Wise thoughts

Those on this site that seem to know me know better.

I would never demand things of people that are not mine, that’s not my way. 

I am one to say that , don’t disrespect unless you want disrespected back. If you don’t have anything nice to say, you don’t say anything at all. This goes true for me, you, the friend down the street.

I am currently in a rough spot right now, words were put in my mouth. Insults were flung in my face, all because I chose honesty over complacency. I asked a question, then another, and that blew up for no reason other than ego.

I’m hurt.

Im mad.

Things are not in my control.

I stood up for myself , and I get treated like shit by people for doing so. 

i will never trust anyone on this site other than me and mine. 

you all choosing to believe someone else. That’s messed up. How have I personally hurt you? 

i won’t be able to sleep for some time now. I work today. I’m miserable. Thanks for asking. 

Hello all! How is it going?

So couple things: 

The little dude still having seizures off and on. Hes doing better, we are doing better, due to the miracle of modern medicine! Will keep ya up to date regarding that if anything changes, lord willing nothing will.  

I've started actively looking for a new job. I had a bite, and within 24 hours....the bite was withdrawn for some unknown reason. I was pretty upset most of the day, I made it through it though. 

I dislike feeling stuck in a position which I have built from the ground up. Now I am the 'best' at it, and anyone else is supplemental at it. They are the ones that get to move on due to me not being integral to the process which is set in place. 

So, stuck i will remain until...some company decides to take me in outside of that. I'm sorry to vent my frustrations to you all, but this is how my life has been. 

I'm soo good at the job I do, that no one else can come close. 

Lives matter more than property. People should take that to heart. 

Staying safe On my end, I hope you all are as well?

My sub is as well, she is being safe and sticking close to family, as am I. 

my son has developed epilepsy, it is genetic, I have had it as has my mother, both grew out of it. It’s scary seeing that in someone so little, but he’s still a ball full of energy! 

And also, no matter your dissenting opinion treat all as if they were a brother to you, or sister. Sisters and brothers are aloud to get on each others nerves, but doesn’t change that they are brothers and sisters of the human race. 

Okay I know it's been a while, probably some of my followers might not be here anymore? But Let me start off with this:

I hope everyone is being safe and healthy. I hope everyone is taking the time to wash your hands, and be mindful of any coughs or sneezes you have. You may not be affected by the illness, but others might be in the top 20% which could be ruined if they got it.

With that out of the way: I met a wonderful gal on the cage probably about two months ago, we have been talking for a while. She's relatively young and very eager to learn about BDSM, what it is, and what it means to her submission. She is my cuddle bug, and on here her name is wishful (she has a truncated version of my name next to it.) Either way she is a wonderful person, please be nice to her. 

That being said I am pretty confident she is my unicorn, the one so to speak. She is willing to try my stuff out, and she really enjoys learning new things. She is also understanding of my current situation too, which is very rare to be found. 

My work laid off 50% of their work force, I made the cut cause i'm awesome like that. 

My son had 8 absent seizures in 4 hours. He has fully recovered, he is on  medication, he is a surprisingly healhty boy and just his brain went a bit silly at such a young age (like father....like son). Either way that's all to report! 

I hope all of you are doing well.

Okay, so this might be a short one. Might not, haha.

I would like to say that as you progress on your individual Journey in the world of BDSM you learn something new about you, or your ideal submission to your ideal domination. 

I've always said I love brats, but I seem to have a struggle with taming them from distance. In an ideal world, were I being able to meet up with said brat before taking the reins in...perhaps this would give me opportunity to tame, train, discipline, and better handle the bratty nature that comes so normal to a Brat. 

I was talking to a friend and the definition of insanity is trying the same thing over and over, with the expectation of different results. SO, fine ladies and gentlemen of this website here is my promise to you and myself.

My next attempted submissive will be not a brat. It might be good for my blood pressure, and who knows it might be a good fit. 

Not saying that I don't love brats, but I think it's time i try something else out. And if this one doesn't work out, tweak something else out and keep something else the same. 

That's right, I'm using the scientific method cause I'm a nerd. 

Thanks for reading. I'm not insane, yet. :P

I feel better this morning. Talking to those that know me, my Mentor included, and being around my son keeps me in the up and up.

i appreciate those who take time to read my blog. 

I wear my emotions on my sleeve, I get them out and don’t keep them in.

A bit Ill tempered at times, but, it lets me keep a open mind and fog free blinds for my next part of my journey. 

My poor mentors ears are probably red and throbbing. Oh well, today is another day and a new dawn.

Well, she's gone. 

She deactivated her cage account. Got rid of her Kik. She read my post. 

She wasn't the one for me but she said she appreciates what i showed her, what i taught her, and what I brought into her life. She appreciates me as a person, but we just...

ugh, why does this hurt? 

I know she wasn't right for me, she didn't put the effort I need, she didn't progress, retain, or accept my guidance. Yet Here i am. 

She mourns that we couldn't work it out. 

I am such a softy. She was worried we would fight. 

I'm blabbering, ugh this hurts. 

I'm sure I'll be fine in the morning. 

I tried.

I gave every chance I could to her. I was more than understanding. There is a certain point where someone is not doing enough, trying enough, being considerate enough. 

I “dropped” her yesterday morning, explained hey you want on my good side, put effort into being on my good side.

No attempt was made to correct course, no words were said that were remotely apologetic. She ceases to be my submissive the moment she is not alone, which that in and of itself is unacceptable. 

I deserve better, I am a good Dom and I will not   Tolerate defeatism, and/or an apology without a correct to course. 

I withdrew from the thing in hopes she’d try her darnedest to get back in it. No, every step of the way she continued to try to hold onto all of the things that were perks. 

It was a test, girl, and you failed hard.

im looking for a nerdy submissive, that might tend to be a brat, that has fight in her. That knows that fighting for what she wants is going to involve “fighting” with me at times. No relationship worth it’s weight in gold won’t lead to a argument. 

Turning “our time” into a soap box for her to start retaining control by withdrawing things that was offered to me from the get go, I’ve never been so insulted in my entire life. 

I’m emotionally and mentally drained, and I thought it was going so well. 

Ya filthy animals.

Let me tell you, I love food just about as much as I love cooking. I also like spicy food, so when my family was all gathered around and they had my waldorf salad, i told them hey thats a bit spicy but i toned it down. They just made fun of me cause of it, it's okay I like to spice up a lot of things. 

Either way family is a big part of my life, and I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. 

My minx is busy doing stuff for her family, I for mine, maybe one day we will share a thanksgiving together at some point. Would be grand if it could happen sometime.