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1 day ago. Apr 6, 2020, 10:35 PM

I know. I know. This blog is becoming about me and mommy all the time. But that's kinda the point isn't it? It's part of my growth and whatever other hallmark nice things you can think to say. I'm sure I will do some of my usual little blogs and funny stuff at some point but today is about mommy.

I never had to vocalize my insecurities before. I never had to say explicitly what it was that I was afraid of. Mommy takes the time and stops whatever we are doing or talking about if she sees the need for this kind of talk. We've had a few of them so far. These talks are so hard for me and I always get upset trying to voice my "issues". But we always come out of it better and mommy learns how better to handle me.

My little side loves to push. I can't help it sometimes. I can't stop it either. She pushes and pushes and then pushes some more. Never to get into trouble. Not so that she upsets her mommy and always over something small and dumb. I'm not interested in earning a punishment or getting a rise out of mommy. So why do it? I don't know. Maybe little side is working something out. Who knows? The first things mommy said after I realized what I was doing and apologized was:

She said it was okay. She said she could take my pushing. She knew I wasn't doing it to be bad. She knew I was little and needed her extra patience and she could do that. And the most important part of all:  She would never leave me because of my pushing.

I never knew how much I needed that reassurance before. I never asked for it from others. But mommy knows that is exactly what I needed to hear. I have decided to do the thing that scares me most. Be vulnerable. When mommy asks something, she always gives me a way out so I don't have to talk about it. I've decided not to take that option. For this to work and for mommy to understand me better and what I need, I have to be vulnerable. 

The best way I can describe it is this:

Normally I won't share those tiny detail things I worry about. To not be vulnerable is like being in a room that is all closed off. Only one open window and the person who needs to know your insecurities is in the middle of the room waiting. But then instead of talking you jump out of the window.

To be vulnerable is being in that same room except all of the doors and windows are wide open. You see ways out all around you but instead you sit down with that person and tell them everything. You don't run. You go to them. You trust them to keep you safe.

Mommy is my safety. She is my comfort. She is there when I need her. She makes me laugh all the time and helps with my little side so much. She's always so good to me. I think I am getting everything I was ever lacking from any other kind of relationship/dynamic before. Mommy sees my needs and fulfills them and then takes care of my wants. My mommy is everything to me and I am so glad I took a chance and was pushed just a bit to go for it. 

-TLP

3 days ago. Apr 4, 2020, 5:11 PM

Mommy is everything I could ever want.

You know how sometimes during a situation, you think things are really good but looking back later you realize.....maybe not so much. Miss T was someone there when I really didn't have anyone. I learned a lot about myself and grew as a person. I learned I could say no to people. I don't have to do everything they want me to. I got some really good lessons out of it. But now, looking back, there was a severe lack of communication. There were some very big glaring issues. But at the time I didn't know. Or maybe I didn't want to see them.

But now, with mommy, I'm actually able to be fully comfortable. The communication is never dead. I'm never bored with her and I could talk to her all day and never run out of things to say. I'm very introverted- that doesn't happen with even really good friends. But mommy is different.

I've learned with her I can actually just be fully me. I can slip in and out of being little, sub, and what we now call little little space. I have never done that before. I didn't even know it was possible without feeling like I was ripped out of little space. But mommy makes it easy to just slip in and out of who I need to be at any given moment. It's seamless in transition and even mommy is amazing in how she deals with it. She follows along as if she's been doing this a long time but more or less I'm her first little.

Last night I was being grumpy. I can't really explain why but I was. Little side was not having it. I wasn't just arguing to get a punishment and honestly, I don't think I was even being really bratty. I didn't even want a punishment. Just frustrated for some reason. So of course mommy had to hear about it. She handled me very well. I was being grumpy and she kept trying to talk me into listening. She was very sweet and kept going even when I know other dom/mes would have stopped and gone straight to punishment. But she took her time with me. Then all of a sudden it was like a dam broke and out came my little little side.

That side is a lot harder to show. The broken words and baby voice and all the silly things that come with it. Mommy was there to reassure and make everything better. I apologized after and was completely forgiven. I did as mommy said and she helped me in my little little space. She let me talk about Elmo and dinos and even encouraged me to. She played along with my silly antics and made me feel so completely comfortable and safe. That was something else entirely.

Last night was the first time I was in little little space with mommy. First time I showed it to her. But I don't regret it at all. She was there with me every step of the way. I'm realizing mommy is everything I ever could have asked for. She's everything I was missing before and more. 😍😍😊

-TLPπŸ‘‘β€

5 days ago. Apr 3, 2020, 12:17 AM

This is mommy's face whenever I try to get out of something...

First box:
Me- I can't do my homework I'm too little and....and it just wouldn't be good for me..
Mommy- Uh huh...

Second box:
Me- Yeah and then I would be tired and couldn't play
Mommy- Mhm...

Third box:
Me- And we wouldn't want that so we should go ahead and play and forget homework.
Mommy- Really now...

Fourth box:
Me- Uh huh! 😊

Mommy- That was cute and all princess but you better get your homework done or we're not playing.

Damn! Can't blame me for trying. Anyone else have this problem as a little? Mommy makes me so happy. ❀

-TLPπŸ‘‘β€

1 week ago. Apr 1, 2020, 12:56 AM

You see that? You see what comes after my username and (sub female) at the top there? That's right! Taken! This little one is no longer searching. I am very happy to announce that I have found my mommy domme and she makes me very happy! πŸ˜„ She really knows how to care for my little side and my sub side. I couldn't ask for more. No longer just The Little Princess. Now I'm also Mommy's Little Princess. 😍😍😍

-Completely happy and content, TLPπŸ‘‘β€

1 week ago. Mar 28, 2020, 8:09 PM

The first part was just the clothes, so this next part will be the rest of the stuff! I don't remember how much stuff I have left to add. Hopefully it doesn't take as long as the last part. This little is sleepy and needs to get to bed. (It may or may not be past 4am right now...) But, little side is super excited about this one and wants it done now so she can post in the morning. As if she will be up in the "morning" because she won't let us sleep now.

Let's get started. Same as last time, Princess is taking over this one as well. First up, the plates and stuff.

Princess: Dinos in space!

Me: No sweetie, it's dinos AND space

Princess: Yeah that's what I said. Dinos N space

Me: *sighs* Okay. You're right. Dinos in space is much cooler anyways

*sings Adam West's Batman theme song* Da da da da da  da da da Batmaaan Batmaaaaan Batmaaaan

Grrr. Rawr! Sharkies are super scary, but I still love them. They're spooky and cool!

Makes me want my whale stuffie. I haven't been able to find Whaley though. Oh "whale" then.... Hehe Big me says that pun wasn't very good, but what does she know? 

Now the pacis:

Just to keep with the whale theme. I still remember my book from when I was younger and learned blue whales were about 3 school buses long. One smart little here. 

Not my Elmo, but Cookie Monster is super cute too! COOKIES!

Pretty red. I could decorate it Elmo theme 😊

Hmmm.... maybe paint it pretty? 

Kinda already have this... is already decorated all prettyfuls with dinos! 

It's prettyful blue and glitter!!!!!!!!

Batmaaan Batmaaaan Batmaaaaaaaaannnn

Onto the creepier(ish) but super duper pretty ones:

Hehe spooky ooky. I looooove it! I may be a princess and I have come around to liking pink some buuuuuutttt.... still more a lazy goth style. Makeup takes effort...also I dunno how to do it. A jeans and t shirt or simple black dress goth if you will. Hehe Now I'm just thinking I wanna wear my dress tomorrow. Okay now, focus Princess! Big side gave us control over this. We can't derail this too much. Gotta get to bed.

I NEED IT!!!

The fruit ones are so cute! Also looks like something to chew on...Big side says that's what the paci is for but I don't think she gets it. πŸ˜‚

Onto cups!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Totoro! 

Tigers are the best animal ever! Next to dinos of course. Don't tell me it's just a cat... I say it's a tiger. Rawr!

Panda Bear!

Raccoons are the best babies! So cute and they act like regular babies but purr like cats. 😍

Onto the toys and chews:

"Jingle bells. jingle bells. jingle all the way. Oh what fun it is to annoy everyone with this rattle" ... HeHe It looks fun but the others around may not think so... 

This next one requires 3 photos to show all of it.

This the most fantastical thing to have ever existed in the history of ever! Look how much different stuff there is! It looks soooooo FUN! If I could only have one thing out of my little wish list I think this would probably be it.

It looks so cute!

It comes in pretty colors!

Cute little foxes!

Buttons!

Cute little bunny and teddy bear.

Bunny Backpacks! Cuddly and cute. I just wanna hug one. Hehe cuddle bunnies.

So cute and I bet it makes the jingly sound when you're walking. I like it!

Again, dinos rule! And it's got more pink to it. See? This little can expand her all black color palette...a little.

Onto I guess adult rated little stuff:

These are so freaking pretty! I love 'em! 

Pretty pretty pretty!

See! Told you little side and sub side can overlap. πŸ˜›πŸ˜

Okay, I think that is all for my wish list blogs. I think that's about everything. This little is exhausted now.

-TLPπŸ‘‘β€οΈ

1 week ago. Mar 27, 2020, 10:51 PM

Okay so since some people do not get it still, I will clarify it. Not that any of the people I have heard say these things will probably ever read it. BUT just to get it out there. Yes I am a little. That is well established. And yes, I am ALSO a sub. Sometimes those things overlap and other times they don't. It depends on the person and situation. I was a sub first, then realized I am also a little. Either way though, it is all ME. So to make my point I have provided a visual presentation. Hehe πŸ˜‰

Little side:

I love to color.

I love to draw and write.

I love coming home to cuddle my stuffies.

I love my paci and honestly, when a woman kisses you with your paci in your mouth it is literally the most adorable thing in the world! Love it so much. 

Bubble baths and a sippy...Yes please!

I like to build with blocks/legos.

I love my dinos!!

Not that I EVER get into trouble but..... hehehe πŸ˜‰

Then I would get cuddles.

Which is just a really clever trick to get me to take a nap!

That's my little side. But just because I am a little and I have that soft side, does not mean that is all there is to me. I am a part of this community for a reason.

Sub side:

I will give her the power, whoever she is that earns it.

I will follow her.

Mmm...yes please is all I can think to say.

Forced orgasms.

Hair pulling.

Spanking.

And I got some inspiration for these next ones from Morley's blogs. So thanks friend! ❀️

Then to end it all with this.

So yes, I am submissive and little. And once again, I am part of the community. Okay, I think I am finally done with my "I can be both" rant and can let it go now. Nobody who argued otherwise is even going to see this anyway. At least if someone asks my interests I can just direct them here now. πŸ˜‚ Hope everyone enjoys and is having a good day!

-TLPπŸ‘‘β€οΈ

1 week ago. Mar 26, 2020, 10:37 AM

Okay so I have a lot on my list and even after cutting out some things that may not be worth sharing.....there's still a lot. So this is going to be broken up across a couple blogs. 

Okay so I am going to let little side direct this blog.... Oh please don't get too girly on me if I let you free. Lol

It's so cute! Then I wanted it in black because that's always the next question. Does it come in black? Blue? And yes it does! Yay!!!

And it's the good kind of blue! The reeeeally pretty one.

Pretty pretty pretty! One day a mommy dom is gonna think I look pretty cute in this! That is if the bigger side can ever get some money together. She always says we can't get stuff like this and we got no money for it....yawn. Just get us a happy meal and little stuff and tell those school supplies to buy themselves. Simple. Hehe

Cozy looking jammies! Makes me wanna sit inside on a rainy day with stuffies and blankie and watch Blues Clues (old Blues Clues with Steve) and Sesame Street. *starts singing Sesame Street song*

And yes, blue and black! Rawr! I can be a bear. Hehehe 🐻 And a koala bear in the gray one. 🐨

It comes in dark blue and light blue! Which means..... I can be Grover in one (just gotta get a cape to be super Grover) and Cookie Monster in the other. Cookies!!!!

I so so so soooooo looooove this!!!! Now this with jean shorts and black converse..... Yes! Could possibly wear that outfit in front of others. Just love it!

Okay so this paired with this:

It looks soft and comfy. I want it all so much.

Little bears and stars.... Hehehe cute matchy pj's.

It's true. I am....most of the time. Hehe

If I found the right person then I would get this. Or maybe she would get it for me??? Anyway is super duper cute.

It took big me staring at this a long time to figure out what it says. Don't matter though. Is super cute and sexy. Could be good for Littlespace and play hehe πŸ˜‰

Boom! Pow! Super princess to save and/or wreck the day.. Sometimes playing villain can be fun too...

Onto the spooky stuff:

Spooky scary little one sends shivers down my spine... Hehe I love Halloween! It's the best day of the entire year.

And now the wonderful amazing Dino stuff!:

Love the matching dinos!

I love dinos! 

And now for the rest:

Phew! That part is complete. Took a while to pull this together. This little needs her Gremlin stuffie, Elmo, and her blankie now. Maybe some cartoons. The next post will include more fun stuff. That's all the clothes. The wish list is always growing. I hope others post their wish lists too. I wanna see what others are interested in too.

-TLPπŸ‘‘β€οΈ

2 weeks ago. Mar 24, 2020, 11:18 PM

I didn't really know what to write for a blog. I just knew I wanted to write one. I have too many ideas and yet not a single one, if that makes sense. So I went searching for images to come up with something. I'll let them do the explaining. For me, I just change all the "daddy" and related pronouns to "mommy". But if they relate to anyone else, just change them to fit your preferences.

Okay so my little is not concerned at all with a healthy meal. It's more about how many mega stuff Oreos can I eat at once. And ya know....chores are.... YUCKY! I'm too little for chores? Does that still work as an excuse?

Those last two especially 😍

I loooove crazy straws. Also have straws my friend got me, they're dinos with really long necks with holes in the feet and tail and in the mouth area. Lol

Hmm... I don't know if I would do that. But it sounds super cute. 

That's great and all but uh... call me princess instead. πŸ‘‘πŸ‘ΈπŸ˜»

Any other littles experience this as well? It's a really shitty feeling. To any other littles who have been called "annoying" or anything like it, it's not true. Littles are special and amazing. 

The call of the Oreos is strong!!!!

I feel personally attacked with this one πŸ˜‚ I am always like this with food. You have food? It's your food? Can it be my food too? Thanks for sharing. It's all mine now...

I really need that some days....

So so so so sooooo me! Out in the world I would rather blend in with my surroundings than be noticed buuuuutttt.... At home... with a mommy.... GIVE ME ALL THAT GOOD AND GREAT ATTENTION! Lights. Camera. Action: act cute! Hehe πŸ™ˆπŸ˜

Oh yes please!

Some cute backgrounds:

And for the littles like me who are more leaning towards the goth side, I found these beautiful wonderful gems. I love them!!! I want it all!!!!! πŸ˜πŸ˜β€οΈπŸ’•

I might post some of the things from my littles wish list if anyone is interested. Could be interesting if we all posted some from our wish list to share our interests and maybe help out other's with ideas for what they would like as well.

-TLPπŸ‘‘β€οΈ

2 weeks ago. Mar 22, 2020, 3:55 AM

Finally getting to start and enjoy my littles day. 

Started the day in one of my most favorite shirts!!!

Then the dog got muddy so he needed a bath and my clothes got wet.....

So onto pj's!

I love love LOVE Elmo! 

Next onto Dollar Tree for snacks! But I never just come back with snacks...

Then got one of those 2ft pizzas they got now at Pizza Hut. Yummy! And even though I am a little..... What is Saturday night without beer? Yum yum yum.

Now for movies! Will update as I go through.

I got a new coloring book! I think it is going well. It's so fun!

Next movie and one of my all time favorites! I can quote the entire thing basically. I'm just as obsessed now as the first time I ever saw it.

Now I know my ABDSM...Next time won't you sing with me. Hehe πŸ˜‰ Little one's got these ABC's down now.

Proof that no matter the shitty situation, things will get better. Plus that woman can sing. Cinderella steals my little's heartπŸ’˜πŸ’“πŸ’—

-TLPπŸ‘‘β€οΈ

3 weeks ago. Mar 12, 2020, 7:30 AM

Every part of me wants to deny that feeling I have. The one that hurts. The one that seems whiny. The one that I like to blame on my little side, as if my little side is an entirely different person. I blame that side for this feeling too often. She's the sensitive side that feels too much. Big me knows that I can take care of myself. I don't need someone else to hold my hand through everything. I don't need constant affection. I am perfectly fine being alone. I got friends and family if I tell them I need them. I don't need anyone else.

But that damn little side. She hurts. Her stupid heart aches and big me can only roll my eyes at her. This is ridiculous. Little side is being ridiculous. Why is she so dependant? Why does she get in her crazy spells of longing for someone and then gets us into trouble? We go looking and sometimes jump too quickly into what seems like a good opportunity. Then it's morning again and that opportunity doesn't seem so good anymore. In fact, we very nearly got ourselves into a very not good possibly unsafe situation. Again!

Stupid little side with her stupid feelings. I don't have time for her feelings. There are too many important things that need to come first. But no. She won't let it. She makes sure to bring me down too and makes sure I'm screwing up by not doing anything anymore. I stopped caring about things like school that I should care about. 

And this is all little side's fault. Because she figured out what it was that wasn't sitting right. Once she realized it, it all hit her at once.

Little side realized she wanted someone so badly. She wants someone to love her. To care for her. Someone who will be there to make her laugh or to hold her when she cries. Someone to tell her when she is being dumb, doing something wrong, and correct her. Someone she can give her all to and who will do the same. Someone she can trust to give her love and submission to. Someone who genuinely wants her.

Little side has too many deep feelings that big me thinks she needs to get over. Just be patient. It will all work out when it is supposed to. I can't blame everything on her though. Not really. Big me stopped caring a long time ago. Little side is just starting to follow in her footsteps. 

"Perilous night, their voices calling
A flicker of light before the dawning
Out here, the wild ones are taming the fear within me
Scared to call them my friends and be broken again
Is this hope just a mystical dream?
All that I wanted was to be wanted
Too young to wander London streets, alone and haunted
Born into nothing
At least you have something
Something to cling to
Visions of dazzling rooms I'll never get let into
And the memories were lost long ago
But at least you have beautiful ghosts"

-TLPπŸ‘‘β€