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Just a blog about my every day life.
5 days ago. Wed 09 Oct 2019 02:38:57 PM IDT

I guess as ya get older your body changes, not usually for the better. 

I need to apparently change my diet, avoid dairy, grains, carb foods, 30 minutes a day of physical activity.

 

I guess if you pump your body full of shit, and you are what you eat, eventually it just doesn’t like it. 

not to say my diet doesn’t vary ...my diet is usually pretty much healthy according to the food pyramid. However I probably developed an allergy. 

example: ceasers Salad Sunday I’m fine, chicken Ceaser wrap on Monday I feel really gassy. Don’t know what it is, but I’m going on a diet. 

6 days ago. Mon 07 Oct 2019 09:34:53 PM IDT

What a weekend.

 

Science center, zoo, volcano, animals (pet store), shoppin, church. Bubble bath. 

 

So much fun, and every time we get done with our fun time together he gets really tired and passes out in the car. Love it haha. 

1 week ago. Sun 06 Oct 2019 12:58:44 AM IDT

My wife is in California, enjoying someone elses wedding with her mother along side. She's there from friday to monday, and this results in me being alone with my son.

 

We had so much fun, science center, treasure hunting, seeing animals, going shopping, watching movies. Collecting rocks. 

 

Such a blast, having so much fun with him. 

 

Keeping him from crying for mommy all the time too, must be doing a good job!

Story time!:

 

At the science center, he's playing in a ball pit. He figures out he can knock balls out of the air with other balls in front of the invisible stairs. I start doing it and he shouts loudly and frustaited at me: "Don't touch my balls!!!!" 

 

I died laughing, good thing we were surrounded by other kids and everyone was loud....and we were by a ball pit. 

2 weeks ago. Sun 29 Sep 2019 09:49:16 PM IDT

So, i've always had pretty much a cast iron stomach. Recently, however, I seemingly have developed some form of IBS. It is annoying, i've never experienced something like this before.

 

Started about a week ago, havn't gotten diagnosed yet but....i'm sure i'll go to the doctor soon and get it sorted out. 

Come on body, don't do this to me. 

3 weeks ago. Sat 21 Sep 2019 12:03:46 AM IDT

Won Indian tickets behind the mound today, taking my wife to the sports team she loves watching. 

 

 

3 weeks ago. Wed 18 Sep 2019 01:24:18 AM IDT

Is good, but even if it’s good it can be a struggle. 

I struggle with my Demons, that’s right I of all people have demons. Past coming to haunt me, deja vu frequently occurring. The same test is put in front of me, I pass it without fail. 

 

My debt has been one of my biggest Demons, one day at a time I’m taking care of it. I want to live debt free, safely, without any doubt that my life is good. 

We often live beyond our means because the media tells us , in every commercial, you obviously need this vacuum...this rug...these lights. Clutter as my granny calls it. 

We all live in various levels of clutter. 

I went to buy a game a few days ago, took a step back and asked myself these questions:

should I play this game in front of my son? “No”

How much can I play it on a weekly basis? “Maybe 14 hours in a 7 day week” 

Can I get full enjoyment out of this game at this time? 

“No.”

 

i talked myself out of that purchase, bought something fun for my son and I to do together, and a iTunes gift card for myself. 

Moments are precious, the here and now is life. Making those moments precious is what makes life good. Gaining full enjoyment out of what you spend your money on is making the most out of life. 

This being said, more demons cloud me than the angel which I know is there to protect me. Debt is only one of them, and I’m dealing with that firstly and as best I can. 

Be good to each other out there.

1 month ago. Sun 08 Sep 2019 07:05:04 PM IDT

I've seen a lot of BDSM relationships from the outside and partners I've personally had which just....went full serious stone face. It's difficult for me to wrap my head around as to why anyone would do such a thing. 

You gotta have those laughing moments, you gotta have those moments where its just 0 stress, 0 bull, just all chill. Even if i could live the lifestyle, i wouldn't be serious 100% of the time. Sure, I would pull out the paddle, break out the ropes, whatever seemed to work with my submissive, but it would be out of 'love'. 

In jest what I am saying is, if you are only looking for the dynamic without having a personality attached to it, it's about as fake as it can get. You are putting on a act, and as are your partner. Be genuine, share those moments that make you human. We are not impervious, why act like we are?

Laugh , cry, cherish, play. Be yourself, that way you will both have fun. Take your time, cause sometimes that's all we have. 

Just some words as i sit here with my son on sunday morning. 

1 month ago. Sat 07 Sep 2019 09:08:40 PM IDT

Yep, took my son to see some pet stores today. He got scared of a bearded lizard, and had fun with playing hide and seek with a pacman frog. 

 

Childish innocence is so fascinating, he is so much fun. Everything new is met with silence and wide glistening eyes. 

 

Adults can learn a few things from them. Sometimes more than they can from us. 

1 month ago. Fri 06 Sep 2019 02:27:18 AM IDT

except for when it’s the cold. 

 

Thanks little dude , love ya too much to be mad I got a day off of work. 

1 month ago. Wed 04 Sep 2019 12:09:47 AM IDT

Maybe I need more sleep, maybe I’m hangry, maybe I’m just sensitive, maybe I need to be lest angsty.

Getting sick and tired of the lack of communication, what do you want, all my life upon this pavement? 

I can lay it all out there very quickly, burn it up with gasoline, send out a signal flair, only if you only cared.

Im being myself, sorry does that bore you? Does it bring you to snore, you wouldn’t even give me light of the day. Honesty can’t be this big of a price to pay.

For years I’ve put up with myself, worn the scars, bled the tears, put up with my fears. I guess I’m the only one that can handle it, better just buck up with it.

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So tired of being pushed aside, given half the time of day, only conversing when you feel bad or obliged to do so. 

Only talk to me if you fucking care, I’m sick and tired of half assed interest and me having to like go over and abound the call of duty. 

Getting really sick of this place. What’s the point anymore? 

 

On paper everyone says says I got it all down right, “need more people like him in the scene” yeah that’s great. Hard to be in the scene when it’s not welcoming.