L

Coming out of my corner for a bit 🫣

L’s journal (get it out of you )

Honesty, D/s, and the Cost of Lies.

😮‍💨

I’ve been thinking about honesty, and what it means to trust.

I believe that, In a dynamic, honesty isn’t optional. It’s the foundation on where everything rests on. And for some reason it’s the hardest thing to give. 

Real honesty, means exposure. To be honest is to be seen, and being seen means risking rejection. There are fear that creeps in sometimes, ( If I show too much of what a mess I'm,  will I still be worthy? )

I do my best to remind myself, That when I speak my truth, when I own my thoughts and feelings It builds closeness.

the thing about submission and honesty it’s not surface-level obedience. It’s a surrender of self, a deep offering that says, "I trust you to hold me, even when I’m messy, even when I’m scared."

But that trust—it’s fragile and submission isn’t just about my honesty. It’s about ours.

When a Dom lies, something breaks. To me, safety doesn’t come from control, it comes from truth, trust and communication. Knowing that when I kneel, I’m kneeling on something real.

A lie It’s not just about disappointment. It’s about disorientation. If I can’t trust your word, how can I trust your guidance?

I open myself—physically, emotionally, spiritually 🧘🏻‍♀️ ( and it hurts so much since is hard for me to connect with people and when I do, oh that's nice, till is not ) 
That kind of surrender demands honesty. Not just from me, but from a D. Especially from a D

Honestly isn’t just important, it's sacred. It’s the what holds the whole dynamic together. Honesty must go both ways. If I give you the truth of who I am, I need to know that what you offer me is just as real.

otherwise, what are we even doing?

I'm so excited, nervous, and feeling a bit shy.
But hey I also want to participate   😅

1: When did you lose your virginity?
*17yo ( I think 🤔 )  front seat struck. 
 

2: Rough sex or soft sex?
*both!!!  I love love,  and also like how going soft and slow can make you feel even more. 
 

3: Do you have any unusual kinks/fetishes?
*I guess?  Lol 
 

4: Weirdest place you’ve had sex?
* uff hard to explain, but there were reports of murder cases there a long time ago.  I didn't know that at the time. 
 

5: Favorite sex position?
* doggy!! He can have access to all of me that way. And I get a good spanking. 
 

6: Do you like to be dominant or submissive?
*to be submissive
 

7: Have you ever had any one night stands?
*nope .
 

8: Sex on the bed, couch or the floor?
*yes to all 3.  Oh, And someone mentioned to me a long time ago about the kitchen counter,  so I'm curious about that one. 
 

9: Have you ever had sex in a public place?
*I guess that's a yes, referring to  question #4 
 

10: Have you ever been caught masturbating?
*Nope  😇
 

11: What does your favourite underwear look like?
* found the love for Lingerie , especially if it gets selected for me. 
 

12: How often do you have sex?
*not often enough as I would like. 
 

13: Is there anybody right now you’d like to have sex with?
*yes! 
 

14: Do you prefer giving or receiving oral sex?
*giving, 
 

15: Most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to you during sex?
*i get embarrassed by a lot of things 😭
 

16: A song you’d listen to during hard/rough/kinky sex?
*never cared to have music before, but I also don't  pay attention to sounds around me, ( I actually didn't know that I myself can be a bit loud till it was pointed out 😅) See that was embarrassing to me lol 
 

17: A song you’d listen to during soft/slow sex?
*same as above.
 

18: Are you into dressing up for sex?
*yes! 
With the right person? Anything he wants. 
 

19: Would you prefer sex in the bath or sex in the shower?
*shower!
 But I like my showers hot so men usually don't like that 🤔. 
 

20: If you could have sex with any celebrity right now, who would it be?
*I'm too shy to even think about it 🫣
 

21: Have you ever had a threesome?
*no 
 

22: Do you/would you use sex toys?
*yes, love toys! 
 

23: Have you ever sent someone a dirty text/picture?
*yes, is hard to do it as a surprise text or photo, (but I think when I did it was my best effort  ) I do better when requested by a partner. 
 

24: Would you have sex with your best friend?
*nope 
 

25: Is there anything you do after sex?
*cuddles cuddles cuddles and food🥰
 

26: Something that will never fail to get you horny?
*praising, a " good girl " the " look," nice smile.  stern voice, romantic words. 
I guess lots of things 🤔
 

27: Early morning sex or late night sex?
*late night 
 

28: Favorite body part on the opposite sex?
*hands!!!  neck, and shoulders  🤤
 

29: Favorite body part on the same sex?
*long Legs 
 

30: Do you watch porn?
*yes, sometimes.