Bored out of your mind

i am so tired I just want to rest but I am not done not yet my family is not happy yet 

Why can't I have him  he is so yummy and cute.

All  I want is a taste  just a small little taste that all 

I had a dream last night. 

In this dream I was doing my regular thing getting ready for work. so I was just about to go start my car and while I was walking a stranger came and slam me into my car grab my hand and rasie,them to the top of my car. He stared straight in to my eye and said. ( Have a great day at work.) Then He step forward and  came closer to my lip and ....... i wake up .

Where can I find one  to please me and I him 

To actually  get fuck by him would be the greates   pleasure  of mine. To be his to please and control,it turns me on like no other.

To hide  something that on one can find out is hard .how much you want to tell him,how much you want to tell the truth but can't.  how you have to keep going but it killing you slowly to a point you seem like you need help.  Where you end up by yourself you simply keep quiet until you have time to scream it all out or cry it out. You keep your head up and faces the music.

I miss the old you. I have changed to a point i don't even know how this is. I use to do thing no one would do so I just want to go back but not all the way there.  I am dead to a point I just don't care anymore. I was a sweet girl but I don't know anymore. ( how feels the same? )  I ues to be able to wait but not anymore. 

Can't  hear being sick sucks, my hearing goes away and my coughing leaves me to a point were I can not breath.  Been to the hospital and now have to keep fighting.sorry would have blog more but is still sick so you won't see me blogging for a while.but some people don't care that fine and all but if there is people reading my blog just wanted them to know. With love divinity?