A recent conversation I had with a Dom type, included me saying the following:
Subs with brains are SEXY! If you don't find that sexy then it is likely you are intimidated as fuck and need to reevaluate yourself!
No further explanation needed.
P.S. Dom types with brains... 💖💖☺️
As people we tend to think we are so clever. And perhaps that is true, at times. Other times, even though we think we have properly camouflaged ourselves, our actions, and intentions- we still stick out like a llama in sparkly pajamas dancing in the middle of a field.
(Oh what a fun mental image-made me giggle a bit)
Lies are lies. Full stop. Do not pass go. Do not collect $200. Lies are NEVER accidental-always a very purposeful choice. *Yet, there is that llama again doing the Electric Slide. *You think you are so smooth, but really, not so much. Lies dont stay concealed. Lies have a way of being revealed and unraveled.
The only thing that has changed is my reaction. Yes, I still find the lies offensive. As KB said, I know what I bring to the table. Lies are not now and never will be part of my charm. I do get saddened when people feel the need to lie to me but the truth is, I just don't have time for it. Instead I'm going to sit back, kick my feet up, grab a drink (usually water, to be honest)- and just watch as the show goes on. That's what it is, isn't it? I shall be amused.
Get down with your bad self dancing llama. Although, you no longer get the best of my sparkle. My lane is over here...soap opera free 💖
Sometimes people have good intentions even though their execution is crappy. In this kinky world there are many activities that you might not personally enjoy or agree with. Good for you!
However, your kinks will not always match up with someone else. SO WHAT?
I recently had someone get mad at me because I participate and quite enjoy knife play. Yes it was a bit edgier and involved some cutting. (Tic tac toe has never been so fun!) They attempted to tell me that they don't believe I understand the risk involved.
"I don't approve of cutting. No way, no shape, no form."
Me: "good for you"
Them: "you need to stop it"
Me: "I was neither looking nor asking for your permission or approval."
It isn't for everyone. Yes there are dangers, but there are also dangers in breath play, rope play, impact, wax, fire...and those are to simply name a few. One big reason why I am careful who I participate in these activities with.
Its interesting the way our brains process things and the limits that we place. They may not make sense to everyone, but guess what?! They do not have to!
The whole situation just rubbed the wrong way. I'm sorry you don't enjoy the same things, but you won't steal my enjoyment, my surrender, my happy place....
Now, if you'd excuse me I would like to go back to dreaming about the next encounter with knives....💖💖
Currently feeling very consumed....
Feeling swallowed up by the waves.
It has been a LONG week. A lot has happened in a short period of time. Not all bad, some very amazing moments, yet definitely left feeling overwhelmed. I relate to this song so very strongly...
And as I'm overwhelmed, I go back to this song. Its fun to sing and harmonize to! That is therapeutic to me. And the romantic side of me shines through. That fairy tale side perhaps.
💖💖
Recently a Dom here on Cage told me one of the biggest mistakes he sees subs make is developing feelings for their Dom. That D/s isn't like regular relationships. And while on one hand I fully understand what he is saying, if I am not operating in a way that includes my feelings and emotions, D/s or not, then everyone involved misses out on part of what makes me sparkle. I operate with and from my heart. I feel deeply.
I will end with this..how a heart can be so happy and so sad all at once, I don't believe I will ever know. Its ok to cry. Its ok to feel deeply.
Maybe one day I will understand...maybe...
*breathe Sparks, breathe"-
"I could have missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance...."
I saw this today, and after recent experiences here on Cage, the words resonate loudly.
I am tired. I am worn out. I have added another padlock and more bars to my tower. I apparently expect too much...
At first I was not going to post this. I mean, it seems silly. However, life is too short to worry about that. Things around here need some Sparkly happiness anyway. :)
I want to celebrate with my friends! So come on in, grab a drink, some food and have fun. I would say behave yourself, but....😘
At the Dungeon tonight, just feeling lost. Kinda sad tonight. My thoughts are jumbled, yet I need to get them out. Lucky you!
I can't put my finger on it exactly, though I have a few ideas.
This blog post has been brewing for some time. I feel "broken". Those insecurities exacerbated by people that tell me I am important, but words only extend so far. I realize, like most people, when I feel safe and secure I am more authentically me than when I do not feel that. My whole attitude is different.
-i have also heard that I simply don't try enough or hard enough. Anyone who knows me even a little knows that statements like that are a kick to my very inner core-the deepest parts. It is devastating. You have NO IDEA! Submission and service are deep for me.
If you are lucky enough that I tell you my fears-stomping on them, making fun of them, and especially minimizing or disregarding them...none of that will help you. At all. Ask some here who really know me.... My fears are delicate and gentle and fragile.
-lets talk about sex...if in the first 10 minutes sex gets brought up in a conversation, I usually mentally check out. I have a hard enough time with people I really trust, let alone someone that i have exchanged 4 sentences and maybe 20 words.
RACK OFF HAIRY LEGS! Seriously!
And again...to the people in the back.....captivate my mind first! For the love of all things good....seriously. Don't try to captivate me with talks of sex...makes me want to vomit and I feel 50 shades of broken and awful. Even now I am wiping a tear from my eye...ugh....tears. They are sparkly tears of course :)
The night is going to be long...i feel like I don't belong around here anymore...though I feel like I'm broken, I know that I'm not. I am me. I am sparkly 💖 and I am beautiful. none of this makes me weak. Nope!
Think again Batman!
My message...my heart. 💖 too many people tearing down. Too much preying on insecurities.
Happy ✨ Sparkly Friday :)
to all the wild women here....thank you for being part of my life. 💖
It amazes me that communication is so difficult. Recently I was starting to feel I had found a safe place to land, but... The block button was placed upon me instead. I get the frustration. I get being sad, but may I suggest communication and the opportunity to talk or work through things? The block button allows for zero advancement in the communication department...
Communication is hard. It can and should be challenging sometimes, especially when looking for depth of any kind. And please, I invite you to join me in the deep end. Swim. Adventure. Grow.Authenticity is where it's at....and the only place you will find my submission.
***By no means is this a soapbox I stand and proclaim my perfection...the farthest thing from it. I make mistakes too. I suck at communication sometimes. It is a reminder to myself as well.***