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There is a rule in my dynamic. A simple rule. I am an avid hunter. I spend hundreds of hours in the bush every year hunting. For those that cringe at this, understand that I hunt for food. I am not a sport hunter. I hunt to eat. I prefer to know what I am eating. Where it came from, where and what it eats. It's the way I was raised and I'm proud of it.
Back to the rule.
As I said, a simple rule.
Never send sweetie pictures of dead things!
Tonight I broke that rule.
You see, my trailer/hunt camp took on a new resident. A little bugger he was. Chewing up my paper towel and Kleenex. Leaving little poops on my counter and stove.
This is war I thought. I'm gonna get you, you little bastard!
I did. It took a week, but I was triumphant!
Being proud of my success, I sent a pic.
I broke the rules.
Dom/sub relationships have rules. Broken rule are typically punishable.
Sweetie says that should work both ways.
I humbly agree.
So......
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.
I will not send sweetie pictures of dead things.

Oh, one other thing. I am not eating the mouse.
Hard limit.
Ewwww

I'm a ponderer. When I drive, when I shower, when I have some down time.

It's good and bad for me. I process things and when I'm done with it, well...I'm just done with it. That's a bad thing for my little one. It's bad because the thoughts flow and I work it through for me. I often dont - or can't - share my thoughts because they are resolved and finished. It's unfair in this type of relationship. It's unfair because communication is a very key thing. It's unfair because when it's done for me it's gone. Solved. Finished.  What's unfair is that although it's done for me, it's not done for my little girl. It's not finished for her. Its unresolved.

This is kind of a two part blog. It's about my struggles and also about this lifestyle.

For everyone involved in this lifestyle, and I mean everyone, the second you think you have your dom, sub, master, slave or any other configuration of dynamic figured out...guess again. You are wrong. You are wrong because people evolve and change. Wants, needs, thoughts, desires. They constantly change. Even for the people reading this now and saying "No. Mine never change!"

Dig deep! Think. I bet there is something you have not experienced. Well, that's change.  

So for all of you that "know" your partner inside and out. Guess again. You don't. The best part about that, and I mean really the best part, is that you get to grow together. As a unit. As a couple. As lovers and friends. As Dom and sub. As any combination of who you are. That's truly a beautiful thing. 

For me, I work on ways to get my thoughts out. As of this moment, I'm dripping wet, towel half wrapped around me and I'm having trouble typing on my phone because the screen is wet from my forehead dripping water. I had a thought... It needed out now.

I needed to communicate.  I needed to share.  I evolve and grow.  I learn.  We all do.  Every pace is different, yet we all grow

Option two for me is figuring out how the voice recorder works on my phone. At some point I plan to jump into the tech world.

Go me!!

This is a first blog for me.
I have been here for quite some time, however, I am more of a lurker than a poster. I very much enjoy some of the blogs and follow the adventures of a few people/couples.
Although the opinions of some say that if you are not an active part of the community.....(ie, active poster and commenter or blogger) , then you are not really part of the community. This is something I disagree with. There are many that like to read and learn. It's not a requirement to blog and post. Some of us like to keep to themselves and enjoy more of a private life.
That's more of my style. Until now.

I currently have my ass parked firmly in a lawn chair. I am enjoying some quiet time and relaxing in the sun. It's a beautiful Sunday and the weather is perfect. I've been pondering this blog for quite some time.

This blog is not about me at all. It's more of a thank you to everyone here. It's a thank you to the cage and the wonderful people that come here and share their adventures and their stories.

Through the cage and the people here, I was able to meet someone. This someone has become my life. My soulmate, my love.
She has encouraged me to reach my goals and become the person I want to be. She has made me a better person and given me hope and love and support when I needed it.
I am a Dom. I am only a Dom for one reason. That reason is because I have someone that allows me to be me. To be strong and confident. To encourage me when I fail (yes, doms do fail). To help me push the limits of my own abilities. There is a difference between Doms and subs. The difference is very small. One leads, one follows. They both learn. The leader needs the strength, support and trust of the follower and the follower needs the guidance, support and trust of the leader. They are nothing without each other.

This bond takes time. It takes commitment. It takes communication. Not just in the beginning. It's a constant, evolving thing. It takes work. Endless work. Its absolutely worth every second to be able to look at your partner and know. To be able to see it. Without words. To just feel it and know.

Without the knowledge and the guidance of everyone here, your triumphs and mistakes, I would be the same struggling person i was a few years ago. I thank each and every one of you for your part in my learning!

Pumpkin, I am yours. You are mine. It's you and me against the world. Forever.
I love you!

And.....I like your bum!!