Well before vanilla life I was happy in my community. We did not have the 50 shaders and events was hidden and mostly house parties that you had to be invited to.
I was trained and had many friends and play partners but something was missing.
I did not want to admit it to myself but I missed a true life partner.
I found my life partner(though it was a temporary partner) in vanilla life she was great she made me happy and was open minded but not kinky at all.
I left the community to be with her and things was great yes I missed the community and all my friends( lost contact with them as time past by)
Eventually the urge for my kink became more and more I needed it. My partner could not provide it for me and she did find it revolting.
Being rejected by my partner I was begining to go into depression. My partner saw how I became more and more depressed and she came to me and said I must find a play partner to life out my kink.
We became poli over time and things was great till family started with there problems.
Both your families rejected your lifestyle and we were in constant battle with your families.
I could handle the pressure but my partner could not and she fell into depression I tried to help her. I left my play partner became monogamis again but your families did not stop till one day we were both in a depression and decided that to get your life's back we must separate.
This was a hard decision but a mutual one.
We separated and we where both alone for some time where we could reconcile with your families.
Well she did my family just was not that easy I just left them out of my life.
And this brings us to here I started to come back to the community and it has changed a lot in that time.
