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Various thoughts.
2 days ago. Tue 18 Jun 2019 12:34:50 AM IDT


The Strawberry Moon

In the past year, I have found myself becoming more and more drawn to nature and especially the different types of moons and solstices. I like the idea of  practicing moon rituals that were so sacred to native people who created them and turning inward to focus on how we can use the shift in the universe to manifest positive changes and growth in ourselves. 

Yes, I realize these rituals *may* not have the capacity to actually change anything at all. It is my personal opinion that we as individuals have the strength and ability to manifest personal growth, I just like the idea of using something so beautiful and powerful, like the Moon, as a reinforcement or symbol to help create the change I wish to see in myself.


"The Strawberry Moon (also known as the Honey Moon, Mead Moon, or Full Rose Moon) got its name from the Algonquin tribes in eastern North America who saw it as a signal that it was time to harvest the wild strawberries in their landscape. More broadly, its proximity to the summer solstice (June 21) enhances the energy of personal development and achievement, like a "high point" in the astrological calendar."If you can dream it, you can do it. That is the message that the universe is beaming down on you right now, so absorb these positive vibes and activate your deepest desires and ambitions. It’s a time to let your daydreams totally off-leash and see where they take you. Don’t project your internal anxieties or doubts onto someone else–most importantly, yourself!
Where in the world do you most want to go? What do you most want to do? Even quickly journaling everything that immediately comes to mind can help you hone in on what you most care about, and take steps to pursue your wildest #goals." - suggestions from the internet (like my awesome citation skills?)



The Astrological Explanation Behind Love Triangles
A fun lil’ Strawberry Moon part-aaaaay might be just the way to fix this, though. Which signs are most impacted?

The four mutable star signs–Sagittarius, Gemini, Virgo *me*, and Pisces–are likely to feel this Moon’s influence the most.

You're good at instigating change and handling life’s twists and turns, so use that gift to help others do the same.
Each of these signs emerge at the end, or changing, of a season (Gemini-Spring; Virgo- Summer; Sagittarius-Fall, Pisces-Winter.) As such, mutable signs are ALL about change. This can make them come across as inconsistent and uncommitted (very much me!), but also flexible and intuitive (also, me!). This moon speaks to their inner character, to the need and appetite for continual change. If you’re one of these signs, then use the super-charged vibes of the next day or so to clarify your biggest, wildest dreams and believe that they are NOT out of reach. -more words from the internet





1 week ago. Sun 09 Jun 2019 08:01:50 AM IDT

Hi kinky friends πŸ‘‹ 


(semi heavy blog post)


the older i become, the more I realize,


this shiz ain’t easy.



in the States, we are raised that a core value/belief/ideal is: individuality 


but..we don’t actually value that!


im struggling because I’m unmarried, was engaged once, to the father of my kids (together 8 years- blah, dislike justifying that) but..I know marriage isn’t my ‘cup of tea’. I like space, I enjoy longing for someone (long distance), I find that we (or maybe just I?!) can evolve more when...I’m on my own!


i sometimes get lonely, but no one has ever given it to me like my ‘true blue’ (what I dubbed my vibe). Am I self righteous? Nah. Am I complicated? Fuck, yes. 

But do I enjoy these factors about myself...yes. Why do I feel the push and pull SO heavily as I come into my mid 30’s. Am I the only one who feels this way? Dating is a tricky situation in the vanilla world..add a splash of kink into the mix and I think I’ll be amazon priming vibes and batteries until the day I die.


Thanks for listening and πŸ₯‚ to all the True Blues out there.

1 week ago. Sat 08 Jun 2019 10:22:14 PM IDT

joining a dating app while horny is the equivalent of grocery shopping on an empty stomach.


i will regret these ‘swipes’ later.


its a vanilla dating app too 😬 please send good thoughts my way πŸ˜œπŸ˜‚

1 week ago. Fri 07 Jun 2019 07:42:22 AM IDT

If you ask what any woman may want:


a Mirror and a Lamp


Someone who can gently, but truthfully show her her reflection


but also illuminate her












A pearl goes up for auction

No one has enough

So the pearl buys itself

                                          - Rumi











2 weeks ago. Sun 02 Jun 2019 01:39:03 AM IDT

Chicken & Beer Festival and beautiful weather = a great start to summer


and that’s the #truth


Now yoga 🧘‍♀️ 


1 month ago. Sun 19 May 2019 03:12:28 PM IDT

Hello beautiful, sexy, wonderful and kinky friends and strangers πŸ’•


What is your definition of spirituality?

(this blog post is partially inspired by a forum post a while back regarding spirituality and BDSM).


I understand that the concept of spirituality varies from person to person. I also understand that spirituality and religion are not mutually exclusive. You may experience or hold strong beliefs in both, neither, or one or the other.

spirituality to me is the feeling of “oneness” or intense connection. This connection creates a temporary feeling of a higher state of existence and it can manifest in many ways.

My real life examples:

Giving birth to a child and experiencing pure and intense love and connection.


Pushing my body during a race (I used to be a runner), the runners high and elated happiness you can receive after pushing your body to its limit.


Yoga is spiritual to me as it creates a fluid connection between my mind and body and calms the relentless chatter inside my brain.

Traveling to different cities or countries (especially when traveling alone) and fully immersing myself into the culture and beliefs, living in the moment is one of the greatest feelings I have ever experienced. I have never felt more connected to our earth and the community of individuals in it.


all of these examples are near and dear to my heart. But what about in BDSM? Does spirituality exist in a D/s relationship?

In my (somewhat seldom) experiences, the answer is yes! It is absolutely present. And in my personal opinion and experiences I would say that submissives would more easily and readily feel the essence of spirituality during a play session when they slip into subspace. A D/s bond can be a very deep and meaningful connection. Both members contributing efforts, knowing that the partner doesn’t simply want or expect this but that they need and crave it. When my needs and cravings are satisfied I feel a connection (sense of oneness) and calmness, with my mind, body and partner.


my needs and cravings were being met (to an extent) but just recently were take away, cold turkey 😬And it has inspired me to write on the topic. Dominants please be gentle and cognizant that the role you play in the life of those who submit to you is probably more deep and meaningful than you realize.πŸ’•



1 month ago. Wed 01 May 2019 06:59:36 AM IDT

Do you like music? 


Good music?


do you like the music that reminds you of the innocence and care free nature of your adolescence?


music resets me. Changes my mood entirely..Uplifts me when I’m feeling low, energizes me when I’m feeling weak, brings me close to a lost loved one. Or..easily takes me away, as an escape from the day to day.



my Mom used to play one song while I was a young child, another I discovered while flying the friendly skies, one reminds me of my dad, and the what I want my next love to feel like






1 month ago. Tue 30 Apr 2019 06:10:34 AM IDT

the evolution of my submission  thus far has really been eye opening. 


I didnt realize how submissive I really am and how far or deep it can go. It takes someone really unique and special to make me want to open myself up.


i love the openness, the willingness, the breath of fresh air to my submissive soul. The way my heart and pussy throb in sync to your deserving dominance.


i never wanted to cum like the girls in the videos. So fake. When I cum, I shout thank you. From my quaking legs to my aching heart. My submission is Your work of art. 

1 month ago. Sun 28 Apr 2019 04:49:45 PM IDT

I want you all to meet my Kitty.


Shes new to the scene, so far her favorite kink is voyeurism. 


She enjoys toys, specifically being teased with feathers.


safe word: water


1 month ago. Mon 22 Apr 2019 05:26:48 AM IDT

I do not struggle in your web, because it was my aim to get caught,

But Daddy longlegs, I feel I’m finally growing weary of waiting to be consumed by you