Photography of an Irish Transvestite in Berlin

darkness, silence, then a dim light under dark cloth 

feelings of fear and pleasure mixed 

vulnerable and alone waiting 

then the sharp crack of leather on bare skin 

I spent a while in Denmark in August with a photographer 

The morning after a date with a leather belt 

I love this term she male - I was a she male last night for three guests - they were very turned on by my play with chains - a private show were I was in very disobedient form, I greeted the guests as a slutty school girl 

I dressed as a slut today and visited a man in Berlin- one reason for the visit - I was to beaten on the bare ass with a thick cane. It was ground hog day - I entered the apartment lifted up my dress and removed my panties, I lay over a black chair and he beat my ass so hard I wailed - he give me the bakers dozen, twelve plus one - the last one was brutal, He left me whimper in the room then ordered me away - called me a cunt on the way out - the life of a needy bitch 

I am very sore this morning after a Sunday of being slapped about and humiliated by a stern gentleman and his wife - the hard part of needing to be dominated and abused is the days after, the pain and shame of degradation.