Just a word of warning for those following.. I am taking a break from the Cage for a bit.. Dealing with real life issues sometimes does that.. I WILL be back.. I won't guarantee I'll be the same carefree and happy (??) individual I have been here thus far..
Wish Me luck..
Dom
I've been in a somewhat reminiscent mood of late.. Somewhat, as PrincessFlitterP would call 'mushball' type of reminiscence.. I can't, and usually WON'T argue.. (what's the point any more, right?) But have a multitude of songs on My playlist (MOST of which were recorded before she was even BORN..) Here goes.. (I'm only allowed to list 4 at a time, and subsequent videos in the comments do not pop up, since I'm not a premium member)
For those like Me out there..
I'll admit, I originally posted this blog on another site.. A vanilla site designed for networking on cell phones, not meant for dating.. But the same intention applies to My life today as it did back in 2009 when I posted it originally..
Time..
Once in a very great while, one comes into Y/your life. Rough around the edges, but still, giving that spark, hinting at the treasure buried within.. Some may dismiss such a treasure for lower hanging fruit, dismiss such a catch out of hand, and who could blame them for doing so? For those that do, who would regret such a decision, even for a moment? Who would ever wonder, what IF..? I have taken many such chances over the years. SOME have bitten Me in unforeseen ways, others have succeeded beyond My wildest dreams.. Again, this time, I have won at the mostly losing game, and beaten the House yet again.. From the jewel I saw when first W/we began talking until now, the changes are absolutely phenomenal.. Ask those that knew her before.. They'll tell Y/you, the changes are nearly miraculous..
But all changes aside, all it took was honesty and someone willing to put forth the effort to show her, that something real was not just imagined.. It actually existed. Yes, she might still have moments that take her to the edge of her ability to reign in, and truth be told, sometimes she goes to the limits of where *I* can rein her in, but E/everyone has such moments.. After time to center up and cool off, though, W/we ALWAYS come back together, meeting in the middle, and facing the entire world stronger for reaching out to come back together in such a way..
I have not been blessed by just ONE such gem, but by TWO of them. I am SUCH a lucky and blessed Man..
I GUESS the point I am getting at herein is simple. YES, it may take some work on the Dom's part to polish this one that happens across Your path into that glittering jewel that ANY Dom worthy of the title would be proud to have at His side? Is that reward not worth the miniscule effort in time and energy to bring out? Is the challenge, in and of itself, not enough to get You salivating to find..? NAY, to hunt DOWN such hidden gems Yourself? How boring must life be for those seeking and finding only those putting forth the obligatory 'yes sir' types?
This original post, in it's entire three parts are available on request, and were written 06/26/09 pn another site, but again, fit as much NOW as they did back then..
Dom
Just a little insight into My memories that SOME out here might understand, and YES I am looking directly at the minute number of members here that might understand these musings..
and finally, also most poignantly..
Earlier today, a fellow cager and I almost hijacked a post devoted to another topic.. I saw the possibility arising and bowed out, but have avidly been reading all the posts therein since..
THIS post is for others who have or possibly still DO game online, in various game types, over various consoles or other platforms.. Feel free to post gamer tags, console or other device, and talk about any gaming aspect Y/your heart so desires..
PERSONALLY, I 'broke My teeth' playing MMORPG's, but have diversified dramatically.. I have branched out into First Person Shooters, Racing Sims, Outer Space Sims, before coming to light in My present genre du jour, the Battle Royale. FPS games included Combat Arms, Black Squad, among others. MMORPG's included the original Neverwinter Nights (including vanilla, Shadows of Undrentide and the third expansion whose name escapes Me at the moment..) I played World of Warcrack for almost a decade before leaving the retail version in favor of private (cracked) servers where I could play older versions and build My character outside the restrictive modern (and idiot friendly) cookie cutter templates.. Racing Sims, GTA and Need For Speed, outer space sims No Man's Sky (where Y/you can discover star systems worlds, creatures elements and upload them to be immortalized in real time star charts.. Also still play Elite Dangerous as well as Crypto Space Commander where Y/you can build a characters' skills then sell it online with their inventory for real crypto currency.. Presently, I am playing Player Unknown's Battlegrounds (PUBG) and have been playing for almost 2 years now.. I have several friends that play Internationally and competitively, most notably winning a $4 million purse a couple years back, as well as THE G.O.A.T. who goes into ranked matches alone fighting squads of 4 at a time and kicking asses..
I have a Gaming Group, which was founded way back in 2003 on NWN called Faerun's Fallen (Faerun being the world Neverwinter Nights and the Forgotten Realms is set in (Table top D&D or otherwise)) W/we have a presence in ALL of the games mentioned above as well as a plethora of others I probably don't even remember the names of..
So now, the dais is Y/yours.. What games/consoles/platforms do Y/you A/all play on..?
Dom
a..k.a. Slinfear
" Wait.. Whoa! Hold Up.. Stop the world, I want to get off", the kid cried into the uncaring void around him.. "I've seen enough, this place, this time is not for Me", He lamented.
A chuckle preceded a diminutive figure from the darkness around Him as they stepped into the failing light..
"Sorry, kid" the figure said, all aged, bowed and wizened.. "That's not the way this world works any more.. Hasn't been for centuries."
"But I've seen others call it quits, or even be taken in the blink of an eye, why am *I* not allowed the same out?" the kid asked..
"YOU, son, are very different from those around You.. Destiny, Paths needing walked, lessons needing to both learn or teach.. Until all of these criteria are met, You, lad, are stuck here, in the mud, through the tears, damn the pain, just suck it up and keep placing one foot in front of the other..", the ol Man responded tiredly.. "Nobody rides for free, and nobody leaves the ride until their time is up, regardless of the way it looks to You.."
"You seem like You know quite a bit about Me," the kid said, somewhat defiantly. "What makes YOU such an expert on the ways of the World, or is it just ME in particular?"
"Both", the older figure responded.. "Many years ago", He continued, "I, too, was YOU. Thinking the world should conform to the childish notions of right and wrong I held so firmly to. Expecting a just and balanced outcome from every situation regardless of My input, feelings or attempts to change it in any way.. Grow up, Boy, the world is NOT so black and white any more. Far more people are out for what THEY can get at the expense of anyone but themselves. Colors don't matter, right or wrong don't matter, hell, FAMILY doesn't matter for most individuals any more.. Open Your eyes and look around, the evidence is plain to see each and every day all around You."
"How did the world get to this point?" the kid nearly cried.. "I remember a childhood when I was told anything was possible if You worked hard and followed Your dreams."
"Too many people pushing THEIR dreams on others, MAKING people choose between their own goals or the goals of the individuals pushing them.. WHO wants to be the asshole out for just themselves when they can make another's aspirations come true?" the old man shrugged defeatedly. "NOW I wish I had stood My ground to get MY dreams instead of the dreams of others that have pushed Me to the side so they can chase bigger and better dreams for themselves, MAKING more and more individuals bow down to 'their version' of right or get run over by the common consensus.."
"They can't DO that!" the kid cried.. "I'm a Human Being! I have unalienable rights that were given to Me multiple times over the course of My life!"
"Don't You GET it, kid? Let enough people walk all over those 'rights' You speak so highly of, and You become less and less Human, until those doing the walking no longer SEE You as Human.. From that point on, there's only one thing to say," the old man sighed wearily.
"What's that?" the kid asked honestly.
'Garbage HAS no rights, kid"
This story was written when I was the KID, lamenting a world spinning out of control, way back in 1987.. TODAY, I confess, I write it more from the Old Man's perspective, and regret how I can see each of the facets of the story unfold. This is not the EXACT story as written way back then.. I DO have it posted on a dating site under the blog I was writing at the time, but said site has changed hands and formats so many times over the intervening years that I'm no longer even sure if they even still HAVE blogs there any more..
I have NEVER been able to write a piece, be it story, poem, song or otherwise and recreate it afterwards.. Once a piece is written, it's almost like it is erased from My mind, and it has ever been thus.
But yeah, this is as close to the original as I can reach.. Hope some out there may find it enlightening or useful..
Dom
03/16/2024
Originally
08/1987
As I have already said, on far more than one occasion, I believe, and am SURE that I will be corrected if I am wrong here, MY path is not the same as anyone else's path through this world. THIS is what makes every HuBe (Pronounced Hoo BEE which stands for HUMAN BEING) unique. I may not understand every HuBe's walk through life, but then I do not HAVE to in order to accept them as they are.. Nor do I expect, or REQUIRE anyone else not walking MY path to understand MINE.. But DO expect to be accepted, at least HERE, in a Community of My 'confessed' Peers..
I can and will accept a multitude of differing viewpoints and experiences among My fellow HuBe's under the vast umbrella that this Lifestyle I have devote well over half of My considerable life, and the VAST majority of My focus to living. Alas, I am only (I've used this word before, which I have been labeled by My cats, 'Hooman', and I accept this label (ALMOST) willingly.. From this point on, REGARDLESS of walk through life, and ESPECIALLY despite ranting and raving to the contrary, I will address EVERYONE I come into contact with as HuBe's.. We are ALL Human.. If W/we are cut, W/we bleed red. PERIOD. Anyone choosing not to be addressed as such has been warned of the consequences. From here on out, I REFUSE to be bullied to address ANYONE specifically beyond the parameters I have lain out in this manifesto.. Anyone choosing NOT to be labeled as a HuBe by Me has this right to do so, just as *I* have the right to call them 'person' if they refuse to accept this moniker.. The whole 30 million different labels HAS to stop somewhere, and THIS is MY line in the sand.
Flame away those that feel their inclusion in the Human Race is too restrictive.. You are FREE to not agree with, contact Me or concede with My views.. The door for those that don't is THAT way *POINTS*..Feel free to see yourself out, I will not hamper, hinder or spend more thought on those that choose this path..
Dom
Yesterday, PrincessFlitterP and I were blessed enough to start My Flitter on her journey.. A rough road lies ahead, but one W/we are A/all excited to walk down together.. She, My Flitter, went in with O/our support, and got signed up to take classes.. So I will be helping, and pushing her, to get the classes out of the way.. I can't wait to see the smile on her face when she passes her tests.. I'm just waiting for the day it happens..
Last night marks a rare occasion for Me.. I woke up, literally singing a song I had never heard.. This is only the second time in My life this has happened, and I immediately, to My chagrin, began writing it down here on the laptop I was recently gifted on notepad.. It didn't take long before the song blurred from one tempo to another and eventually was lost in the multitude of songs whose lyrics, tempos and rhythms I have memorized over the years.. I TRIED to record the tempo to this song, and I KNOW it would have been a hit had I been able to do so..
I understand that some out here might look down on Me and consider Me an 'insta-Dom'.. I do not take offense to this view.. I have always been the type to go for what I wanted, and damn the cost.. I do wear My heart on My sleeve, and have never hidden this fact.. Has it come back to bite Me in the arse? Damn RIGHT it has, has it changed the way I look at the world? Not in the least.. My newest girl is the perfect example.. She and I did not speak long, but talking is one thing, SHOWING is another.. She gave Me multiple chances along the way, as well as ample reason, to back out of this arrangement in the beginning. Her opening those doors for Me to, in the immortal words of Snagglepuss, 'exit stage right, even'.. SHOWED Me a soul that needed what I could give to her.. Her willingness to allow Me an out showed Me how much she wanted someone to stay, and how much she wanted to FIND that ONE that would take the time to see beyond the negativity and bluster..
Someone to take the time to dig through all the outer crust and the negativity caked around the gem I saw buried far beneath the surface.. Deeper than the forceful exterior she presented to most others.. Do NOT get Me wrong here.. She IS a force of Nature.. But she is a force that pushes Me to be better.. To build Me back to be the best I can, and SHOULD, be again.. She, like ME, wants what is best for the Family, PERIOD.. For that I can only ever say thanks for getting Me back on the track I never should have fallen off of..
I Love you, My FlitterFly..
Your Daddy,
Dom
P.S. For the final time on Your Special Day, Happy Birthday, My love, from Me AND the Nat.. (I heard her whisper it in your ear as she kissed you before she left for work..)