So yesterday i got spanked several times w pants and bare assed then daddy relized i have a bit of a higher pain tolerance than expected. I kinda giggled and then daddy said oh dont worry ill find your pain tolerance then all of a sudden i did feel so giggly lol. I believe daddy when he says he will figure me out.
Ok well waa not handling my mom being sick yesterday and i did something i said i wouldnt. See im learning the value of money and learning to work hard for what i have. However yesterday i blew money that i should not have and i did own my mistake to daddy. Hes not happy with me and he knows im sorry but i still get punished!!!! I dont wanna be punished and i said i was sorry but i know why.... im being held accountable and if daddy just let this one go then id prob do it again and daddy wants me to be the best woman i can be and i appreciate it greatly but i seriously dont want a spanking cuz it hurts and ive only had one so i know this one will prob be unforgettable so i will stop doing impulsive stupid shit. I just hate knowing i disapointed daddy it makes me sad. I wish i would of made a different decision yesterday but reality is i didnt.
My mom is in ICU for AFib she cant stop throwing up. Im feeling scared and alone. My daddy and sis live an hour from me and im trying to hold it together but i cant. I feel like im about to loose it this sucks.
I wish i could clear my head and just be for a min. I have so much going on and im exhausted. I miss my sister sub and our daddy. Im finding myself more and more attached to them. Daddy is my safe place he keeps me level and when im back home im a mess. Im trying to be ok and ill do good for a lil bit but then i fall apart. I never relized how much i really need daddy but i do. Everytime i have to leave to come home i feel sad cuz im leaving my new family whom im so very lucky to be a part of. Maybe it will get easier as time goes on or maybe it will become more and more difficult i dont know, all i know is i miss my daddy and my sis a lot.
So before i met my current awesome daddy i had met a Dom or so i thought. He was nice took me out etc. He never discussed rules or asked me any questions then one day he texted me he was done and bye. I felt like something was wrong w me like what did i do that was so wrong that i would just be left w no explanation at all. Well i randomly get messages from him basically as a booty call and then when i dont respond he always says something like ...im sorry went to meet another friend. Oh well is the way i feel NO one should feel disposable to their Dom or ignored in my opnion. This guy is not a Dom in my eyes hes just a sex addict which is fine but he should think about owning his shit instead of trying to act like hes putting me in my place. I have the most caring genuine kind daddy i would never betray him for anyone especially a narcissistic jerk like this man.
I cant say enough about the genuine care and suppirt i have seen and experienced myself. Honestly i never expected the kind of support and kindness i have found here. Its so nice especially when i had been on the verge of giving up but i didnt and i have the most amazing daddy and sister who are caring supportative funny loving patient etc i could ever ask for. 💙💙💙❤❤🧡🧡💜💚💚
Ok so ive been away from my sister and daddy barely a day. Im not my usual smart ass self instead i find myself clingy, needy, quiet which is unusual for me. I feel like crying but i dont know why im super confused im really new to all of this am i going crazy? Im not sure what to do is this normal? This is a bit of a change from the "normal" me.
So in the past 2 days ive learned a lot about forced orgasims. I was never one to orgasim easily or at all for that matter, however i have found not only can i orgasim but i can do it more than once lol. It was kinda scary at first because of the intensity....actually it still is but daddy loves watching us try to break free from his ridiculous strong sexy arms. Im looking forward to whatever comes next. I feel like i finaly belong 🥰🥰
So i never thought i would want to be with a poloydom and his submissive but i was wrong. I have met the most amazing dom and his submissive they are kind supporative i feel as if ive known them forever. I absolutely am falling in love with them in everyway. daddy is very much into communication which is great. Being able to trust is amazing and there is zero pressure im told to just be me. Im the luckiest girl in the world to be a part of their life.