So I thought the reason I didnt like talking online, other than small talk was because I felt I was often misunderstood. Words without expressions or emotion. Recently it occurred to me that it was actually my inability to understand your words without the eye contact and expressions that was the real issue. Not that it changes anything.
I mean it seems like everything needs to be right or wrong. Opinions need to be accepted or rejected. Facts need to be checked. It seems odd to me that a fact can be untrue. What matters more? Im ok if Im wrong and what you think of my opinion doesnt change it. Lets just speak the truth. Ultimately we could just hold hands and go for a walk. Isnt that whats right?
The urgency came in waves
So unnecessary it seemed but also welcomed as it replaced an emotional moment that refused to pass
Hope which seemed so real was just out of reach
But urgency for what?