Bored out of your mind

It ain't  my fault you turn me on. With your hands,words, eyes and body.how you keep me up at night craving you with nothing but your words swirling in my head, how you end up in my dreams were I wake up turned on where i have to chang the sheets. Take a shower were nothing i do can fix the craving for you. How i try to resist him how I keep my distances but i can t, how it start to eat me up. How i end up with my  hand tied to the bed and his head in between my  legs eating me out. How after he had his full he fills me up with his seeds.So i enjoy it and tell myself this is only a one time thing. But my craving for him only simmers on a low burner.  How i know it will come again. Until I claim him as my own.  ( it was a good dream I was lucky to remember it all) 

U sit on your bed thinking about your dom or master and wounder. why he is not talking to u no more, why he is playing games with u. But u don't know if u have been replaced or he seen u as a bad sub or just a stupid sub u don't know Why. he might have  just simple forgot about u. I don't know, you get sad and you try to keep your head up and not look sad,you try to look like a brave woman in front of everyone. Oh how u wish u had a better dom. To treach u right,and make u and his life  better for himself and u make it better for him. Were you both become equals. 

Working,working until you die. 

Fucking,fucking,fucking until you can't fuck no more.

Master and slave, daddy and badygril/boy,pet and master, mistress and headmaster.

pain and pleasure.

Taking care of, trained etc.

Where do you lay? 

Both

One

Two

Three or five.

Or none. 

Where you are still waiting for the right one.where you are able to do these thing. 

Or none where your partner is living a very relax life. I don't know it up to you..

Please choose one.

When you read a really good book and when you get done with it. Then you go to bed with the book on your mind and you end up dreaming about it when you get to the sex scene and you wake up becaues it was so powerful to a point where you wake up craving it. Where his hand are on you how your body cravyes it to where it hurt how you cant fix the craving. Where you don't have your dom to help fix  the craving and you can t do it yourself and you need  help but don't know how to ask for help with it.  ( or you dont have a dom at all to help with the craving) So you just sit there or more like lay there with the pain until it goes away, or you spend time with the craving until you try to get it off your mind but you still feel like it still there but on a low burner.  How your body still has the feeling and you just cant get it out of your System.

I really want to show my true self but it is hard to do so, when you  get judgment from everywhere or you don't seem like the person they had in mind. That true because you did not show them your true self until you are more comterbal with them.  To find the right dom you are to be with is hard but I must keep going he may be hard to find but he is out there. I will have to keep my head up and keep looking. 

So your in the corner for the six time today. Daddy is mad at you because you ruin his favorite shirt and cut up his important papers,this morning. You have given him a tantrum in the hallway and chose not to eat your breakfast and jump on your bed and did not want to get dress this morning. Daddy has been very patient with you but the shirt and paper has been his last straw. With u just getting out of the corner u throw a tantrum in the living room floor.  He pick u up from the floor to over his shoulder with you still having your tantrum and goes in to the bedroom places you on it. He takes your clothes off while fighting with you ,turns u onto your stomach an..... smack ...smack, (with very powerful blow of his hand, on my ass ) you get tears in your eyes you start to cry. He steps back breathing hard.   With a Look of rage in his eyes. but he calm down after hearing u cry for a minute  or two. he breaths out of his mouth and in to his nose  then goes and grabs u and all he says is "count."..... ( got nothing did to write this was mostly a dream and I wake up at this part so got nothing to put here.)( sorry idf I am a bad blogger  it so my frist time doing this so sorry please  pleas please pleas no bad comments