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My journey

I'm new to the lifestyle and looking for answers.
1 day ago. Sat 16 Feb 2019 10:32:53 PM IST

Sometimes we get in our own way. Loving this new song.

 

1 day ago. Sat 16 Feb 2019 10:28:48 PM IST

 

I let my emotions out thru music. Loud and singing along.

 

This song helped me months ago. I always enjoy singing them even after they've served their original purpose. And sometimes they take on a new different meaning. 

1 day ago. Sat 16 Feb 2019 07:11:13 AM IST

I took a bath and now this is cranked loud on repeat ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

 

Music and baths are my go to's. 

 

So crank it up, dance and let your worries go. 💋💋

 

1 day ago. Sat 16 Feb 2019 05:29:39 AM IST

I woke up feeling retrospective and shoved it aside ...

 

I had two out of five kids sick ... A dog that was puking blue, because someone left a school Valentine out ... My first day at a new job ... Stressors of being the single adult and pulling that weight (for almost 6 years now, fuck) ... 

 

My day at work was great!! I LOVE IT!!! (Full time nanny for infant twins) Not stressful at all. It made me so happy!! You'd think after five of my own I'd be over the baby thing. But I wanted eight kids in all and I still get upset occasionally that my life didn't go as planned. 

 

My kids are over at their Dads now. The house is quiet. This weekend did have some plans that I was so excited about. Had things worked out, I'd be all cozied up in front of a fire, at a lodge in Yosemite. I've never been and I was so excited to go.

 

But life didn't go as planned, yet again.

 

The end of relationships are never easy. It's been almost a month ... I think the hard part is that, everything was fine. But a job opportunity roared in one day and it was too good for him to pass up. Our relationship was too new, only four months. I'm not about to stand in the way of an important career move. There was no fighting, no unkind words. I just graciously encouraged him to make the decision that was best for him, and he did. He leaves for Canada soon. We still check up on each other. Just a quick chat here and there. 

 

I'm rambling ...

I know what I want. What I deserve. What I have to offer. Sometimes it just doesn't make it any easier to swallow. But no one is going to do it for me, so I hold my head high. I smile. I do not only what is required but more. 

 

The saying, "The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These people have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."

 

I know I'm beautiful. And I know many of you are too. I see it everyday here. Sharing happiness, something funny, wisdom, advice. I see people reaching out to each other in times of sadness and difficulty. 

 

I know I can come here and see something that will make me smile, laugh, or bust out a toy 🤣🤣 

 

I'm sad a little, yes. Stressed, always. But everyday I become more and more thankful of this site and all you amazing kittens and Sirs. So thank you for all your posts. The good and the not so good. It's good to know that life is just as real for everyone. I loves ya all!! 💋💋

 

2 days ago. Fri 15 Feb 2019 07:25:05 AM IST

I finished The Chemist by Stephenie Meyers, earlier today.

 

Tonight I'm moving onto this book.

I've read several of his other books. I do love myself a good dystopian novel. I shall see what he has in store with this one. 😁🤗

3 days ago. Thu 14 Feb 2019 09:37:17 PM IST

 

One of my fav naughty songs 😉

3 days ago. Thu 14 Feb 2019 07:55:04 PM IST

I giggled and drooled ... Definitely drooled 🤣🤣🤣🤣

 

3 days ago. Thu 14 Feb 2019 05:08:31 PM IST

3 days ago. Thu 14 Feb 2019 02:46:17 AM IST

 My cats 🤣🤣🤣

 

This is becoming a common occurrence, lolol.

Flash is my boy, two years old and fixed. No, he's not biting Hazel the six month old kitten. But he is very possessive of her, lolol. Just look at that glare. 🤣🤣🤣🤣 Asshole.