Mishaps of a fledgling little Domme

Words , whether written, spoken, sung etc hold a lot of power. I think many times we get so caught up in our lives that we do not place much thought on what we say to others. Furthermore , we don’t place much , if any, thought into how the “audience” of these communications may interpret our words.

One May say “I’ll do my best” and the audience may take this as a promise of sorts albeit not as seriously as an actual promise but it still may be enough to get the person(s) hopes up.

One May say “I love you” or even “I hate you” and this could completely build up or destroy a person. These things should not be said unless TRYLY meant and in some cases need to be very specific , as in I love you as a friend, I love you but not romantically, I love you for you etc.

When we are feeling an emotion strongly we often do not think at all about our words. When we are in a good mood we are likely to agree to things we may not really intend to uphold or want to. When we are angry we may say hurtful things not thinking of the consequences. When we are hurt or sad we may say we are ok to keep people out , to not burden another. So on and so forth .

But words HAVE POWER. It’s kind of like the saying/belief that once can speak things into being. I personally believe this to be true to an extent as I believe it’s happened to me before. Words have power , there is a reason incantations and spells are primarily spoken.

Be careful with your words. Good, bad or indifferent .

My meeting was cancelled yesterday , but thankfully W/we were able to meet earlier this evening. Dinner went well. W/we chatted (ate of course) , my current sub by did a lot of talking as he and new potential shared a few common interests that I do not. Lol. It was good to see sub by having a good time and talking about things he loves with someone who shares his enthusiasm.

At the end of the outing I wasn’t entirely sure what to do lol. Was I supposed to message him? Wait for him to message me? I chose to send a brief, hope you had a safe trip, enjoyed meeting you. Long story short, despite my anxieties it went well and W/we are discussing play dates. 

So, yay Me! Lol

Is this not something that occurs all too often ? Ironically enough, this is the first time it has happened with Me, or at least that I can recall enough to talk about it .

I met with a wonderful s-type last year and I thoroughly enjoyed speaking with them. I saw HUGE potential for them fitting into my ,then, household. But, I was insecure with My self image, my relationships were somewhat unstable and truthfully W/we were both introverts and with everything else I had going on I wasn’t sure I had what it would take to crack their shell. 

I told myself that with surgeries and the instability at home it would not be a good time. I still believe on that front, I made the right decision. I wanted this s-type in my life though. I continued to think of them over the months and at some point they stoooed reaching out to Me. I was happy for them , I thought maybe they found what they were seeking.

a couple more months pass and I find out they are speaking to someone I have an acquaintance with. Suddenly, I feel jealousy turn Her ugly head. But why, I didn’t want this person the way they deserved when they wanted me . Suddenly, I was angry with Myself for letting them slip through my fingers. I didn’t truly want them until Someone else had them.

as things turned out, they did not really work out with this other person either. Just personal differences that kept them from moving forward. I was supportive of the s-type and told them My life is as simple as it will ever be now and if they are still interested and still searching I am still interested in them.

So, maybe there are second chances ? Either way I made it known I would like to at least be friends.

So this evening my submissive and I and maybe the boyfriend will be having dinner with a new potential play partner. Being an introvert I am quite nervous. I have talked with this person over the course of several months now and I am excited as well. We share some common interests both kink and non-kink. But I always get nervous about new prospects.

Wish Me luck!