My Journey through life...

So, this has been on my mind about this community for the past few days; we have many different people here with so many persona types.

Which is great! I have made many friends who have been so supportive of me, (You all know who you are) and I truly appreciate all of you!

However, I'm noticing some members are truly fickle and or flighty. Now this in and of itself does not bother me, I shrug and say hey, it is what it is!

Now, normally when someone likes my profile, I send them an email and thank them. Almost 99.99% of the time, it is a female sub. Normally I get a "you're welcome" back. I am not flirtatious. nor do I expect them to be. I would hope that those that I have spoken to here know how I am. I try to be courteous. 

Now I will never call anyone out, but someone liked (or in the world of thecage.co) "loved" my profile about a week ago and I responded with these very words.

Hi *insert your name here*,

Just thought I'd reach out and say thank you for giving my profile some love!! :-)

Rich!

I don't believe I was inappropriate, however to each their own. I was immediately blocked. Keep in mind there was nothing in this persons profile stating do not contact me, or contact my Dom, etc.. etc.. any contact preferences.... I do read profiles fully.

So my week so far has been; being blocked LOL!  (I don't take it personally), extreme migraines, (I DO take that personally) and trying to find healthcare before COBRA runs out (I take that even MORE personally!) LOL. It's been an amusing week.

All of you are wonderful, and as always,

Gonna change my signature here (Ask if you don't get it)

V/R

Neo

Hi all,

First I would like to thank you all for reading the ramblings of my insomniac mind! I know I don't post about the BDSM lifestyle here on my blog at all. However, I'm wondering, if that is really necessary for a successful blog here? (Rhetorical question actually.)

I've read many a blog here and quite enjoyed them indeed! Many of you have shared your deepest desires, fantasies and wants. I admire that. I wish I could do that. But somehow I can't. No, that is mine. For me and the one I share it with. Whomever she may come to be. Maybe one day I'll get to the point to be that open and feel that secure.

Those that know me, do know of my social anxiety, and have welcomed me with open arms, and I thank you so much! It has been a struggle. So yet again, I am up again. So tonight I think I'll try to start something called "share 'cause I care" type of thing from my current project. I'm not plugging anything here, but just showing off some of my illustrators work. No websites, no promo. But also, because at times, I look at her work and kind of see myself. Being that I cant add an image through the WYSIWYG box here, I'll try embedding it below. (I'm not a premium member!)

If that does not work, well, it is a picture of a young man being haunted. That sure seems like me when the night falls. But hey, it will be okay. I have this blog, you guys, and the rest of my life to look forward to.

There's so much more I want to ramble on about, but I'd bore you to death! :-)

As always, thanks for the ear!

Much Respect

Neo

Hello all my wonderful friends!

I know, I know. I have not been on as much as I would have liked, and I miss being here and miss talking to many of you that I have become close with. I hope to change that soon enough. However, please do not take offense that I have not been on or think I have forgotten about this wonderful community!

For some people that have in-boxed me, I apologize for the late response. Life it seems, gets in the way. I will not play the sympathy card here, but just ask, that you understand. Medically, it's been hard to type. Which also makes it extremely difficult to finish my novel with my co-author. (No, I'm not plugging the book here LOL.) 

However, I am on the mend, and as some of you know, I have had extreme social anxiety which has led me to not write about things. That is getting better. Better living through medication CAN be good sometimes!

For my friends, I do follow your blogs, and for those of you that are going through the rough times, I empathize. My heart goes with you whether you do know it or not, even if I am silent. Sometimes, being a friend means saying nothing, because there is nothing that can be said. I learned that a very long time ago. Words are just that, just words after some point.

Just know, I am there, if you need a shoulder, an ear, a sounding board, or even, just complete and utter silence.

I hope to be publishing more soon all, please write back, especially those that have in-boxed me. 😄 Until then,

I will and always shall be,

Your Friend,

Much Respect

Neo

Good evening all!

So, here I sit, giving you your late night amusement LOL! I haven't posted in a long while due to the fact that I've been extremely busy getting gifts from mother nature. Migraines. They have been debilitating for sure. I'll be going for injections soon, so that will be much better. Anyway, I wanted to say hello to all the people that have reached out to me and said hello, and let them know I have NOT dropped off the face of the earth. Just migraines, bad weather, and now a trip to NY.

So, I'm staying up as late as I can, so I can hopefully sleep through the afternoon today (Thursday) and leave at 2 AM Friday morning to beat the traffic. I'm thinking that the drive will do me good. To be alone on the road, and just, well just BE. Nothing to worry about. Nowhere I HAVE to be. No time frame I MUST meet. Good feeling! I think it will give my PTSD a break finally! Plus I get to see some good friends I have not seen in eight years. That's a damn good feeling to be back home!

Anyway, to all of you that care to see my blog, and call me an acquaintance or friend, I should be on more frequently now and hopefully we can talk more!

See ya, one the road all!

Much Respect

Neo

Yup, you heard that correctly. I suffer from chronic PTSD and chronic insomnia. So my mind keeps going.

So what to do with these thoughts? I guess write em down. I gather I can't embed a video of my fav song to display my mood until I'm paid member,  so I'll leave a link for some of you Rush fans out there. Also the lyrics.

Been my mood today, but hope it helps others find some hope!!! 

Be advised, I was confused with the video LOL

Lyrics:

Pariah dogs and wandering madmen
Barking at strangers and speaking in tongues
The ebb and flow of tidal fortune
Electrical changes are charging up the dawn

It's a far cry from the world we thought we'd inherit
It's a far cry from the way we thought we'd share it
You can almost feel the current flowing
You can almost see the circuits blowing

One day I feel I'm on top of the world
And the next it's falling in on me

I can get back on
I can get back on
One day I feel I'm ahead of the wheel,
And the next it's rolling over me
I can get back on
I can get back on

Whirlwind life of faith and betrayal
Rise in anger, fall back, and repeat
Slow degrees on the dark horizon
Full moon rising lays ever at your feet

It's a far cry from the world we thought we'd inherit
It's a far cry from the way we thought we'd share it
You can almost feel the current flowing
You can almost see the circuits blowing

One day I feel I'm on top of the world

And the next it's falling in on me
I can get back on
I can get back on
One day I feel I'm ahead of the wheel,
And the next it's rolling over me
I can get back on
I can get back on

It's a far cry from the world we thought we'd inherit
You can almost see the circle growing
You can almost feel the planet glowing

One day I feel I'm on top of the world
And the next it's falling in on me
I can get back on
I can get back on
One day I feel I'm ahead of the wheel,
And the next it's rolling over me
I can get back on
I can get back on

One day I fly through a crack in the sky
And the next it's falling in on me
I can get back on
I can get back on

Written by Alex Lifeson, Geddy Lee, Neil Elwood Peart

Much Respect

Neo

So for the very few here that I've had contact with, I'd like to thank you!

It's a long story but I'll start at the beginning.  I'm not new to the lifestyle,  but new to the site. Being very wary, I joined and enjoyed reading the blogs. Especially one person's . 

Well long story short, I have PTSD,  with lots of social anxiety as well,  (e.g forum posting,  chat rooms, even blogs) and this person has helped in a way, that they may or may not know, for me to shove myself out of my comfort zone to chat with the greatest of people! 

I am truly thankful and grateful! 

Much respect, 

Neo