To me, obedience is never a sign of my powerlessness. It is the most powerful choice I can make—a deliberate act to entrust my well-being to your leadership.
My internal world is often a vibrant, overwhelming chaos. My AuDHD brain doesn't just prefer a firm hand for guidance; it requires containment for survival. When I offer my obedience, I am not giving up; I am creating a protocol that allows me to find a sense of safety and stillness. When I follow your direction, I am fundamentally giving you the authority to create a stable, safe space for my mind to rest.
My ability to grow is entirely dependent on your commitment to my protection. I need you to lead so that I can heal from the deep exhaustion of having to lead myself against a chaotic world. My obedience is my way of handing you the reins to the system I am too tired to manage alone.
This is not a casual agreement; it is a sacred trust. I will obey so that I may grow, and in my growth, I solidify the structural integrity of our dynamic. Understand this: my submission is the blueprint for my peace. Treat it with the reverence it deserves.