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4 weeks ago. Jan 24, 2020, 1:22 AM

Okay, so this might be a short one. Might not, haha.

I would like to say that as you progress on your individual Journey in the world of BDSM you learn something new about you, or your ideal submission to your ideal domination. 

I've always said I love brats, but I seem to have a struggle with taming them from distance. In an ideal world, were I being able to meet up with said brat before taking the reins in...perhaps this would give me opportunity to tame, train, discipline, and better handle the bratty nature that comes so normal to a Brat. 

I was talking to a friend and the definition of insanity is trying the same thing over and over, with the expectation of different results. SO, fine ladies and gentlemen of this website here is my promise to you and myself.

My next attempted submissive will be not a brat. It might be good for my blood pressure, and who knows it might be a good fit. 

Not saying that I don't love brats, but I think it's time i try something else out. And if this one doesn't work out, tweak something else out and keep something else the same. 

That's right, I'm using the scientific method cause I'm a nerd. 

 

Thanks for reading. I'm not insane, yet. :P

1 month ago. Jan 19, 2020, 5:57 PM

I feel better this morning. Talking to those that know me, my Mentor included, and being around my son keeps me in the up and up.

i appreciate those who take time to read my blog. 

I wear my emotions on my sleeve, I get them out and don’t keep them in.

A bit Ill tempered at times, but, it lets me keep a open mind and fog free blinds for my next part of my journey. 

My poor mentors ears are probably red and throbbing. Oh well, today is another day and a new dawn.

1 month ago. Jan 19, 2020, 8:50 AM

Well, she's gone. 

She deactivated her cage account. Got rid of her Kik. She read my post. 

She wasn't the one for me but she said she appreciates what i showed her, what i taught her, and what I brought into her life. She appreciates me as a person, but we just...

 

ugh, why does this hurt? 

I know she wasn't right for me, she didn't put the effort I need, she didn't progress, retain, or accept my guidance. Yet Here i am. 

She mourns that we couldn't work it out. 

I am such a softy. She was worried we would fight. 

I'm blabbering, ugh this hurts. 

I'm sure I'll be fine in the morning. 

 

1 month ago. Jan 18, 2020, 3:45 PM

I tried.

I gave every chance I could to her. I was more than understanding. There is a certain point where someone is not doing enough, trying enough, being considerate enough. 

I “dropped” her yesterday morning, explained hey you want on my good side, put effort into being on my good side.

No attempt was made to correct course, no words were said that were remotely apologetic. She ceases to be my submissive the moment she is not alone, which that in and of itself is unacceptable. 

I deserve better, I am a good Dom and I will not   Tolerate defeatism, and/or an apology without a correct to course. 

I withdrew from the thing in hopes she’d try her darnedest to get back in it. No, every step of the way she continued to try to hold onto all of the things that were perks. 

It was a test, girl, and you failed hard.

 

im looking for a nerdy submissive, that might tend to be a brat, that has fight in her. That knows that fighting for what she wants is going to involve “fighting” with me at times. No relationship worth it’s weight in gold won’t lead to a argument. 

Turning “our time” into a soap box for her to start retaining control by withdrawing things that was offered to me from the get go, I’ve never been so insulted in my entire life. 

I’m emotionally and mentally drained, and I thought it was going so well. 

1 month ago. Dec 25, 2019, 5:47 AM

Ya filthy animals.

2 months ago. Nov 29, 2019, 5:12 AM

Let me tell you, I love food just about as much as I love cooking. I also like spicy food, so when my family was all gathered around and they had my waldorf salad, i told them hey thats a bit spicy but i toned it down. They just made fun of me cause of it, it's okay I like to spice up a lot of things. 

 

Either way family is a big part of my life, and I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. 

 

My minx is busy doing stuff for her family, I for mine, maybe one day we will share a thanksgiving together at some point. Would be grand if it could happen sometime. 

3 months ago. Oct 28, 2019, 11:40 PM

Met a fun gal on here, she’s green but eager to learn. Wish me luck as we get to know each other! 

3 months ago. Oct 26, 2019, 5:50 AM

Years ago I went to a private Christian school. Surrounded by people from my class today makes me feel a bit nostalgic. 

Story’s long forgotten, events missed, fun time none the less. 

 

3 months ago. Oct 25, 2019, 7:35 AM

I miss good stimulating conversation , it’s been few and far between . Most reason is cause of time. 

Anyone in the same boat? 

 

4 months ago. Oct 20, 2019, 12:58 AM

I see a lot of "my submissive cannot have friends" that are of one gender, or cannot have friend nights out. I do understand why those rules are put in place, however I believe that is a unfair statement. 

I think its important that people, my sub included, have friends. I would call myself a friend of her, if i had one. There is a Dynamic that needs to be followed, however if it is all serious business and she can't come to me when she needs to discuss something, or simply just needs a ear to open to her...I would like to be that person.

You are your own person, have the right to set the rules for your submissive, if you so choose, but this might lead to the hefty sacrifice of your submissive losing a lifelong friend, or perhaps bringing a intervention to her (an awkward one at that...) if her friends decide to. 

Perhaps....get to know her, find out her friends, and don't set up unnecessary rules from the start. It sort of shows a slight bit of jealousy that is not very becoming.