I am one of life’s survives. Many aspics of my life have been out of my control & I haven’t always had a choice in what path I have walked down , but I have always Carried my head high , tits up stood straight & put one foot in front of the other I sometimes hold on to more then I should ... with not always being able to control my path I always had to have control in the bedroom due to my past .. I have never been able to trust or submit, I have just took what I needed .. going from knowing pretty much who I was & what I needed most of my life to now finding my self taking another path but one that is my choice.
I find my self excited , scared & stripped back .... almost has if everything is all shiny & new like I see my self in a different light ... I have always been strong & gotten though life by a positive mind set & my strength & will power to not let others or situations keep me from being the best I can be.
Now this is the tricky & hard part do be able to take this new path & Discover this new side to me which is my submissive side I have to open up to someone , I have to let them in , let them take down my wall that i have built that as always kept me safe & my sanity bit they can’t knock it down I have to allow them to .. give them a brick at a time , to Develop trust in order for me to let go ... I don’t believe this Journey will be easy or will it be quick.
I need to find someone that is truly worth my submission , that will be patient , kind & understanding ... I need someone to be able to walk my Journey with me.
I do believe that I can , I do believe that is what I want , crave , desire & need. I’m willing to hold on to that side of me even if it takes a very long time.