Once innocence is lost it can never be translated in its purest form to another relationship. That is what makes your first experience so special. Your first person seems so special. The first time you have ever experienced how amazing it is to be yourself without restrictions, to be understood without judgement, to be connected with your body and mind. It's pure attraction. Your first sets the benchmark for all future experiences and expectations. It's been my experience in discussions with many of my friends that the first experience has not ended well, and that time may fade some memories and bring healing to a broken heart but that person is never erased from your mind, their presence is never entirely forgotten. But for anyone that has recently experienced this, know that the most important memory to come is number two, the one who can see you with your scar and hesitations and be there for you unconditionally. Who puts your needs above their own, who will make sure you are safe and cared for. They will be so amazing that the scar from your first will fade so much that you will barely remember. This experience is far more special than anything before it.