My love hate relationship with corsets

I'm in love with a narcissist. I don't know what my obsession with narcissists are. Apparently that's just what my type is. Not sure if it because I like the drama of constantly being built up just to be soul crushed later or if it's simply because I enjoy being hurt.

They don't want to marry you, they don't want to date you. Yet they don't want you to see other people. They just want to keep you on the back burner so they can have you as an option for when they are bored and desperate for attention. They are self absorbed and need to feel like they are the gods pure human form and that everyone should bow down and praise them. They constantly need to play the hero. Yet they want all the sympathy the world has. They also blame you for everything. Everything is your fault. They have unrealistic expectations of you. It's always their way or the highway. They don't have the time or patience to care for anyone but themselves. They never take your feelings into consideration. They never put you first. they think they are the best. Why would I be attracted to that.

What is wrong for me to be in love with a narcissist. My heart pines for someone I cannot have. Years of this back and forth. Oh you can't date me but you wanna use me for sex. Oh you need to cheat on your girlfriend with me but yet you won't date me. Oh you got married and yet you still want me as a side option. 

Having pvc added to my corset was a huge mistake. It was completely unforgiving and hard to mold to my body. I can't help but wonder if it's going to crack when it ages. 

Nothing like being stuck in your corset unable to take it off. I made the mistake of tightening mine today while standing and on the ride home realized it was too tight to comfortably sit in. ?  unable to take it off due to the restrictions of the car and the fast food sitting in my lap I felt slightly trapped.  

When I finally got home I couldn't get the corset off fast enough, just being able to breathe again amd not having acid reflux would be so amazing. However I did not think about where I've been tucking my laces into. Which is the top of my corset.  And I'm left with these indentations from where the lace sat between myself and the corset. 

I would compare my corset lines to looking like a tire.

Negative 10 outside. What perfect conditions to wear a corset. The freezing cold will keep me from over heating.

As I get ready for the day and realize that my body needs a break from the corsets, I can't help but feel the need to lace myself into one. Looking in the mirror at my uncorested body I do not recognize myself. It's been such a long time since I've gone without my corset for a whole day. Whatever will I do. I'll miss the familiar squeezing from the steel bones. ? I miss the curves my corest gives me. However my ribs are too sore to wear one today. ? 

This is easily the most comfortable corset I own.  It's a size 26, which is one size too big for me. However it does fit just right. I've worn this corset over a thousand hours and now that's it broken in its become too big for me. I guess that's kinda the point though. While I will be shopping for a size 24 corset. I'm still sad to leave this one behind. 

Sleeping in a corset is no easy feat. Upon waking up to change your corset for the day you get to find these lovely corset hugs

They are such deep impressions from the steel bones that I can't help but feel the need to rub them. 

Life is full of surprises and ever lasting turns. I'm glad to have had time to learn to love myself. Even though it's been a hard battle. Your either too fat or too skinny and there's no in-between. You just can't win at that. 

Never have I had a harder day in my corset. The constant loosening and tightening throughout the day is driving me absolutely insane. Pro tip, do not, I repeat do not drink carbonated beverages with a corset on. What an absolute nightmare. 

In my hallway are two mirrors directly across from one another. Just for the sole purpose of being able to watch my hands lace myself into a corset. However on a newer corset of mine where the laces are a close color to the corset itself, I've found that I do not have enough lighting in the hallway to see such a thing as a difference between the corset and the laces. Given maybe that was the purpose of the color choice ?.