So i recently fucked up with my Master. I don't know if he'll forgive me any time soon, but honestly i don't want him to right away either. I don't want to rush through any of the process because forgiveness and apologies need to mean something. I wholeheartedly regret what happened and how i went about it. I don't feel i deserve forgiveness right away if he will forgive. I hope he will, but breaking trust can cause scars. No matter how we feel, a mistake will always be remembered. Forgive but never forget is a powerful phrase that i think everyone should remember. I have apologized to him, but as he's said saying sorry only makes me feel better when in truth it doesn't. I am 100% sorry for what i did and will not do it again. I have been mentally punishing myself for it and my stupidity. I hope that I can earn back his trust in time, grow and move past this. I will never let myself forget it because of how i hurt him.
With that said I want to apologize on here. I apologize, Master for hurting you. Please forgive me for my stupidity and mistakes. I love you and I never want to cause doubt in our relationship again.
We fit, we fit in our own unique way. Is it prefect? No. Nothing ever is. Will there be bumps? Of course. There's always going to be when two people are working to build something together. Whatever that something may be.