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My Daddy, My Desires and the Damn Distance in between

I'm a collared slave who is adored by my Daddy, my Master, my Sir...but I only have his touch 10 days a month. This is my outlet to express my feelings and desires for him.
18 hours ago. Mon 27 Jan 2020 04:09:32 AM IST

Fixer

 


Sometimes I hate that I’m a fixer. You know the type of person that needs to fix everything.  The kind of person that can always find a way to see the light in every situation....because it can also cloud the reality of a situation.

 


When you live in the world of making everything better...you also live in a world where the reality of things is never really real. And when you realize that you can’t just fix something...it is earth shattering and soul crushing. Things like this only other “fixers” can understand...

 


Even though it’s a good trait to have when you truly can help...it’s horrible when you can’t. And when you just want to be someone’s hero and make them smile and fix all their problems...and you are failing...I find myself crippled and  confused. It’s a very self destructive place to be...

 


I’m hoping for some more self evaluation as to why I bring myself to this point...I don’t want to get to where I live in the world of half empty glasses...but I need to find a balance.

 


Until tomorrow...

2 days ago. Sat 25 Jan 2020 05:50:44 AM IST

Brain trauma dreams

 


I had some super crazy dreams last night. I’m not sure if it’s because I got hit in the head with a box or not...but these were some crazy dreams.

 


Have you ever had dreams so vivid that when you wake your not sure if they were real or not? Literally sitting there trying to recall all the details and then really questioning if it were true?

 


Either way when I woke up confused and dizzy...I just crawled back in bed with Daddy and let him hold me a little longer to make it all go away before my day started.

 


Tonight will be better...my face and head fill so much better!!

 


Until tomorrow...

 

3 days ago. Fri 24 Jan 2020 04:22:33 AM IST

Damaged Beauty and Pride...

 


So today I was helping someone out and was accidentally slammed in the face with a box. I literally felt my brain shake. I immediately (after seeing the birds stop flying around my head) walked off and tear started streaming down my face. Even with my face pounding...I was embarrassed!

 


The person was extremely apologetic and I was just trying to blow it off. Wiping my tears, waking in a circle trying not to let them see me cry. When I composed myself I faced the person and they said “Oh my God your bleeding”.

 


I ran to the restroom and look in the mirror...and I guess the corner of that box caught me just right....left me a scrape from my temple, over my cheekbone and down cheek. Freaking great...and it’s got a blood blister that will probably be a bruise.

 


My face!!! My beautiful face??? Daddy’s going to be so upset.

 


This person wanted me to put bandages on my face!! No no...that’s what’s makeup is for!!

 


So now I just want to be cuddled and put and ice pack on my face...I’m tired.

 


Until tomorrow...

4 days ago. Thu 23 Jan 2020 04:24:43 AM IST

Interviews...

 


Funny story...

 


I was doing interviews today for a position I am hiring for. Some of the people I was interviewing I had to have a translator in the room with me.

I had texted Daddy a couple of times throughout the day...wondering if he had caught that I missed blogging yesterday. I knew I was going to be in for a punishment because I had asked for some more time and still didn’t get it done...but anyways...I had punishments on my mind during these interviews.

So while I ask a question and the the interpreter translates and then I watch the person across from me answer... I have time to listen to this conversation that I have no idea of what they are saying....and I am imagining that the person is explaining to the other person how they are going to be punished and what they have done to deserve it.

 


I’m literally making this conversation out to be the best bdsm sitcom ever!!! I had to catch myself to make sure I was still paying attention when they were ready to talk to me and not ask questions about the story in my head...lol

 


Kept the day interesting for sure!!!

 


Until tomorrow....

6 days ago. Tue 21 Jan 2020 04:41:44 AM IST

Grumpy Monday...

 


It was hard going back to work today...Daddy and I had a great weekend just hanging out and spending some family time...and I didn’t want it to end!!!

 


About mid day I realized that I was being super grumpy with the people at work. I’m sure I was called “bitch” more times than usual this morning. It was all because I just wanted to be home with Daddy. I want to win the lotto and have money to just live life, enjoy the simple things and never have to leave each other.

 


After I realized how I was acting...I straightened up and made the afternoon not as miserable for everyone that had to be around me...I sure wish they could see me now that I’m back with Daddy...I’m a perfect princess once again.

 


I’m just hoping this week flies by...I tell it’s gonna be one of those weeks...

 


Until tomorrow...

1 week ago. Sun 19 Jan 2020 05:22:09 PM IST

Fight night....

 


We settled in, baked us a Papa Murphy’s pizza and started watching the run of the MMA fights.

 


As we are watching I start wondering what goes through these peoples heads as they are pressed hard against a fence or in a bear hug on the floor? Sometimes they are in precarious positions that have another persons groin in their face or another persons breath in their face.

 


For me...because I’m weird...I have to wonder if these people have good hygiene. I mean I would hate to be in that position for the any amount of time if the other person had bad hygiene! I already worry about germs and other people cooties...but if it smelled bad on top of that...OMG I would tap out in a fraction of a second.

 


I still enjoy watching the fights and admiring how much stamina they have...but I can’t help wondering all the other random things that go through my mind.

 


Sorry...just random thoughts...

 


Until tomorrow...

1 week ago. Sat 18 Jan 2020 05:52:06 AM IST

Spammers...

 


I don’t do anything on this site except for blog and read blogs. I don’t go on the message boards or chat. I will get messages every now and then from other subs...advice, commenting on a blog or just chatting. I think that most people in the lifestyle style understand the rules of relationships...and other Dom’s don’t message me. So when I got a message the other day from someone stating the wished to start talking to me, asked questions, said they were local and wanted to go for coffee if I were up to it...I wondered immediately if this guy was stupid or didn’t even read my profile? I showed Daddy, never messaged back and went on about my day.

 


A couple of days later I got another message from the same person. The message was about the same thing...just worded a little differently. I wanted to respond back and say...Do you not know the rules? As a sub in a monogamous relationship...I’m not allowed to converse with you...but I didn’t...I just let it lay and planned on telling Daddy when he got home.

 


When Daddy was home...I started to pull up the message and it was gone. Said it had been removed due to suspicious behavior. Well thank you Cage for looking out for me!!!

 


Word to the wise...be careful out there...I had no idea we could get spammed on here...

 


Until tomorrow....

1 week ago. Fri 17 Jan 2020 05:51:23 AM IST

Broken Nail

 


Have you ever had a broken nail and couldn’t get into the salon for at least a couple of days? So you buy your time with this hideous thing on your finger until you can take care of it. You point with a different finger, you keep that finger bent so others can’t see it and your continually contemplating cutting the rest of them so your fingers will be even again.

 


I have though about this damn broken nail for 3 days now. It’s constantly on my mind. I apologize for it when I think someone has seen it...and paranoid that others will notice.

 


Funny thing is...No one has noticed. Not one person has said anything or even took a slightly longer glance at its direction. It’s either I’m not that interesting of a person or no one has actually noticed. It’s more me letting myself get consumed with the idea of a flaw or problem...than realizing that there isn’t a problem at all.

 


I think this is something most women do. Letting the idea of something turn into a gargantuan problem of nothing. Letting the worst manifest in your head when nothing is wrong...it’s something super simple that can be fixed in a matter of seconds.

 


Just something to think about the next time you allow a nothing to take over your brain...

 


Until tomorrow...

1 week ago. Thu 16 Jan 2020 04:37:41 AM IST

Sub Boss

 


During the work day I’m the boss. I’m the one everyone is coming to...the one making the decisions...the one mitigating problems. I hire people, I fire people, I have great job conversations and I have tough conversations. I make decisions that effect people’s lives...and make profit. I feel like I’m good at my job...and the performance and metrics confirm it.

 


It’s funny how I do these things all day long...but I still belong to Daddy. Throughout the day I make sure I still do my tasks...and even when we aren’t together I’m still serving him. Once home my mind is at peace because my body and mind can be totally focused on him.

 


I love being totally devoted to him. I love being in his control even when we are apart. I love that everything I do is focused on us and him. I love knowing that even when I’m being the boss I am...that he is the boss over me.

 


Until tomorrow...

1 week ago. Wed 15 Jan 2020 04:21:50 AM IST

Tough Day...

 


I knew this new job was going to be an adventure. Something new but still in my line of expertise. I’ve been at it for a while now...getting my feet wet and learning all the different components to the processes. I’m finally at a spot where I feel like I can kick in and make a difference. I’ve been planning, analyzing and meeting to discuss changes and new strategies. Today was the day we started the process of change...and I had to let someone go.

 


I’m accustomed to terminations and layoffs. This was the first one I have ever done where someone was extremely delusional about what they did for the company and what the future held. I had even had prior conversations about what this person needed to do personally to ensure they were in line with what we needed to do to change as a company...but that was all irrelevant any that moment. They were angry and I can understand...

 


Thank God I get to come home to Daddy and just be his. That I can come home and forget about the drama and just be my Daddy’s girl. Being his and doing for him is exactly what makes me the most comfortable and content. If only I could be on his world all the time and no where else.

 


Until tomorrow....