at the end of the month I am leaving my sisters house and going to stay at a friends house for a month until I leave in June
I also have figured out what I want to do for a college class but first get my GED
I want to do computer forensics
I also am going to be doing gun training and hopefully after the basics gun classes a sharp shooter class
I am so excited and super happy
my son is also is also happy excited
I am finally getting back to one of my fav hobbies doing different braids and it is so relaxing me and I love it
I can't wait to have more time doing braids and learning more style braids
I love doing my hair different styles and I like doing other peoples hair
I also want to cook more freely but have to wait until I move but rn I am happy
2 months and 2 days to go until I move I am so excited and ready to move
all that is left to get is a pocket knife and pepper spray but have to wait until I get the pepper spray until I am down where I am going
just waiting until June 14 to pack the rest of our stuff
I am relaxing a lot more now
I can't wait to explore my new surroundings
well my sister keeps trying to get me to stay
she wants me to stay 2 more years and I cant do that or i'm gonna go crazy
I guess I'm gonna have to have a long talk with my sister but every time I do
she doesn't understand why I want to leave but she has always been petty with my mom
I don't understand that but that is me and this trip is about me and my son
about what is best for us and I don't know how to make her understand that
my son's birthday was yesterday and he was so happy he got a card and a stuffy from his teacher and he got 7 dollars from our next door neighbor
he is so excited to see his grandmother and his grumpy
I really loved learning everything that I learned at the bdsm summit it was fun learning more things about bdsm that I didn't even think of
I am feeling a little bit better about having a little time until I leave we are excited and a little nervous
I am relaxing a lot more to keep my stress levels down
I am also slowly packing more stuff
I have loved everything I have learned on my first day and I was loving every minute of it I definitely learned more about myself and what I want out of a dynamic
I took notes and I filled 13 pages full of notes
I learned more of what I like from the 7 different classes
I also like learning new things about myself
I have 2 months and 17 days left to move I also have $250 now I am also attending the bdsm summit and I am enjoying experiencing new things and I like learning from the bdsm summit
I also got my son his tablet and he is excited to leave and I am finally getting the freedom I want away from my family and don't have anything that I have to do with them while I am here I feel like anytime I live with them I get screwed over or don't get paid back the money they ask for so I am done letting them borrow money or anything to do with them bc I don't want to feel obligated
I have been listening to my audio books and journaling and keeping myself busy so I don't think about all of what i'm thinking about
I got my son's tablet today got everything set up
only thing left for me to get is sneakers for myself and summer shoes
wanting to meet more people that are willing to explore and discover new things with a submissive
I have discovered new kinks for me and I am wanting explore it but not finding a lot of people that are willing to do it
one of the new kinks is playing cat and mouse in the woods and setting a timer for myself to get caught
I would also like to explore more bondage
just looking for more ideas and wanting to explore more and what I might like with someone that will respect me and treat me kindly
well when son came I found the switch is not working someone put it in sleep mode and someone interrupted sleep mode and now it has an error on it and won't let me do anything I followed the instructions on Google and it didn't work so now I am not allowing any stuff of his go over there
I have all the money for the bus tickets and extra money so I am going to be counting down the days and still saving money and hopefully have extra money to get a p.o. box and hopefully buy some shorts
I have everything I need for this trip all I have to do is wait for the week we leave
I also have to make sure I have money to ship a box to my moms so I don't so much into the suitcases
my sister still want me to stay but I am not staying I can't stay here longer then I am right now
we have 2 months and 22 days and we both are excited and I am also nervous
we have to take a bus to a bigger city then wait 5 to 6 hours for the other bus then take 2 different trains then wait for my mom's boyfriend to pick us up and I am going to be exhausted but it is going to be worth it
has anyone read LIGHTS OUT by NAVESSA ALLEN
what are your options like it love it or hate it
my son went with his nana this weekend finally following through one of her promises I am glad he gets this time with her because she is dying she has brain cancer and with us moving he is going to be sad when it is time to say goodbye to her
I just wish she took time like this time before her diagnosis to spend more time with him after she had her own kids
I don't think of her as a mom besides her being my dad's wife
I think I resent her and my dad because they both cheated on each other after being with each other after so many years
I don't talk to my dad anymore because I don't want to be the only putting effort into this daughter-dad relationship
I have always felt he didn't want me and now that I am an adult I still feel that I guess he just doesn't that relationship
but I am glad that my step mom is putting an effort into seeing my son