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2 years ago. January 2, 2022 at 9:11 PM

Hey all, 

 

One of my big advancements on my journey was learning to control my temper. I used to get very upset , sometimes way too easily. I admit i'm not perfect but I do tend to believe that I am not the only one that has issues like that.

 

What are some of your control tactics for your temper?

 

Myself I use the fact that I don't want to negatively influence how my son behaves so I tone down my temperament. I want to be a good example for him so i keep myself from blowing up by thinking of him and then withdrawing from the situation. 

 

loved to know how others handle possible anger issues that they might have. 

2 years ago. December 25, 2021 at 5:05 PM

Man, other side of family member was with my family, their wife was found sick with COVID the day after. Now Christmas with my family was canceled. Ugh. 

it’s been a good Christmas Day so far. How about you guys? I hope your Christmas is merry! 

2 years ago. December 24, 2021 at 2:32 AM

May your cheeks be Rosey! 

2 years ago. December 22, 2021 at 12:22 PM

I wake up at 5:30 now and drive an hour to work. On the hour long drive my mind wanders. 

thoughts of solutions to work, thoughts of things to come ? Thoughts of dreams and wishes, 

 

the white and gold upon the boring gray illuminates with the light of my cars headlights. 

it’s a good analogy to the long journey I have ahead of me. One mile at a time I’ll traverse my way towards where I am going. Who joins me along the way is the only question I don’t know the answer to. Perhaps I’ll know that soon enough.

But in the mean time the yellow and whites of the road cast with red as I pass them by, dimming into the shadow of the night. My eyes are always forward, unable to look back. Even so my mind wanders an eternity  separate of the roads i travers. 

 

Good morning everyone! Another work day starting.

 

 

2 years ago. December 22, 2021 at 4:58 AM

Hope all are well?

 

I have a new job, a big boy job. It’s what I went to college for. Small company, but I love it. I enjoy it.

 

I have gotten in contact with cuddlebug, in spite of conversing several times she seems to have grown silent again. She is in a dark place, and I hope those who are can send positive vibes her way.

 

I have yet to have any other submissives since we last talked. I needed some self growth, individual development in some ways. 

My headspace being in a better space means I won’t let people get under my skin all too much. That and being 34 kinda helps that too. 

happy holidays ! 

3 years ago. September 4, 2020 at 9:45 PM

Hello all,

 

I am taking a break from this website for a bit. Might not return and if I do return it will be On my terms. 

To those who have supported me: I greatly appreciate you! You have always been a shining example of what it means to be a part of the community.

 

I am going to focus on my family, myself, and bettering my opportunities in my life whether it be a submissive, or it be related to work.

 

I sent a final message to wishful, not that I think it is over but waiting anxiously every night with no resolution is hurting me more than it’s helping me. 

To those who have wronged me: know that I am a Dom, and I am a good person. My mentor is a respectable Domme at not one but two dungeons local to her. To say find a better mentor is like asking to find the treasure of king tut in my backyard. What transpired between us would never have happened in a reputable dungeon scenario. 

Just because someone sticks up for themselves does not mean they are a bad person, they just aren’t putting up with being disrespected in the open in a guilt free open space. 

3 years ago. September 4, 2020 at 4:18 PM

So many posts being brought back from the grave on this forum. 

 

all of them roughly a month old. Maybe this is normal on these types of websites, but reading month old posts getting comments 1 month later makes me scratch my head. 

I mean, lots of it is usually checking in on the OP without being invasive. So I guess it’s a good thing in some aspects. 

or perhaps people read from the last one they havnt read on up and they are so far behind? 

Just a interesting thing I noticed. 

3 years ago. September 4, 2020 at 2:57 AM

I’m not laughing. My submissive is hurting because you guys all take someone’s word as if it were truth.

 

you want to laugh at me.

 

you invited me and you were happy for me, and suddenly I’m this snake? Suddenly I’m this person that deceives everyone? If I said anything that wasn’t strait it was because I was emotionally compromised. I’ll appologize for pming you and getting upity, but I won’t apologize for sticking up for myself.

 

now you guys are suddenly like , yaah man he’s not real. Gotta laugh at him. Gotta make fun of him.

 

i gave some of you advice, not once did I come onto any of you.

You think it’s funny my submissive is not talking to me? You think it’s hilarious? You guys all chattering? Is it funny? It’s not. 

it’s fucked up. 

I’m none of those words he called me. All because I didn’t freak out, and I stood my ground.

you don’t respect me because you barely know me. 

3 years ago. September 4, 2020 at 2:50 AM

You are aiding and abedding an abusive person in spiking my 6 months long sub all because I said something that someone does not agree with does not mean that I am saying all bow Down to me. 

I asked a simple question “do you respect me?” And the answer couldn’t be far more obvious at this point in Time. 

messaging my sub and telling her something so cruel and trust wavering is not okay.

 

i never once talked down to any of you, and all of you guys are acting like I am the problem.

 

He blasted me without a chance to explain. He pmed my submissive and you guys are calling me a snake. I thought I had friends, but apparently all I have , now is a bunch of people that want me to fail.

not once did I insult him, he told me several things that are not true and insulted me in chat room. I have plenty of people that were There, I didn’t insult him. 

I said something that ruffled feathers. 

I do not deserve this. I didn’t do anything wrong other than stick up for myself.

 

6 months and you guys acting like I did jack shit all the time. “It’s not all about me” and evidently it is at this point. Im not stupid I’m taking this higher up. This level of toxicity needs to be quenched. 

3 years ago. September 3, 2020 at 9:25 PM

It pains me to admit that I have yet to here from my submissive in several days. 

an unforeseened circumstance has lead to her absence without letting me know through communication. 

I won’t name drop but someone damaged my reputation pretty bad. They also messaged my sub before kicking me out of a separate community. 

I wish I could beckon her back to me but all lines of communication are dark. 

I could blame her , but I feel like it’s a multifaceted issue. 

I won’t get into specifics, but, our times together have been growing shorter. 

 

Longest submissive I’ve had at 6 months, I want it to continue longer if she will have it.