Pretty Privilege

My sub dream!

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When I was a junior in high school all my friends had lost their virginity already. I was pushing 200 lbs so not many guys looked at me in a sexual manner. Boohoo, right? I wasn't really bothered by it at that point because I had been overweight my whole life. Also, because boys in high school are literal scum anyways. My real issue there was that I was getting NO DICK and it's ALL I could think about. I was a serial masturbator (my poor clit smh) and made myself cum at least 4 times a day. I wanted the real thing though and I was convinced that it wouldn't happen if I looked like I did.

Appearance is secondary to personality in everything but pure sex. I wouldn't have sex with someone I don't find at least a little attractive. I also wouldn't expect some to have sex with me just because of my dazzling personality (that'd be great, but not realistic). Right now, Im pretty confident in my looks. Since jr year, I dropped about 55 lbs and lost my glasses somewhere. 

I think about looks constantly. Im afraid to call myself vain but it might be what I am. Im not degrading or mean to anyone I find unattractive but I hate that I will judge people in my head. I feel like the villain! Over criticizing myself lead to me over criticizing everyone else too. "Why would she wear that if she knows her rolls stand out?" Bullshit, stupid, ugly thoughts like that that creep into my head. Obviously she wore it because she's confident in herself and doesn't give a fuck what I think! Which is great. And I'm a bitch.

Lost my train of thought. Be nice to yourself so you can be nice to others.