Experience beget knowledge, knowledge develops understanding, understanding leads to growth.
I have been late to experience, especially in all regards to relationships, on account of shyness and lowly self image. I have grown though, slowly.
I fall into it with words and the excitement and shuddering of my top. Her relaxation and joy are food for the soul. I need her to be strong of spirit. Someone I can look up to, learn from, grow with. Theres always a lot of growth to be had.
I know we all have our bad days, we all break, and we all have days where we just need to crumble and be held. It is what relationships are for - all of them. They strengthen us.
I think Im babbling incoherently. That happens at times - especially these days. New years a time for new decisions, for rolling over the old ones, for reeling in regrets. I guess too many questions swim in my head, its the time of the year for it. A week to make the decisions needed for this year. Hopefully those will last for a year.