a few minutes of time to sit and I thought I would spend some time with you all. It’s cold but not snowing, the threat is here though. I have to admit that I find myself relaxed and feeling at home here. 
  I’ve met a few very nice people and am enjoying the pressure free chats and emails. 
   Thank you all for being very decent people and so much fun to follow along in the blogs.

 Best wishes to you all!

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