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       Tim, if I tell you something that conflicts with something your father told you listen to what he told you, he was smarter than me. Oh, if Jane say's something else listen to her she's smarter then both of us. Now he was my mentor and one of the smartest men I have ever met and if you really look at what he said you will understand.

       Tim, talk to people who are experts who tell you it can't be dune and why then figure out a way to do it.

       I was born lucky Tim I survived a war that no one was ready for, many others did not. I started a business that no one thought would work. I found two women who loved me, and I gave them everything I had they made me financially and emotionally rich and now I am lucky enough to make other people's dreams come true. Yes, Tim I am luckiest man in the world much more so than many others that are wealthy. 

      There are two things when you decide that you have to kill.  First is it really needed, and two can you live with it after.  That's why it is best to kill only for food. But unfortunately, you may come across something that needs to be dead to improve the human condition.

     In the end he gave me more than his words he left me his children and his ladies. So, as you can see, he left me with his luck and wealth, and I will care for it and provide for it as he would want me too. 

     When, I asked him if he could explain he just smiled at me and said these are just things to ponder for now and if something happens to think about if you need to. In the end you may have to make a choice you may not like.

Tim

 July 1975 

 The jack pine is a type of pine that needs fire to burn the resin from the shell for the pods to release its seed. 

            When I was young, I went through the fires of war like the pine it left me naked and open. I was lucky others were burned completely never to recover and could no longer spread their seed. I was not left untouched by the fire it left me resentful and with anger I could find no way to release safely. I chanced upon a man who took pity on me and had me follow him, he showed me a way to stay safe while I let it out, but he also taught me that it took someone very special to take my release one who would crave its release. He said it would take time and I would have to wait and search for the one. So, I learned first the control I needed to protect myself and them. When I was ready, he showed me the tools I needed to master this I was to learn was harder than it looked and more painful for his way of teaching meant I would have to learn the feel of every one of those tools and learn the limits of those who would receive the application of those tools. He said I must learn something called empathy, so I knew what they were feeling. This newly found sense had a second effect on me I found my resentment reduced for anyone who allowed this done to them intentionally had to love and trust me. When I said this to him, he smiled and said good it is time for you to learn the most important lesson responsibility for them. And the care needed.

            He showed me first the care that they would need after. He then told me of the responsibilities, and the trust he was putting on my shoulders. Remember from the moment you put your hand to someone you take the responsibility for them. The moment you take them in bond to you that responsibility become a lifetime commitment and no matter what they can come back to you.

         thank you judge I hope I make you proud.

reprinted by Mari.  This is greatly abbreviated his training of this phase took three years. The longest part was in controlling the equipment.        

       This was something Jane wrote in front of one of her journals 2018. It was all she had a chance to put down for God called her home that year. 

                                                                                                  I WAS AN ANGEL

When I was young, I was an angel

I flew through lives touching them and moving on

one day I flew too close to a man he pulled me down to the earth

he filled me with lust thinking it was love

I stayed till I learned it was all one sided

I met another and our lust made another angel, but he flew on

and I was alone with an angel to raise and teach to fly

long I tried but my feet sank into the mud,

and I started to get lost and started to sink lower 

Then I chanced upon a demon soul and wings black as night 

look at you angel what the hell are you doing you have no place to stand on earth 

He took me in his arms without permission and I felt safe again

with one flap of leathery wings, I was off the ground again 

he gave me to another angel they helped me with my angel 

his love was not always gentile

but in it I found a freedom I had not known before

She was soon to hold an angel within herself, and we were content,

but God called them both home

so together the demon and I raised the little angel we had

from me she learned love and kindness and of the light she had within

the demon knowing, she would not be able to fly away taught her to fly 

he gave her the knowledge of man and all the things to be avoided 

he gave her the ability to see into a man's hart so that unlike me she would not be trapped 

she still fly's and like me has her own demon watching over her

he continued to let me fly and when I was tired, he stood feet on the ground 

and I rested on his shoulders with too much room left over

for this demon was built to hold many angels safe above the ground.

Finally, I dropped to the ground put my arms around him

bound tightly with rope so I could not sink again

and found more angels for him to pull from the mud

they now stand on his shoulders when tired and fly free again 

(In the end that demon's wings at last turned white and though the gates of heaven are barred to him his soul still stands guard and guides us and the children he made on the land he gave us for they are children of man, coming from the mix of angel and demon and are a gift from God.) 

Mari  

                                                                                     From the book of Jane

                                                                            QUESTIONS every sub should ask

Can you admit to yourself that you dream or fantasize about your wants?

Can you ask him/her or them for it?

Are you emotionally prepared for it?

Are you physically able to handle it?

ARE THEY?

First let me tell you when it comes to sex you are not alone. If you have thought about it so has someone else and probably a long time before you.

NEXT, can you handle the loss the rejection that come with the path for there will be failure along the way. For their path is long and hard as well many will think it easy and there is the alure and the trap. For they will find.

They lack the discipline of themselves.

Or lack the responsibility it takes to always put you first

Or lack the skill to keep your mind in check for it takes more than a whip to calm a mind

and last many lack the stamina it will take for a lifetime commitment to you. 

Understand now it is not your rejection it is their failure.  

Mari. I have the night watch this week 😊😊😊 

                                                                                                 finding love

           I went up to change and saw myself in the mirror and realized I was a mess hair all over the place make-up smeared no wonder he kissed the top of my head who would want to kiss that. After my shower with the questions fixed in my mind then the doubts came up who you are kidding Jill who would want you? you are not someone who can run a business, you can't contribute anything all you know how to do is ride horses and be a cop there's no need for that here hell you can't even do the basic of being a woman and have kids sitting on the bed the tears started and would not stop. Then I felt a hand come around me and pull me into a motherly embrace I hugged back it was Rita, she just held me until I stopped, I looked up and she said tell me what's wrong I don't know why but I did. When I was all done, and I stopped crying again she said young one you have much to learn about love none of what you just said has anything to do with love especially where he and they are concerned and by them, I mean those that live this kind of life and I mean living with more than one love in their lives. 

         Let me tell you a little story of how I met the lady and sir my grandfather had this land before Sir James I lived with him in a little one room sod house as a matter of fact if you look at the big ranch my home with my grandpa took up the space of the kitchen, he built the ranch house around that that's why the only stone you see is the walls of grandpa's house. Part of the deal he made with my grandfather was that I stay on the property until I marry well, I was 17 and just got my G.E.D. not exactly smart but not dumb either so he let me go to college while he rebuilt this place. Did you see the little cabin, up on the hill on the way in? well Sir James built that place first and put my grandfather in there with someone to help while I was away, I learned how to run an estate so that I could handle that big place and this little one as well. I was told he would go up and sit and talk with the old man almost every night he was here when I got home the ranch was how you see it now. Before he left me, he told me Rita that man is a gentleman I don't mean a man he has honor and cares for those who work for him you can tell by the way he treated the men building that place. And the party he through when the build was done, he had a three-day party for them. His lady is something else she just has a way about her she treats people with respect at all times even an old hanger-on like me. I know you will be happy here working for him so choose a man wisely listen and learn her ways she will help you a great deal in life and take her advice when it comes to men after all she choose him didn't, she. As far as the kid thing well I can't have them either and John and I are verry happy. She got up walked over to my drawer pulled out a bathing suit picked up my dirty clothes turned looked at me and said go splash your face with cold water go see the Lady Jane and hopefully start your life. 

         After splashing my face and some visine I went over to talk to Jane and on the way, I walked into part of my future Sir Tim he was a nice man in the way THE WAY is what we ladies call the manors of a Dom it is a voice and stance and eye contact it is just something once seen and felt you know what he is from the start you quickly trust that this man will stand and defend you just because you are female. And all he said was hello miss. Jillian. That was all it took, I said please just call me Jill. Thank you, can we talk a few minutes he reached over and made me something to eat while I sat down. He came over and put a big breakfast in front me and more coffee (until then I suddenly felt hungry) he started by asking about the feed I was giving my horse we talked a few minutes about this and that and realized that I was calm and collected and ready to talk to Jane and the others (he still has that effect on me today). When he stood and before turning to leave, he smiled and said go on life is waiting for you put his hat on as he turned and walked away.

When I sat down by Jane, she was looking towards Tim and said he's going to be a real catch for someone someday, when I turned to look at her, she had what we call the look she was kind of looking at something that no one else could see (later after reading her journal she was seeing a vision of the five of us walking together). I am not going to bore you with all the details of that conversation it was filled with all the questions any person who is thinking of entering a poly as well as D/s relationship but the one that convinced me to learn. When, I asked her why me? Her answer was very simple. She told me he likes you and the important part for us is you will be the one who walks the mountains as he calls it by his side.  

Jill       

          Now that you have met my angel of lust and companionship, I will try to show you a small glimpse of the angel of love and knowledge.

          I woke the next morning to the sound of laughter and the smell of coffee and cinnamon it was nice way to wake, I through a robe on and went downstairs to see James Jane and Mari around the kitchen counter. James was just getting up to leave he kissed Jane then Mari me he said Jane will explain I have to go and kissed me on top of my head. When Jane saw the look on my face, she gave a small bark of a laugh and said come sit by me Mari, get her coffee. When I sat down, she took my hand, and I felt a charge run through me no not that kind not really this was like a wave of love pure untainted by lust and not a motherly kind of love either it was an odd but welcome emotion. Just then Mari put a big mug of coffee and the biggest cinnamon bun and extra icing in front of me I had ever seen when I bit into it it was like biting into sweet and cinnamene air it was so light not like others I've eaten I looked at Mari and said your hired she and Jane laughed not me she said Sir James. You mean to stand there and tell me he can cook too? Jane said and who do you think made dinner last night? I don't know why I said it, but I did he is a very dangerous man both Mari and Jane looked at each other and Jane said yes, he is very. Then she said and that brings us to the next point on the table. Sir was called away on urgent business. And I will tell you why as it may help you understand the kind of man you are thinking of getting involved with.   

           Our Sir has gone to N.Y.C. to rescue a sub he trained for someone years ago He recently turned her out penniless, so sir is paying him a personal visit with the lawyers to let him know this violation of contract will not be ignored and he will pay what he owes her he has also taken Sue and Deb's with him to investigate this sub was assaulted and is in a coma so Sir is making sure she gets the best care by guaranteeing payment and the ladies are going to make sure the guilty are punished. You may ask why all he did was give her training but that is not who he is any sub he has ever trained is covered by his honor and his honor means that if a situation like this happens, they will always have a home. That is the reason Sir built so big of a ranch house it has just enough room to house those that may come. My sister also just retired from her job as a trauma nurse, and he will bring her with him to make sure everything is done right and will come back here to spend some time with me. With that Mari got up and kissed me (and stole a pinch) before complaining about getting dressed to run the office while he was gone see you tonight then turned and took Jane in her arms and kiss her the kind that right to her toes before running out the door. Jane shook her head and said with a smile that girl has no control at all. 

           She turned to me and said Well let's continue you see, Sir runs his life by an iron set of rules for himself and the one that concerns you the most right now is that he will not seduce an innocent as he calls anyone not in the life, so you see no matter how much he wants you he will not take you, so you see your problem if you really want him you must learn to be submissive now there no rush and since you will be with us longer than we thought you can look us over as long as you want get to know us and we you. Well, it's beautiful outside and the pool and sun are calling me think it over line up your questions and don't ignore the one's that seem stupid they are the ones that have a bad habit of biting your ass without your consent she stood hugged and kissed me oh, and bathing suit is optional here and so is any swinging dick but don't be upset if they turn you down some are married so they will have to check with the wife and see if you want one on one or indulge in a devils threesome bye for now see you later. "Are you as confused as I was this after all is not the way I was told things worked?" I was told you grow up find a guy fall in love get married have kids grow old stop having sex and die in bed. But since I knew I couldn't have kids I figured I'd just fuck a lot grow old with a bunch of cats and fond memories and die in bed. Now I was not only being offered love but a family too and all it took was a little change in attitude and a bigger bed. Yes, I was interested and scared shitless at the same time. The next time I see my Boss I'm going to suck his balls right out of his dick. No, I did not walk I ran to catch up to her. I had questions and I was hoping to get the answers I wanted.   

Jill                             

         She led the way to what I now know was my destiny. We entered the main ranch dinner was just starting I was sat to James right next to Mari Jane sat opposite me and the rest of the ladies were seated James sat some of the ladies and other men sat the rest of the women. When all were seated James took his seat. I was served first then to my surprise everyone else from the other end of the table up to Him being the last served he then said grace and yes that surprised me as well because of the way he put it he said ladies and gentlemen give thanks to your deity of choice. Under the table Mari took my hand and gave it a gentile squeeze to say it's ok no one will laugh. I found it rather reassuring and kind I was glad for that first dinner in private as it was quite formal. After dinner we retired to separate places while the men had hard drinks and cigarettes, or cigars and we ladies all had wine or brandy Jane on one side and Mari claiming the other here I met each of the ladies who attended the dinner one on one the married ones and the single at the end Mari leaned over and spoke in my ear don't worry I'll be with you till you understand. While we ladies where gone the men had cleared the big living room and took up the carpet and turned it into a place for dancing with the seats along the walls there was all kinds of music played and everyone took a turn on the floor James and Jane started it off with a tango, they were so good just watching them made you Horney later I told Jane I was tired, and she said go on back then she then said Mari walk her back she has tons of questions I will speak to you tomorrow both of you stay with her tonight. When I tried to protest Jane just looked at me with an all-knowing way and said just enjoy.   

        I wil not go into all the details of that first night other than say how surprised I was at how natural it felt but we both know it was not complete that would come later but it was glorious. Later with her head on my chest I asked her the questions that were begging to come out. First, I asked what is with the chockers some wore and why do the men wear silver and about the different stones on some of the ladies. She sat up crossed legs and said first thay are called torque's not chockers and they are symbols of the house the rubies are the symbol of anger at anyone stupid enough to bring harm to any women of the house or in general. The men of this house are dedicated to women in general but most especially to us. Have you ever heard of dominance and submission as in B.D.S.M. When I turned pink, she said would it Surprise You if I said my Dom is James? And that that the ladies who wear gold all belong to him? When I said. Well yes and no I mean I can see him as a Dom but him having more than Jane I find hard to believe she laughed and said believe me he did not want more then Jane at his age. But then Jane has her ways and don't question this what Jane want's Jane gets. You will see when we talk tomorrow and don't try to hide the fact you want him, she sees just how much you do the same as I do. But he has never shown any interest in me that way as a matter of fact he was rather cross with me the first time I called him sir. As I would have expected him to everyone on the ranch calls him boss only, we ladies that have been taken in bond that is what the torques mean are allowed to call him Sir, or Sir James if it is a formal affair and never in public. These are the rules he has set forth for us now as far as the jewels in the teeth they are our birthstones the one Jane wears is worn as first sub and the small stone is her daughter's birth stone the big diamond is the symbol of first sub and yes, we all defer to her, but she is very gentile in the way she treats us and loves us the one Stacy wears little one's birthstone and Sir James has adopted her. Jo-Beth has two stones she has twins there is also Jen who is not here she is in N.Y.C. recuperating from surgery we are Sir James ladies at present. AT PRESENT? Yes, there is also two others who are under consideration Sue the tall redhead and Deb's the big blond. I laughed no wonder he takes off to the mountains twice a year. she giggled and said no that's not it he does it to make sure those guys out there have what they need because in a way they are still fighting the wars and still protecting the rest of us. They stay out there because they can't trust themselves in society anymore, so Sir tries to take care of them. 

           So, let me try to understand He says no to me because he has too much on his plate or he just doesn't like me in that way.NO, It's not that, but I'll let jane explain thing's in the morning now let me have some more of that body of yours.

      Jill                                       

                                                                   There are many types of angels in the world 

        As I got out of my shower, I was greeted by a little Hispanic woman she introduced herself as Rita the housekeeper and a woman by the name of Tina my maid for the time I would be here. Rita left me to the maids care she looked me over from top to bottom and spoke for the first time I will show you how to properly care for yourself, she then took out some cream I smelled aloe she proceeded to apply it to my body from face to my toes rubbing it in gently from there she moved on to my nails and toes she combed my hair and then put it into some design that was off my neck from there she started on my make up when she allowed me to look. I was floored I was beautiful and looked sophisticated I could tell it was me, but I felt like I was part of some fairy tale I looked like a princess. With the perfect timing that I have always admired about her Jane came in and introduced herself. she smiled at me and said welcome Jillian I am the lady, Jane; you may call me lady and hopefully later after we know each other better Jane.

        How to describe this angel she stood at no more the 5' 3' she had a beauty that can only be described as timeless yes, I could tell she was older but could not tell how old her face had smile lines but that was all short red hair that shown like she had a halo earring of Dimond and the same choker as Mari wore but hers had a different jewel in its teeth and had what i thought was the most perfect teardrop diamond hanging from it as well as a nother smaller stone next to it. And there was just something about her that spoke of trust ald love. She turned to Tina a spoke to her she is perfect Tina as always, you've done it again gave her a hug and kiss and said go help the others we want everything right tonight for his returnee. When tina left on her next job she looked at me and said now young lady let's get you dressed I hope you like it. She opened the box she had brought and gave me the lingerie she had brought when I saw it, I almost fell over it was the most erotic thing I had ever seen and yet with complete support and comfort of a bra I had ever worn the matching panties fit me like a glove high waisted garder belt also of matching design. When I saw them I said I can't wear that there much to good and Jane said you can and will wear them thay were bought for you so you can either were them or we can burn them, and I could tell she meant it. When I looked at myself in the mirror with hair and make-up, I had a flash of me wearing the same type of choker. I heard Jane say maybe someday I got red in the face and turned at that and asked am I that obvious she smiled and said only to those who have been there and are there now. She then took out the dress she brought the color and style were more daring than I had ever worn yet it made me look beautiful and innocent at the same time. it was then I said I have always loved this woman's clothes but never thought I would get to wear anything of hers. it was her turn to turn red and said thank you so much for that it was just something I designed in hopes I would find the right woman to wear it and I finally have. It was then I realized who she was. I turned around and looked at her for the first time in this new light I'm sorry I had no idea you were married she laughed and said I'm not married I'm owned before I could say or ask anything else she said let's go we dont want to keep them waiting to long.                       

                                                    No, not just hyperbole there is just no other way to describe this woman. 

       Three weeks into our journey, we turned off the track and rode about three or four miles and crested a hill he stopped and looked over a small pocket valley when I rode up next to him, I felt it, it was an odd sensation for me before I even really looked, I felt as though I was home there is no other way to describe what I felt when I opened my eyes he was looking at me with a smile but all he said was yes she has that effect on some the first time. He then said welcome to my home, I looked and first saw a small cabin to my right when I looked down the valley, I saw what one can only describe as the perfect ranch set up on a grand scale it had everything needed to make a picture postcard main ranch house two story barn bunk house there was even a small bungalow separated from main house by a garden. By now both horses where dancing is the only way to say it even the pack horse and wolf was looking at him waiting. When we started down wolf let out with a howl (this was the first time she ever did that by me) but it achieved the desired effect the horses in the corral started to run in circles and bellowing till warhorse let his own bellow go and the others just quieted. 

       When we got down to the barn aera we were greeted by two men and two women the men were John, and Tim I was not introduced to the women at this time this angered me at first, but I held my peace. This was the first time I had ever seen the use of high protocol and had no idea of how it worked, I of course now know and practice it at home on the range (always wanted to say that lol). I heard Tim say how may I help you lady Mari; I have a message from lady Jane Miss. Jillian is to be given the bungalow and I was sent to guide her can you see to her horse and make sure you have one of the men bring her gear up. of course, lady. He then turned to me and introduced me by saying Miss. Jillian may I introduce the lady Mari she has been sent to care for your needs while you are here with us. I turned at this and got my first look at one of the most perfect women I had ever seen the only mark to the beauty before me was her missing foot when we met eyes it was almost a perfect connection and need in me swelled up I wanted to make this little woman dance on the end of my finger and yes this shocked me as I had never gone that way before, something in my face must have given me away because she shifted her stance to one that said it all she put her hand on her hip and stood there for me to take it all in everything from per gleaming black hair and eyes set around a smiling face the kind of smile that said yes all this and more could be yours. Her perfect brown skin gleamed with an inner light and what made it so hard to resist the only thing she was wearing was a bathing bottom and a chocker of gold with the face of a wolf with ruby eyes and some kind stone held in its teeth. she said please Miss. If you follow me, she turned, and I could see that the suit was cut in a thong style and the chocker had a lock on the back. When she had shown me the lay out of the guest house, she showed me where the phone for the ranch house was, she then turned to face me and said the lady Jane will bring you a dress for dinner in a few hours. She then reached up and slowly pulled my head down and kissed me on the lips and for the first time I tasted her lips she then said welcome miss. Jillian, I hope you enjoy your stay with us for as long as you wish.

Jill.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               

          As most long-time readers of this blog know this is not a story of HAPPY EVER AFTER. Or is it? This is a story of my life and how I learned who the woman inside is. Came to see that she is really two. One who can be a success in the vanilla world and be a sub in her soul. In the verry old days women fought alongside their mates keeping the children safe and guarding their mates' backs then men started to put us on pedestals and kept us there but then a breed of man was allowed to flourish we will call them the deserters they were the ones that breed you and walked away and we let them and made our way on our own. And those of us who were lucky enough to find the type of man who stayed and provided and helped us with the children we became possessive and jealous of what we had but for many they could not share, while giving us the protection we need to go into the wide world and conquer. We all give him something different than the others do I will not go into what the others give him but in my case the glaring fact that I cannot give him children is a good reason for diversity as the other sisters can and for a family that love making and supporting the next generation that is an important factor for us. 

       You may not agree with what I have said but hopefully I will have made you think and look as I have to form my opinion. The next part of my story will hopefully show you how I came to understand who and what I am It is really about meeting an earthbound angel and the affect she had on all of those she allowed into her life.

       And for those who my wonder, we still hear his voice every day through the recordings of stories that he recorded for the children as well as the angels when it is one of those longer stories for the older kid's.

Jill