M/s 24/7

Recently I responded to a post here in forums about a D type that had "broken" their s type and was now looking for suggestions. 

When the D type is completely vested in the breaking, when the breaking is the fantasy---  the post breaking is not as exciting and the D type will inevitably loose interest. 

If the D type is  more vested in the process of breaking than the outcome the result is disengagement. 

In my opinion s types are more than just a series of holes.

s types have amazing talents, intrerests, and abilities that can be experienced by their D types. Cutting an s type off from their abilities is like a D type cutting off their nose to spite their face.

A D type that understands that there are places where the s type is smarter then them and utilizes that talent is only better for it. 

When an s type flourishes- the D type makes out like a bandit.  

It is a point of pride for me as a Master that My slave has has so many abilities.  

It is my job as a Master to push her into being a better, stronger, and more self actualized person. 

It is the difference between owning a TORNADO and owning a tomato....

I recieved an email from a good friend and organizer about a communication that they recieved. 

The person stated that they are aware of someone who has returned to the community who has a history of consent violations and bad behavior...  ect...

My friend organizes a munch and parties and has asked what I think. 

As a long time organizer I  have dealt with this before and here are my guidelines:

1) if this person shows to my parties and breaks my rules they are dealt with accordingly. 

2) my job is to manage my space for a limited time and not to police the community. 

3) although I  would love to believe the person bringing this information forward, people are not always honest and sometimes come with alternative motives. 

Because my community is small- one half is the other halves exes-  I do not take sides. Nor do I interfere in interpersonal spats. 

My welcome list is heavily regulated. 

I am cultivating a certain demographic and people that tend to do those things do not feel comfortable for long in my space. That is intentional. 

A few years ago I began my anti racism journey.

 I started by going through a course that lasted a couple of months. I did that course twice. And then I began attending monthly anti racism accountability classes.

 This work in my life has changed me, defined me and has come to help me grow into the person that I always hoped I would be.

 However I have come to find myself unwelcome. It was made very clear at the last meeting by the leaders. 

I don't meditate. Meditation irritates me. It does not calm me.

  I work this program relentlessly, fiercely and consistently.  I want to be challenged. I want to be accountable.

And my assumption was if others are there they want the same thing.

This is a mistake. They don't want the same thing. They want to go to these classes so they can brag to their friends that they go to these classes. Then at the same time not change their behavior.

I am not saying I am perfect. I am not saying that I am not racist. I am not saying that I don't have a lot of work to do.

What I am saying is I come at this with an unrelenting spirit.

 So I have decided to no longer go to the accountability classes.. I don't feel that I have much to learn from them anymore. I will attend the courses though, when I'm out of school.

 This is a really painful decision. But I feel it is the right one for me to continue to grow.

I think mostly I'm hurt because in these classes I laid bare so many things that I struggled with.Things that I wouldn't or couldn't tell My beloved..

So to be unwelcome there there is a tough pill.

I am afraid of back sliding. Having my learning stilted. Or that I will stop pushing myself. 

But mostly I  am angry and hurt.

Im sure this will pass. 

Thanks for listening...

Continued with the laundry.

Made and served dinner.

Entertained guests and taught a lesson

Took care of the dogs

Thats it for today:) 

I am tired, going to nap- My beloved is coming with me!!! 

These moments are the best moments...

My beloved made an amzing breakfast.

Doing laundry

Prepping dinner.  

Every Master is different so every slave roster is different. 

We have been M/s 24/7 for 23+ years and here is a glimpse into what My beloved does.

I will be updating throughout the day. 

So far today:

Cleaned the tub

Prepped my bath

Set out my clothes

Served my morning cider

Sprayed the dog beds down 

Prep the laundry

And is currently taking out the dogs 

We have been up about an hour and a half....

Today has been amazing. 

I am catching up on homework that I put off over the weekends festivities.  

One of the things that is staying with me is that I put on my chains and vest to Officiate.

I forgot my arm piece--  

I havent worn those pieces since before Covid. 

It felt - raw-- you know...

Raw in a good way. 

Like- oh yeah- this is who I am.

Im not talking about the feeling within my relationship. 

Im talking about that social recognition feeling. 

I earned those pieces through organizing, teaching, fundraising.  

It felt nice. 

I tell people- call me this- if someone is aware of who  I am and what I  have done and they want to show respect- they call me that. 

But its not a requirement. 

So when people choose to use my honorific- it touches me deep. 

I feel seen in a different way. 

It was amazing. 

Last night when we were doing the collaring outside under the stars--- 

The coyotes started calling. 

The timing could not have been more perfect...

This morning My beloved let out the dogs. 

I got her something to eat and she has been resting all day. 

I have been puttering around the house. It will take about a week for everything to be placed back where it needs to go...

Tables, chairs, ect... 

But I am so proud of what we accomplished yesterday.

I have homework due tomorrow- but it can wait. 

Im still kind of in this surreal state of amazement....

Wow. Good day. 

Ok. Handfasting is done -- 

Prepping for the collaring ----

So tired...

Im in much pain ...

Resting now --- the collaring is my part...

So far - amazing success