6 days ago. Sat 17 Aug 2019 02:19:13 AM IDT
Sometimes all you can do is but sigh.
It feels like the most fitting response.
A time when no words are adequate.
No emotion is fitting.
When you're not sad or happy.
You just are!
Not necessarily a bad place to be.
Sometimes it is good to rest.
A sigh is not a response.
Its a pause.
We all need a pause at times.
To re examine our lives, our decisions, our choices.
A pause enables us to step off the rollercoaster that is life.
Just for a few minutes and take a breath.
To examine what is around us.
To take stock of what we have.
Theres no shame in stopping.
Just ensure you dont stop for too long, that you keep going.
That pause might give you the strength you need to carry on.
Or to make a decision you were putting off.
Or to make that choice.
To give you time to clear your head.
Sometimes we have so much going on.
We just need to pause.
I pause several times a day.
As i walk along my path, still barefoot.
The seasons haven't quite changed enough for shoes.
The grass is still green.
The path covered in foliage.
The trees full of leaves.
The sun hot, still shining high in the sky.
I enjoy pausing.
Take stock of my surroundings.
Take a deep breath.
Let out all the tension that I've been holding onto.
And just be.
Life isn't a race.
There's no points, no medal for reaching the end any faster than another.
What if by racing for the end goal you forget to look around
What if the end point is not where the prize is,but rather the journey.
How much could you possibly miss if you go full steam ahead .
The journey may be beautiful, pausing gives you time to appreciate.
Not only where you are but how far you've come.
Maybe the prize is in the here and now.
The present is exactly that!
For me personally at times I could not see or maybe did not want to see the gift that life bestowed on me at that time.
So hidden in the negativity that surrounded me.
The present did not always feel that.
Now I am grateful for my journey.
I am proud of how far I've come.
Yes I'm in a better place than I was both emotionally, mentally and physically.
Yes i have learned along the way to protect me.
There is nothing wrong in that.
I will continue to protect me.
I will also protect what's mine and those I hold dear.
I'm good at building walls.
No harm in that.
But my walls have a door now, maybe a window or two.
To some a weak point but to me not so.
My walls are strong.
I am strong.
But I'm learning it's also ok to at times let people in.
My doors allow me that.
They allow to let people in or shut them out.
It allows for me to control that.
That gives me my strength.
So maybe my pauses are my safe place.
The times I step outside my doors.
In my time.
In my place.
And to just be!