Drinfear's Ravings

 To anyone paying attention, be notified.. There are certain times of the year that I disappear.. The memory of My wife's birthday.. The memory of our anniversary.. The memory of My son's birthday, as well as a few others.. ONE such date is approaching, and I may not be as present as I normally am here.. 

 I keep a tab open on My browser, and My computer is on 24/7, but JUST because I appear to be online does not mean I actually AM.. That being said, if I am messaged, DO be aware that though I may 'show' as online, does not mean I actually AM, NOR does it indicate I am ignoring anyone.. 

 This challenge, -I- believe, and correct Me if I am wrong here, is unique.. Name a song that YOU personally remember debuting, with the year it did.. (Be it radio, MTV, VH-1 or any OTHER media form.. I will start with.. The Eagles - Best Of My Love, 1974.. y great grandmother took e regularly to a bar (The Dog House) in Lima Ohio.. She would take several shots and beer chasers.. I remember hearing the debut of 

 While there, over the radio, playing shuffleboard and pool by Myself.. 

 I wish this song, though sung in a different chord than -I- would sing it.. (I can give multiple multiple examples of a lower scale, if interested, I have whatsapp, and can share if interested) I do not CLAIM to be a singer, I have no distinctions.. (the quote is "Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery that mediocrity can pay to greatness" I am not great, I am mediocre, at best.. *shrug* I will leave that comment the way it stands..

 Call Me an idwalog.. *shrug* 

 I COULD say a multitude of things here.. But that is not My way. I could point out this or that, but again, it is not My purpose or place to judge anyone.. Yes, I am being vague, this is by design.. I am not here to shame or spotlight anyone, except those that prove themselves to be fake.. Differences of opinions, and double standards do not raise to that level, in My opinion, though others may disagree.. I cannot speak for those voices, only for Mine.. I, thankfully, cannot read minds, nor would I WANT to.. I DO know that as a DOM, Master and Daddy that NOBODY decides the rules I abide by but ME.. Anyone trying to tell Me how to behave, or how to act, or how to behave.. *sigh*  need more be said..? I think not.. 

 I have had multiple contacts, of late.. Some VERY agreeable, some.. meh.. Not as much.. Miscommunications on both sides leading to resentments on both sides.. Some making demands, but dismissing the same considerations in return.. Such is life. We live. We learn.. (Hopefully.. If we do not learn the lessons that life, the universe, that the Gawds are sending to us, we risk OTHERS being sent to REPEAT that lesson until it, finally, IS learned.. THIS is only My personal experience speaking.. But I DO consider ALL aspects of what has transpired, hopefully, to extract the knowledge I am intended to learn..

 I have had a MULTIUDE of input, as of late.. SOME constructive.. SOME, I feel, not so much.. It is not My purpose or place to judge anyonr, nor would I choose to fill that role.. Who am -I- to do so? -I- do not walk their path, I do not know their trials, their tribulations, so HOW can I decide whether their choices, or decisions, are correct or not? I only know and understand MY path.. Yes?

 My place, purpose and position in this life is NOT to judge anyone but ME.. I refuse to take that role, or put Myself in a position to feel "superior, or ABOVE" anyone else.. I AM a DOM, yes.. I have EARNED, over the years, the designation of "Master".. I have even earned the title of "Daddy Dom".. I never sought any of this recognition, it was given by others in My life.. 

 Like the nickname "killer'.. Like Trust, like respect, like Loyalty, these are NOT things to be DEMANDED, instantly expected, they are things EARNED, and this is SHOWN, day by day, by proving yourself worthy of these things.. If you CAN'T prove it, but DEMAND it anyway.. *shrug*  Yeah.. Anyone that DEMANDS it already KNOWS they cannot EARN it.. DO correct Me if I am wrong.. Expecting NOT to be disrespected is NOT demanding respect.. It is putting your foot down and drawing a line in the ground, stating "CROSS it, I have no time for the drama"..  NOT the same as saying RESPECT me because I have "dom", "master" or even "daddy" in the linked profile..  ANYONE can read "50 shades" and decide THEY want easy targets, labelling themselves this way or that.. NOT willing to admit to ANY formal training, ghosting anyone that asks questions because you come across as an ASSHAT so MUST be an "alpha type".. *cough*  right.. and the Pope is Protestant, huh?

 Recently, I made steaks for dinner for Natalie and Myself.. BEING Me, when I did so, I basted them with the seasoned butter and drippings (aka reduced fat) and decided it would be a good idea to put the spoon I used to baste them into My mouth, to taste the result, as well as clean the spoon for the next use.. WAY bad juju.. The rendered fat from the steak, on high stove temperature then grabbed hold of the insides of My lips and proceeded to burn them to cinders.. Yesterday, a piece from the inside of My lip was detached that was the equivalent of My index finger nail.. The burns have made it nearly impossible to even swallow, let alone speak with any form of coherence.. 

 Every choice made in life has a consequence.. I accept the consequences of My Own hubris, how can I NOT?  Right?  I made a choice, it ended FAR worse than expected, and I continue to live with the repercussions.. Such is life.. Yeah?  I could go into more graphic detail, but will refrain.. I have been unable to talk in any cohesive fashion and may not be able to do so for several days yet.. 

 Two weeks ago, I made the same mistake, in a different way.. I was peeling a watermelon, and decided pulling the knife TOWARD Me was an 'almost' smart decision.. The knife sliced through the rind, and stopped a quarter inch from severing My left index finger.. (bone sliced, nearly through completely)  

 The moral.. No matter how skilled you THINK you are, life happens, and cannot be predictable.. 

Dom

05/28/26

 Today, May 28th, 2026 would mark the 58th birthday of the woman, Lora Louise Jordan, I married on June 5th, 1990.. She gave Me a son, Dom, Jr, on October 5th, 1990.. In November 1990, My probation was violated and I was sent to prison.. The first week of June, 1990, My wife was heading Home from the grocery store.. HAD the light, was in the crosswalk.. A drunk driver ran the red light and never even bothered to stop.. It took the police, at the time, two weeks to trace the person down, arrested him, and before he was even processed, his lawyer had him off on a technicality.. (I will not go into the horrors here, but feel free to message for details, if you're into the macabre stuff, and I will share)

 My purpose here is to say Happy Birthday to a woman I meant to to share My life with.. 

Dom

05/28/26

 There are VERY few words in the English vocabulary that can express what we consider to be "greatness". There are FOUR that, as a man, I can admit, I lived to hear..

 Feel free here to speak up, I am ONLY speaking from My Own Personal experiences.. But once upon a time, I believed those words to be spoken by My Dad, whom I wrote  and posted here previously, to be My Hero, My role model.. Those words were to hear Him say "I'm proud of You became.." The meaning being implicit in who and ALL I am.. ALL of the adversity I pushed through, all of the darkness I faced, to become the man, the Warrior, I am today..

 I have since learned there ARE more important words in life, Personally expressed, or expressed by others. .Like admitting when You made a mistake.. This happens to ALL of us, hopefully, these incidents do not destroy the Trust and Respect between individuals.. I had such an incident happen in front of Me, and it wrecks Me to this day relaying or remembering it.. (feel free to message for details, I will not relate them here..)

 There are times people enter your life.. Sometimes for harm, sometimes for good, sometimes to teach.. EVERY person entering your life is there for a reason.. OUR purpose is to LEARN that reason.. Understand it.. Accept it.. Grow and move on.  SOME of us are hard headed.. We refuse to learn, to understand, to grow.. SO, whatever Higher Power you may choose, be it Karma, The Universe, God, Allah, Buddha, or otherwise, have to resort to sending the lesson time and time again until it is internalized, accepted, understood, so the NEXT lesson can begin..

 This post was meant to be a farewell to those I have met over the course of My life that showed they did not belong there, for one reason or other.. Apparently, it has become a teachable moment.. Things that were said in passing, but taken as "Gospel" as it were.. Everyone has their own motives, do they not? (ONLY speaking here from PERSONAL experience..) Who can honestly see those motives, honestly..? I have My ways of seeing through shadows and expectations, discovering those motives, but even -I- have to admit I am not flawless.. Otherwise, I would not have suffered nearly as much as I have throughout My life, right..?