The thing I need

With everything that has been going on in the past year or so, and the stress that has built up, and the anxiety being stored, and the failures on my part, I think the thing I need the most is to be tied to a post, stripped of my clothing, a bit gag put in place, and then endure a flogging on my back and a whipping on my ass.
My muted screams would be my anxiety and my guilt leaving my body.
D12-Mockingjay
Some people drink.
Some people do drugs.
Some people go to confession or to a therapist.

I prefer the immediacy of the stinging pain resulting from physical punishment.