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just a hello and some tips

just wanted to but put some tips for all new to cage and lifestyle. and maybe for a few others.
3 days ago. Tue 15 Oct 2019 08:21:00 AM IDT



This song states it so well when i think of us my love . I was dreaming of you and searching for you my whole life with every move to a new state or city is was all in my search of you. 

As i sit here i can help but smile, I know that we had this very talk today. and depending on which of us they asked would depend on the answer. But i still say that it is today really because of the fact this is when u officially asked and i said yes. ( of course you knew i would ). You see i knew that i had found the other have of my soul. The missing piece of my heart , the ability that only you have to calm my hamster without actually saying or doing anything just by being there. I knew i LOVED you with everything i have , before i was even yours. You have given me the world, no i don't mean any thing that can be measured in the term of money or gifts. You have taken away the never ending need of going here and there,  giving me a home and the safety that come with that. 

You, my dear big bad scary wolf are my everything. You are the one that i was waiting for the one i was loving all along.


And i know this is sappy and public for all to see. Which isn't your gig really, but i'm sharing it here because i want to scream from the mountain tops " I LOVE YOU AND I AM YOURS ALWAYS" 


Oh my Wolf, yes i am being all gurly gurl and we both know that this is so not me. but i have fought so many battles and fallen so many times. That now that we are here I would give every thing for just another day with you if that was all i could have. i dont ever want to close my eyes and not have you there when i awake. 


And i need to say thank you for being you and all that you do. Being there for me when i doubt myself, holding me upright when i start to fall. For being my light along this dark journey of life, for being my protector against all things. For making me a better person.




Gvgeyuso'i  Why-yah


1 week ago. Wed 09 Oct 2019 11:34:32 PM IDT

All i can say is that this is the most purfect way of sending the first real full day off in weeks of 60 + hrs a week with two jobs. all i needed was three things


!. my Wolf :


2. music:



And finally 3:




2 weeks ago. Tue 01 Oct 2019 12:45:06 AM IDT

ok well certain things have been on my mind lately.. ( lol did i just say mind not hamster??? yup i did) 

i heard three songs there other day that really touched me deeply and had me actually crying. not the little oh boo hoo tears but waterfalls. but before i share the songs i feel i need to day a few things.

!. to me a Dom/sub will stay as long as they will. but i think when it is golden they will stay thru it all.dealing with the heartaches, joys,fights, and peaceful times. Wait alawey did you say fights? subs dont fight with their Doms. Yes i said fights and i dont mean the little bratty ways we all seem to have . We are all humans and make mistakes and have agruements that can trun into fights. and yes Doms and subs have these and work through them and stay together.


2. after reading a few blogs and talking to some ppl. i just want to state again be honest in what you want here and are looking for not only with those you are talking to but with your selfno matter what it is love and RL / online , or games 


3. Subs this is for you :

love yourself , ask questions , put your safety as an importance well we always talk about how a good Dom will have skills , aftercare things , first aid type stuff, ect . in the long run when you think about it it is really up to you to stay safe. so to to this   choose whom you want as a Dom or play partner carefully ,have a support network of Doms and subs.


so with those said and stated again i know that this songs may or maynot be your cup of tea . but really in this  i can see things that can cross over to the LS. ( let me know if you can see the cross over also or not . might just be my crazy hamster and feeling a bit emotional that day, *shrugs * who knows)

also i will say the tbh not normally my cup of tea either but i was just driving down the road the other day and radio stations going in and out and then i heard these three songs together in a row and bam i was crying 






1 month ago. Wed 11 Sep 2019 08:20:05 AM IDT



Gawd how i cried both sad and angry tears that day. 


God bless all the first responders and those that can to aid of others. And those that felt the call to enlist and fight for our great country. 


Thank you 

1 month ago. Mon 09 Sep 2019 05:12:56 PM IDT

1 month ago. Wed 04 Sep 2019 02:26:47 AM IDT

Tis the season so here we go again. ..


Update on storm:

Weather Alert
Hurricane Local Statement issued September 03 at 11:51AM EDT by NWS Raleigh

This product covers central North Carolina **HURRICANE DORIAN EXPECTED TO IMPACT THE AREA THURSDAY INTO EARLY FRIDAY MORNING** NEW INFORMATION --------------- * CHANGES TO WATCHES AND WARNINGS: - A Tropical Storm Watch has been issued for Cumberland, Edgecombe, Harnett, Hoke, Johnston, Sampson, Wayne, and Wilson * CURRENT WATCHES AND WARNINGS: - A Tropical Storm Watch is in effect for Cumberland, Edgecombe, Harnett, Hoke, Johnston, Sampson, Wayne, and Wilson * STORM INFORMATION: - About 600 miles south of Raleigh NC or about 550 miles south of Fayetteville NC - 27.1N 78.6W - Storm Intensity 110 mph - Movement Northwest or 320 degrees at 2 mph SITUATION OVERVIEW ------------------ Hurricane Dorian will impact Central North Carolina Thursday into early Friday morning. Storm total rainfall amounts of 2 to 5 inches with locally high amounts can be expected mainly along and east of Interstate 95. This rainfall could result in flash flooding, particularly in low-lying and poor drainage areas, and subsequent river flooding. In addition, sustained winds of 30 to 40 mph, with gusts up to 60 mph across the Coastal Plain. Winds of this magnitude combined with saturated soils will result in scattered downed trees and power-lines. Impacts will decrease markedly to the west with any slight adjustment in the storms track shifting the impacts west or east. POTENTIAL IMPACTS ----------------- * WIND: Prepare for dangerous wind having possible significant impacts across the Coastal Plain and Sandhills of North Carolina

I live in harnett country. ( area is called sandhills which includes like 3 or 4 different countries

1 month ago. Thu 22 Aug 2019 06:33:54 AM IDT

 * this is non kink. So please take it as it is*


Tonight i sit here full of fear and worrie, yet happy at the same time . feeling loss and helpless being far away. So my my words of wisdom for you tonight is cherish ur  loved ones.


2 months ago. Tue 13 Aug 2019 06:30:50 PM IDT

Family can be anything really though it seems most think or feel that it is a "blood " thing. 

But let me state this loud and clear , my FAMILY is not a "blood " thing . My family is a spirit, sort of thing, they have been there as my "blood " has never been. I don't know any other way of saying it than that. And i am so grateful for them with ever twist and turn on this dark road that is behind me and those yet to come.











Gvgeyuso'i  Why-yah

2 months ago. Tue 06 Aug 2019 04:20:35 PM IDT

 just some thoughts:


Have you ever had a dream,  that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?


 What is “real”? How do you define “real”? If you’re talking about what you can feel, what you can smell, taste and see then “real” is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain.


We’re not here because we’re free. We’re here because we are not free. There’s no escaping reason, no denying purpose. Because as we both know, without purpose, we would not exist. lt is purpose that created us. Purpose that connects us. Purpose that pulls us. That guides us. That drives us. lt is purpose that defines. Purpose that binds us.


It is remarkable how similar the pattern of love is to the pattern of insanity.


when you stop and truely think about any of these, you will see as so many have over the space of time . 


the real questions dont really have answer we can understand and only lead to more questions:

are we actually real and really here? 

and if not here then where are we? 

if i m not real then whom or what am i?

am i a dream or something made up in ur mind ? or is it the other way around and you are the dream?

what is freedom if we have not real choice. we are what we are and where we are not matter which way we turn.


lol life is a choose your own adventure story (remember those) no matter the choice the ending is always known by the author . so is there really a choice .


2 months ago. Tue 06 Aug 2019 03:07:49 AM IDT

ok i am going to try and have a chat with all of you and hopefully my hamster doesn't get in the way.

I may not agree with everything / or even understand alot things, yet i believe in on going growth. So i want to share somethings that i have begun to understand and why so lets begin.


Being poly, we all think we know something about it  but can we look into a bit. 


Polyamory (from Greek πολύ poly, "many, several", and Latin amor, "love")

is the practice of, or desire for, intimate-relationships with more than one partner, with the consent of all partners involved. It has been described as "consensual, ethical, and responsible non-monogamy".


Now i have learn and begun to see that there are different level to this also. Because there are different types of relationships. The main to types are physical and emotional, and while many of us know this . do we understand that both types can be forms of poly in some cases? meaning  only that you can be in emotional relationship with out it ever becoming physical. 

let me explain a bit i have never thought of my self as being  a poly person or in a poly relationship. so it is odd for me to say that i am poly in  "A WAY" and i have grown to understand that . I have my pack and they all know who they are and who the others are. I look to them when i'm in need of comfort ,help to understand, or even just help me slow down. now let me also state that i look to WOLF first, as it should be. And that WOLF has helped and shared knowledge with them. and they all know that WOLF and i will always be there for them, and that there is not hiding of things said between them and either one of us, between WOLF and i. we love them dearly there forth like i said in "A WAY". 


Now that that i have explained some of how i have grown. i want to also explain than to me cheating can happen in poly relationship this is where there are relationships that ARE NOT IN THE OPEN TO ALL INVOLVED. ( so with that being said outside of my pack i am not poly)


I think in a physical poly relationship it is also very important for all parties to know about each of and such. I think that if at all possibles all parties so meet or chat at least because lets say you are talking to someone ( for the sake of being on here we will say a Dom). and said Dom sayes oh yes im poly but my main sub isnt . That should be a red flag at least to me. now if the said Dom says yes we are a poly relationship so she will be ok with it or something. I suggest that you talk to that person your self, because

Although polyamory means being loved or loving multiple people, “it takes supreme trust, communication and intentional clarity,”

Maintaining open communication is integral to a polyamorous relationship so that issues do not arise.


also one of the most important things i have ever see write i think on things dealing with poly relationships is 

"Dos and don’ts for happy polyamorous relationships"  at

and with in that you will find this stated:

Do take responsibility for your actions

"If there’s any rule that’s as absolute as the law of gravity, it’s the law of unintended consequence. Your actions do and always will have consequences, even if they were not what you intended; your life is shaped by the decisions you make and the things you do. And these decisions touch your partners, and your partners’ partners, sometimes in ways you didn’t anticipate.

I have met many people who seem to feel dis-empowered in their lives. This feeling of victimization saves them from having to take responsibility for their actions; but the downside is that it dramatically curtails their ability to take control of their own lives. It can also mean that they use what power they do have carelessly.

Taking responsibility for the consequences—even the unintended consequences—of your actions is sometimes unpleasant. Considering the effects of your decisions on the people around you is sometimes a lot of work. The upside to doing this work, though, is it empowers you, and lets you shape your life the way you want while still being compassionate and responsible to the people around you."



This is so true in all relationships. so take ownership of your actions and really mean it.

i hope my hamster didnt get to much in the way. and as always these are just my thoughts on things.

Be safe


Gvgeyuso'i  Why-yah