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“I miss the sound of your voice”

There’s something inside the anatomy of the soul, some tone that we can all replicate, the excitement we feel when we finally see someone or hear from them after so long. I know you told me to be safe and I am, I guess it gets a little bit lonely. It’s the strangest thing, isn’t it? having people to talk to, but not always wanting to talk to them. having people to be around, but not always wanting to be around people. I’ve been thinking about myself and I had a fascinating thought about our emotions and memories of one another. I realize that my thoughts are a wild series of an apartment inside, of another apartment and sometimes I have to split myself into many pieces, each living, and breathing, all me, peeking out of the window into another set of myself, a watcher of watchers, there’s something intimate about watching yourself behave, what a beautifully torn creature, full of ideas and denials, full of happiness and rage, full of sadness and longing, full of myself and empty at the same time— there’s something beautiful about the way we craft our mannerisms to fit in or to stand out, maybe it’s a hypersensitive need for someone to love us openly, freely and genuinely, or to tell them to stay the fuck away. either I’m weird enough for you to love me or weird enough for you to stay out of my way, either way, being me is all I’ve known, so I guess when I say

“I miss the sound of your voice”

It probably just means that I miss that piece of myself that laughed when I didn’t need to and smiled when I didn’t need to, I just felt like it. It was never forced. it was natural to just be alive, all of that spark in my eyes, that fire in my belly— I miss that part of myself too

“Slow is often overlooked in rushed culture. Its’ oracle is not acknowledged, properly understood, or respected. The slow breath. A slow first kiss. Slowly disrobing in front of a lover. Slow lovemaking. Slow to get up out of a warm bed. Slow stretching. Slow yoga. Slow bathing. Slow and steady. Slowly walking through an airport to catch a flight. Slow decision-making. Slow crockpot cooking. Slow eating. Slow creativity. The pause before we speak. When we give ourselves (our cells) permission to slow down, our whole system is met in a magical place where regeneration and rejuvenation naturally begin to occur without any effort from us.”

— India Ame’ye, Author, Energy of Gods

We all have slow days, off days, and days we feel tired or uninspired, but they are nothing to concern ourselves with. Like the ocean, the stillness is just another of our natural states. Soon, the winds will pick up, the waves will rise, and your imagination will flow again.

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At the beginning of another 100-degree day

~Beau Taplin

“She craved a certain kind of love. Not the glossy variety, taken at just the right angle in the perfect light of day. Superficial love was never permanent. She wanted it for life. She was desperate for the type of love that was dirty and raw and hard. Love that you felt in your bones. That made your skin burn. That tore at your heart. The one, not everyone could have because you had to roll up your sleeves and put in the work. She wanted to look back on it years, decades down the line, and know it had all been worth it. And because of that craving, she would never settle for anything less than fulfilling and completely overwhelming love. ”

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Love me in a way, I understand it, I feel it, I experience it, in a way I could see it, in a way I could hear it out loud, in a way I could hold on to it, in a way that I need it. If it can't penetrate my layers then I don't want it. I don't want something to merely touch the surface while my depths remain a virgin. Love me the way thunder roars and lightning strikes, let me feel the awe. Or like the raging storm uproot me from where I stand and take me by force to where I truly belong. Love me with a little violence, love me with a little commotion. When morning arrives,  let it be known that there was a heavy downpour - muddy earth and murky waters, make it a little dirty, spoil my clothes...

Random Xpressions

Afterward, you sleep,
but in my memory... Still...
your hands are moving...
gathering my wrists together
above my head, behind my back...
threading your fingers through my hair,
now pleading, now pulling, now
searching my skin for need...

I move against you, my whole body
asking for more... asking for yours...
asking to be filled... to be emptied...
to be at peace.

- Peregrine

1. There are plenty of ways to enter a pool. The stairs are not one of them.
2. Never cancel dinner plans by text message.
3. Don’t knock it ‘til you try it.
4. If a street performer makes you stop walking, you owe him a buck.
5. Always use ‘we’ when referring to your home team or your government.
6. When entrusted with a secret, keep it.
7. Don’t underestimate free throws in a game of ‘horse’.
8. Just because you can doesn’t mean you should.
9. Don’t dumb it down.
10. You only get one chance to notice a new haircut.
11. If you’re staying more than one night, unpack.
12. Never park in front of a bar.
13. Expect the seat in front of you to recline. Prepare accordingly.
14. Keep a picture of your first fish, first car, and first boy/girlfriend.
15. Hold your heroes to a high standard.
16. A suntan is earned, not bought.
17. Never lie to your doctor.
18. All guns are loaded.
19. Don’t mention sunburns. Believe me, they know.
20. The best way to show thanks is to wear it. Even if it’s only once.
21. Take a vacation off your cell phone, internet, and TV once a year.
22. Don’t fill up on bread, no matter how good.
23. A handshake beats an autograph.
24. Don’t linger in the doorway. In or out.
25. If you choose to go in drag, don’t sell yourself short.
26. If you want to know what makes you unique, sit for a caricature.
27. Never get your hair cut on the day of a special event.
28. Be mindful of what comes between you and the Earth. Always buy good shoes, tires, and sheets.
29. Never eat lunch at your desk if you can avoid it.
30. When you’re with new friends, don’t just talk about old friends.
31. Eat lunch with the new kids.
32. When traveling, keep your wits about you.
33. It’s never too late for an apology.
34. Don’t pose with booze.
35. If you have the right of way, take it.
36. You don’t get to choose your own nickname.
37. When you marry someone, remember you marry their entire family.
38. Never push someone off a dock.
39. Under no circumstances should you ask a woman if she’s pregnant.
40. It’s not enough to be proud of your ancestry; live up to it.
41. Don’t make a scene.
42. When giving a thank you speech, short and sweet is best.
43. Know when to ignore the camera.
44. Never gloat.
45. Invest in good luggage.
46. Make time for your mom on your birthday. It’s her special day, too.
47. When opening presents, no one likes a good guesser.
48. Sympathy is a crutch, never fake a limp.
49. Give credit. Take blame.
50. Suck it up every now and again.
51. Never be the last one in the pool.
52. Don’t stare.
53. Address everyone that carries a firearm professionally.
54. Stand up to bullies. You’ll only have to do it once.
55. If you’ve made your point, stop talking.
56. Admit it when you’re wrong.
57. If you offer to help don’t quit until the job is done.
58. Look people in the eye when you thank them.
59. Thank the bus driver.
60. Never answer the phone at the dinner table.
61. Forgive yourself for your mistakes.
62. Know at least one good joke.
63. Don’t boo. Even the ref is somebody’s son.
64. Know how to cook one good meal.
65. Learn to drive a stick shift.
66. Be cool to younger kids. Reputations are built over a lifetime.
67. It’s okay to go to the movies by yourself.
68. Dance with your mother/father.
69. Don’t lose your cool. Especially at work.
70. Always thank the host.
71. If you don’t understand, ask before it’s too late.
72. Know the size of your boy/girlfriend’s clothes.
73. There is nothing wrong with a plain T-shirt.
74. Be a good listener. Don’t just wait for your turn to talk.
75. Keep your word.
76. In college, always sit in the front. You’ll stand out immediately.
77. Carry your mother’s bags. She carried you for nine months.
78. Be patient with airport security. They’re just doing their jobs.
79. Don’t be the talker in a movie.
80. The opposite sex likes people who shower.
81. You are what you do, not what you say.
82. Learn to change a tire.
83. Be kind. Everyone has a hard fight ahead of them.
84. An hour with grandparents is time well spent. Ask for advice when you need it.
85. Don’t litter.
86. If you have a sister, get to know her boyfriend. Your opinion is important.
87. You won’t always be the strongest or the fastest. But you can be the toughest.
88. Never call someone before 9 am or after 9 pm.
89. Buy the orange properties in Monopoly.
90. Make the little things count.
91. Always wear a bra at work.
92. There is a fine line between looking sultry and slutty. Find it.
93. You’re never too old to need your mom.
94. Ladies, if you make the decision to wear heels on the first date, commit to keeping them on and keeping your trap shut about how much your feet kill you.
95. Know the words to your national anthem.
96. Your dance moves might not be the best, but I promise making a fool of yourself is more fun than sitting on the bench alone.
97. Smile at strangers.
98. Make goals.
99. Being old is not dictated by your bedtime.
100. If you have to fight, punch first and punch hard

“She reminded me of the sea; the way she came dancing towards you, wild and beautiful, and just when she was almost close enough to touch she’d rush away again.”
— Unknown

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