Obedient Bunny

Silence is comforting, darkness is soothing, the air whispers to us. It says that we are enough, we are not damaged or broken, we are whole. The gossip is cheap but it doesn’t matter as long as we know the truth. And the truth is all there is. We never lie or play games with each other. We do not set out to hurt one another. We would never damage what is perfect with ugliness. Before there was us there was nothing. As separate beings we mean nothing but together we are everything.

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When he loves me I feel it in every cell of my body. As his body enters mine, and our molecules exchange, we become a completely new entity. I feel alive when I am under him. The weight of his body on mine grounds me and brings me peace. When we climax together our bodies hum, we vibrate and for those few minutes we are invincible.

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Who was better? Why does he always ask that when I return from a date. Who was better? I hate to tell him that I don’t even think about him when I’m getting fucked by a hookup and once I am home I forget all about the hookup. So I can’t honestly answer his question but I do always say, “You are baby, you are”

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I want to comfort him but I don’t know how

I don’t know what he needs and he won’t tell me

So I wait to see how much worse it gets

When his back is flat against the wall

When he’s hit rock bottom

Maybe he’ll tell me then

Finally he comes to me seeking my comfort

He asks why I wasn’t there for him

He forgets the days I spent holding his hand

Hoping he would open up and tell me what he needed

And he cries and says I should have known

I remind him that reading minds is not one of my skills

Baby, I am writing because every time I try to tell you how I truly feel I say the wrong thing or get frustrated and we end up fighting.

I love you and I am so sorry that I hurt you. I know what I said about your past, specifically Justin, was cruel and I am sure it reminded you of the way he used to treat you. I am not him and I never will be (well maybe those little parts of him you actually did like). I am not sure how we found each other but I cannot imagine a more perfect partner and lover for me than you. Maria saw it and for the last 6 months I have been trying to figure out how to let you know that I see it too.

I love you and I am so sorry that I hurt you. I know you probably shouldn’t forgive me, I’m not even sure how you would. I don’t forgive myself. I let jealously and fear take over and I couldn’t see through it. If I could have I would have seen how hurt you were and I would have fallen to my knees and begged your forgiveness, but pride and insecurity overtook me. I let you down, I let myself down and yeah I let Maria down. She saw such perfection in us together that it breaks my heart that you had to tell her we might be through.

I love you and I am so sorry that I hurt you. I ruined the best relationship I have ever had, and that includes my relationship with Daniel. You not only saw me for who I really am but you accepted every part of me. The bad parts, the angry parts and insecure and afraid parts. You nurtured the parts of myself that I kept hidden from everyone (yes including Daniel) and embraced every quirk and kink. But even more importantly you let me see yours. You trusted me to not turn away, not judge you or shame you for your desires. You have no idea how it feels to have someone completely trust you with their heart, and I broke yours.

I love you and I am so sorry that I hurt you. Please forgive me. I will do whatever it takes to make it right. Whatever is necessary to make us whole again. There is no one else for me and I do not believe I can live my life without your hand in mine. If I never hear our voice or laugh again I might as well be deaf. If I cannot see your smile or the lust you used to have for me in your eyes, then I might as well be blind. And if I never get to taste your lips or the sweet honey of your desire again then I truly might as well be dead.

I love you. Please let me try again. Let us try again.

I like when you cup my face when you kiss me

I love when you grip my chin and hold me in place while you kiss me

I like when you call me baby

I love when you moan it

I like when you drop little kisses up my neck

I love when you bit me and mark me as yours

I like when you breath my name softly

I love when you gasp my name like a curse

I like when you ask if I'm ready

I love when you don't wait for an answer

I like how you ask if I want your fingers or your tounge

I love when you give me both

I like when you ask me to touch you

I love when you beg me to

I like when you caress my throat

I love when you tighten your hand

I like when your fingers make my skin tingle

I love when they ignite my flame

I love when you kiss me softly

I love when you force your tongue into my mouth

I like how you touch me in the shower

I love what you do with the spray

I like when you want me

I love when you need me

I always wanted a lover that was a secret

I always wanted a lover that had other lovers and shared

I always wanted a lover who asked what I wanted

I always wanted a lover that danced like he was fucking

I always wanted a lover that hurt me in the most delicious ways

I always wanted a lover that was famous

I always wanted a lover that quoted Shakespeare to me

I always wanted a lover who feigned indifference but really wasn't

I always wanted a lover who made me breakfast

I always wanted a lover that was an artist or a poet

I always wanted a lover who liked to fuck in public

I always wanted a lover that my girlfriends wanted

I always wanted a lover that liked a little bondage

I always wanted a lover that would do a little striptease for me

I always wanted a lover that made sure I got mine first

I always wanted a lover that changed the sheets after

I just always wanted a lover…

Shady motels and shady bars

Sex in the front seat, sex in the back seat, sex on the hoods of cars

Multiple orgasms when the Ferris wheel stops

Record time blow job in the gondola ride to the top

Sex in bar bathrooms

Sex in the back hall

Sex in the alley

Up against the wall

Smiling waitresses and a glaring Maitre d'

The tip will be big so nobody sees

Under the table hands high up on thighs 

Between the legs panties are pushed to the side

Fingers are probing, just short of disrobing

Moans are stifled as orgasms mount

The people listening really don't count

Out on the dance gloor we bump and grind

No one notices your hands on my behind

Skirts raised just high enough and zippers undone

Deeper and deeper you sink into mine

We're hot and we're sweaty but nobody knows

The orgasms we just had crinkled our toes

When he took me to his off campus apartment I expected a regular guy's apartment but his was surprisingly clean. "Your apartment is so neat" I said.  "Were you expecting a mess? I won't tolerate a mess unless it's your pussy that's a mess then I all for it" he replied.  I know I blushed.  I'm not a prude by a long shot but I'm not used to such a blatant declaration.  He smiled at my discomfort.  "Go stand in the middle of the living room like you did in my frat room." He instructed.  When I was in place he said, "Now take off your dress." I quickly unzipped my dress and let it fall to the floor. I was determined to do whatever he asked of me this time.  He walked behind me and pulled my hair to the side. He gently kissed my shoulder and then started to drag his tounge up my neck. When he got to the tendon there he sunk his teeth in. I jumped and pulled away.  "Now pet is that anyway to act when I show you some love?"  I let him pull me back into place.  He started to walk around me like he was assessing my body.  Every so often he brush his fingers along my skin and then suddenly he'd reach out and pinch me.  I stood as still as I could while he smiled.  When he had walked all around me he leaned in close and whispered, "Now I want you to get bare for me." I took off my bra and panties.  He reached over to the sofa and grabbed a pillow and he threw it at my feel. "Kneel" he barked.  I knelt on the pillow and he walked away.  When he came back he knelt behind me. "Now remember to stay still pet or I will punish you this time."  He reached around me and snapped a clamp on my left nipple. I barely held in a whimper the pain was so unexpected.  "What's wrong pet? You agreed that you'd try everything I wanted this time, was that a lie?"  "No Sir" I managed to say.  Then he snapped a clamp on my right nipple.  There was a chain between the 2 clamps and he tugged on it and I let out a whimper.  "I love that sound" he said.  He walked in front of me and said, "We are gonna have so much fun.  Now for your first lesson."  He unbuckled his belt and pulled it out of the loops.  He set in down on the sofa and said, "We may need that later."  Then he pulled down his zipper. "Reach up here and take my cock out."  I reached up and carefully pulled his cock out.  He pushed his jeans down to the floor and kicked them to the side.  "I want you to know you will only suck my cock with me standing over you and you on your knees. Do you understand?  No other way." "Yes Sir" I replied. "Yes Sir what?" he asked. "Yes Sir I will only ever suck your cock with you standing over me and me on my knees." I said quickly.  "Good girl. Now open your mouth" he demanded.  I opened my mouth and he slid his cock in all the way to the back.  I started to pull away but he twisted his fingers in my hair and held me still.  He chuckled, "You can do better than that can't you, for me?"  I nodded.  He started to fuck my mouth with slow deep strokes.  After a few minutes he said, "You can handle more" and he started to thrust faster and deeper.  Every thrust went a bit deeper until I could feel the head of his cock slipping down my throat.  He kept thrusting for another 5 or 6  minutes before he said, "OK pet, I want my cock down your throat as far as I can get it.  You need to breathe through your nose and relax your jaw, can you do that for me?"  I nodded.  He immediately thrust in fast and deep and when I thought he was as far in as he could get he pulled my head foward until my lips were pressed against his body.  I started to gag and strugle against him.  He said softly, "Just a minute more pet, I'm almost done.  Yes good girl, keep me right there.  Here comes my first load"  He grunted and his cum flooded my throat.  "Swallow it all pet," he said firmly.  I swallowed.  Thinking he was done I started to pull away."Did I say I was done" he asked as he continued to stroke in and out of my mouth.  "I still have another load for my sweet girl because she deserves it. Yes, you know you do." I started to whimper and he pulled back a little.  "OK pet I'm going to fill your mouth and I want you to hold it until I say you can swallow."  He thrust a couple times and then let go with jets and jets of his cum.  My mouth was immediately full and when he quickly pulled out be said, "Don't you dare lose a drop, do you hear me?" I was on my knees, my mouth full of cum, looking up at him and he said, "You look so beautiful right now."  I dropped my gaze.  He put his finger under my chin and turned my face up to look at him. "Swallow" he whispered. I swallowed it all in 2 gulps and then gasped for air.  I had barely caught my breath when he tugged on the chain between the nipple clamps. My nipples had gone numb while he had his cock in my mouth but now the pain came back with a vengeance.  I couldn't hold it in any longer and I shouted, "What the fuck!  That hurt"  He just sat down on the sofa and said "You there is a 3rd clamp that goes with these 2. I could put that one on you too."  "Where would that one go?" I asked.  He looked down between my legs.  "No!" I shouted.  He leaned forward slowly and wrapped his hand around my throat.  "Then I suggest you stop shouting."  He released my throat and reached out and took both of the clamps off and I howled in pain.  He quickly took one nipple in his mouth and he cupped my other breast.  After a minute or so he switched his mouth to the other nipple.  When he sat back he asked, "Better?"  "Yes Sir, a little" I replied.  "Now stand up and lay over my lap."  When I didn't move he said, "Come on I know you know how this goes. Isn't this the part where you ran out on me last time?"  "Yes Sir" I said softly.  "Are we going to have that issue this time?" he asked.  "No Sir we are not."  I moved over to his side and laid across his lap.  He was still bare and his cock was hard as a rock under me, this was going to be interesting.  "Sir?" I asked. "Yes pet?"  I remember last time you said you wanted to spank me for your pleasure and for mine, if I let it be.  I think I understand that now."  The first smack came down on my left cheek, the second on my right one.  He went on this way for 20 smacks.  The next smack hit the tender skin right below my cheeks.  I jerked a little when that one hit.  "Yes the ones down here do hurt more and they will make it painful for you to sit tomorrow but everytime you feel that pain I want you to remember how wet you got when I gave it to you."  He slid his finger under me and found my clit.  "Yes so wet." he mummered.  When he finished spanking me he stood me up and said "Come here pet."  He pulled me on to his lap, gave me water and chocolate and wrapped us in a blanket.  "Are you OK pet?" he asked. "Yes Sir I think so"  "It wasn't too much?" I looked at his face and said, "No Sir. It was right up to the limit but you didn't cross it."  He kissed my cheek and whispered, "I'm so glad you gave me a second chance."