Bored out of your mind

All  I want is a taste  just a small little taste that all 

I had a dream last night. 

In this dream I was doing my regular thing getting ready for work. so I was just about to go start my car and while I was walking a stranger came and slam me into my car grab my hand and rasie,them to the top of my car. He stared straight in to my eye and said. ( Have a great day at work.) Then He step forward and  came closer to my lip and ....... i wake up .

Where can I find one  to please me and I him 

To actually  get fuck by him would be the greates   pleasure  of mine. To be his to please and control,it turns me on like no other.

To hide  something that on one can find out is hard .how much you want to tell him,how much you want to tell the truth but can't.  how you have to keep going but it killing you slowly to a point you seem like you need help.  Where you end up by yourself you simply keep quiet until you have time to scream it all out or cry it out. You keep your head up and faces the music.

I miss the old you. I have changed to a point i don't even know how this is. I use to do thing no one would do so I just want to go back but not all the way there.  I am dead to a point I just don't care anymore. I was a sweet girl but I don't know anymore. ( how feels the same? )  I ues to be able to wait but not anymore. 

Can't  hear being sick sucks, my hearing goes away and my coughing leaves me to a point were I can not breath.  Been to the hospital and now have to keep fighting.sorry would have blog more but is still sick so you won't see me blogging for a while.but some people don't care that fine and all but if there is people reading my blog just wanted them to know. With love divinity💕

It ain't  my fault you turn me on. With your hands,words, eyes and body.how you keep me up at night craving you with nothing but your words swirling in my head, how you end up in my dreams were I wake up turned on where i have to chang the sheets. Take a shower were nothing i do can fix the craving for you. How i try to resist him how I keep my distances but i can t, how it start to eat me up. How i end up with my  hand tied to the bed and his head in between my  legs eating me out. How after he had his full he fills me up with his seeds.So i enjoy it and tell myself this is only a one time thing. But my craving for him only simmers on a low burner.  How i know it will come again. Until I claim him as my own.  ( it was a good dream I was lucky to remember it all) 

U sit on your bed thinking about your dom or master and wounder. why he is not talking to u no more, why he is playing games with u. But u don't know if u have been replaced or he seen u as a bad sub or just a stupid sub u don't know Why. he might have  just simple forgot about u. I don't know, you get sad and you try to keep your head up and not look sad,you try to look like a brave woman in front of everyone. Oh how u wish u had a better dom. To treach u right,and make u and his life  better for himself and u make it better for him. Were you both become equals.