Thoughts

I lay here thinking of what love is. My mind goes in so many directions.  Love has no boundaries so it is hard to wrap my head around it. I have loved and been loved in so many ways and by so many people. My mind keeps going back to one type of love.  It's not an easy love. It takes some of us a long time to achieve.  Some get it right away,  to me those are the lucky ones. Some of us fack it, so we get by. It isn't a hard love but some of us make it hard. Some struggle in their heads and it's a real struggle, it's a struggle that is so valid.  I know by now you are asking yourself what is this love I'm speaking of. The truth is, it's not a love that is given away. It's a love that has to start with yourself.  Yes it's self love. You have to love yourself in one way or another before you can allow lov to be given or received.  It's an oxymoron.  Why do I have to love myself before I can give or receive love. This love is a form of transference. You have to have a bit of this love to share it or receive it and except it. These are my thoughts and my feelings.  If you find something in this that helps you. Give yourself a big hug from me and tell yourself " I love you." It sounds simple but it works.  You may have to say it a couple times and get louder each time.  Just try it for yourself no one else. Be blessed. 

The great thing that I have found lately is that I can now be a blessing to more people. At first, I thought that being single would be bad and awful. The more I'm single, the more I'm able to be a blessing. I have the freedom to tell (even a stranger) they are beautiful and special. I still desire to have that one that knows, and I reinforce to them how amazing, beautiful, loved, cherished, desired, and would do anything for. I'm finding that even with that person in my life, I'm still able to , in an appropriate way, bless others. As long as the foundation is secure and maintained, I am still going to bless those around me. Lift someone up but be respectful and appropriate. Have fun. 

Play is not just about sex. Play is giving your sub a place to go so they can forget the world around them and focus on what is at hand. Closing off there minds is the goal. When this happens it is so sweet. They melt in your hands and they fully become yours. Just don't forget the aftercare. Bringing them back to a safe place is more important then anything else you need to do. Have fun and play well.