Adine's thoughts

I am a very picky person. I know the difference between needs and wants. I also have a strict set of standards and limits. But lately my desire to be controlled by a strong master has begun to take a desperate tinge. One that I dont understand. An M/s dynamic isnt fast even if the two agree to start the dynamic right away as they build a relationship. And with my limits it's going to be even slower, even on my most desperate feeling days, if I threw my limits to the wind, I would feel guilty and ashamed once I returned to my right mind. During those days when I am in a desperate frame of mind, I get nothing done, I'm hovering over my phone or computer hoping to find someone who would be able to take control of me and would still work to form a relationship with in the limits of my hard limits and standards.

My question is. How does one go about either beating this desire back or figuring out away to function through it? I dont want to be in one of my crazy days when someone unscrupulous gains more control then being online.

I read a blog earlier this morning talking about how everyone posts things about a sub/slaves needs but what about those of the Dom/Master?

Now People may argue that a Dom/Master can order the sub/slave to satisfy their needs. Which is true, in a sense, but there are some needs that cant be demanded.
A Dom is supposed to be strong and commanding all of the time but what people fail to realize is they are people just as much as the sub/slaves are.

There are going to be days when they are not strong, or commanding. They are going to be Stressed, tired, ill and exhausted mentally and or physically and maybe even heartbroken. This is where our love and care for our partner is supposed to shine the brightest.

Put down the phone, shut off the tv, stop begging him to do something sexual or tie you up or what ever else it is ya'll do, and take care of him.

Be quite with out the use of a gag and listen to how his day went, let him vent. If he is tired, ill or exhausted don't nag or argue whine or beg for things, make his home a place of rest and healing.
If he is heartbroken from the loss or death of a friend or loved one be the support he needs until he is able to stand on his own again.

They are expected to invest a lot into us so perhaps its time we start doing the same.

Any one who has read my posts knows that I believe any long term M/s-D/s relationship isn't to far off from a vanilla one. Just a bit more interesting.
Yes this is a kinky lifestyle where one partner has more of the power then the other but at the end of the day its still relationship, just like any other. There are going to be times when one side is going to need the care and support of the other. As any Sub knows its hard finding a good Dom/Master They are few and far between. So, when you find a good one take care of him.

I have come to the conclusion that possibly I am not one of those people call a natural born Sub or slave. I am probably what some might call a voluntary sub/slave.
I do not view my self as less than a man. Looking back on my interactions with people and my behavior when I have met someone who assumes to much. Instead of submitting and letting go I want to reach through the screen and punch them in the nose then shake them until they apologize. Not a very sub or slave like mentality I think.
Do I want to be owned? Sure. But until that time, I am equal to everyone but the one I agree to submit to.
I have an image in my mind of myself holding a collar and chain. One I imagine giving to the one I will submit to. Maybe the collar and chain is what I would have put on a slave had I decided to be come a Domme or Mistress. But instead I have decided to give it to my Dom or Master. To the world we will be the closest of friends but in reality He will be my Master and I his slave.