Bored out of your mind

When you make a ripple in a calm pond. You are remembered until the ripples stop and the pond is calm again. When the ripples were small and not big were they felt like they made a big difference in some ones life but they don’t change and let the ripples just pass by then you are forgotten and you don’t matter to them no more. The message and support just make no waves in such a calm pond. Then it time for you to leaves and continue on your journey to fine the right kind of pond.

Wait........... That word it makes my skin be on fire and my body starts to ach. I need to have pleasure at my finger tips. The need to feel like i am flying or falling from a high places. But the word is yelled again (wait) how can i when i need him on me in between my legs making me scream out his name until i cant scream no more. But no i get the one word that makes me want to be upset. 

When you sit there with candles in front of  me on a delicious cake.they tell me make a wish, what do I wish for, somthig I don't have  or what I do have. Or what I  want to keep.  hmmm I always get this question,so I taken my  time to make a wish. How about you ?

I had a though of a song that I have not heard in some time.so I started to sing that song and my family is a mess for they heard me and started to sing that song with me it was magical... ?Lol Soo cool ? ( who is loving you ) man that song is good .

When you get that ich it do somithing to you ,Knowing when you do it it will become something bad but you must do it to get the pleasure of of it. when you finally get that ich you don't worry about what happens next you stay in the moment and In the pleasure of it. It not until you come down from being high and out of mind that you start to think. .....????( Does he or she  love it will you show more or will he or she ask you to stop and leave?) You start to get nervous and worried but they are still in there own pleasure you simple wait and keep quite until they start to speak. 

You know when you get this feeling  you  just want something but can't figure out what it is or it to hard to ask your sir or daddy or master for it. Where you get  chough up or start to get a little frustrated.where your sir has to demand or ask sweetly and wait patiently for you to tell them and when you do you might just get......

I get that feeling all the time but I don't have those pleasure of asking for them or playing them out. I am left to just hold on to them and wait patiently for the right dom ,so that I can play out or do thoes thing with my very own dom ,master or sir.

I would love some peanut butter icecream with peanut butter cookies hmmmmm it would be soooooooooooooo good.bye until next time ?

Lay down  and take a deep  breath in and keep your head up and take the pain. Words that all there is, no action, no body movements, no pain by someone else body part hitting you,no. It is just plain old  words with pain,  word that sit on a pice of paper for you to read ...and read...and read,over and over again.oh how that pain makes you do stupid stuff and make you look like a fool.Word big as a giant but hurt so bad it feels like it has your heart and soul.oh how the person who wrote it  just leaves as if it was nother but words. Oh how that is true and all we have to do is walk a away, and throw away the pice of paper in the trash and the pain will go with it.

The most men will give me is commands and to please him. I will do so with no questions but I would like the same from him. To please him and to have utter pleasure and a peaceful relationship  would be wishful thinking. Also to be a dream for a dreaming sub.  To fight for him and to go beyond my limits is a true sub for a dom. But to have the same for a dom is just a fighting couple  to  me. I will like to have a calm before a storm.  But i am a brat and like to be a bad girl  for my dom. So that he can punish me to a point he finds pleasure into it and find many ways for him and me to be please. 

 I just can't get it out of my head. How he moved so fast to were his hands go for my neck or legs. How he gives me a little squeeze  to my neck. How he rubs my legs soft and slow. How he tells me sweet nothing . How he plays me to a point i am scared to show my faces in front of him. Oh  how i miss the old you. How he fuck me to the point i cant walk for days and pout when he say no to another round of play time.  The new you is more stronger and more commanding I am loving it. It makes me want to beg for more. To a point it drives me crazy and head over hills, for your attention. 

She drives me crazy.all I want is her. To places my hands around her neck and hear her moan out my name. To have my hands explore thoes curvy. Oh just thinking about it turn me on like no other. When I sleep all I think is about her  to a point i wake up turned on and have to take a cold shower but all I have to do is make a call and have her here in my bed moaning my name all night long.  To have her tied up and ass rose red and toys playing in side her.  To submit  all of her self to my pleasure.  

So............

Should I call her ? 

Or 

Keep dreaming?