for this one night only
Give me your pain upon this body.
leave the scars o men of the clan
women of the clan tend me
clean the wounds for this body must live
men take the pleasure I give in exchange
leave me Thye seed for the rebirth come spring
I gladly give you your spring mother for my winter sacrifice tonight.
jill
Hi, for you new readers to our blog my name is Deb's not my real name but close enough for Blogging. It was suggested i.e., ordered to wright something about agape and its relationship to me. This will not be about Sir James and me I have already done a blog on that. this is about my current Sir. Tim and how I fell in love with him.
As many know I started my adult life as a card-carrying Dyke I met my life partner Sue in the military she was everything I lacked beautiful, outgoing, and emotionally verry strong she was also very bi, and she made it plain she was not going to give up men completely. Yes, it took me time to kill the green-eyed monster that dwelled in me, but she made it easy for me by always including me in her conquests and making sure the male knew I was off limits to his touch. Because of this I saw the joy she got when a man entered her. And she always said it was better for her when I was there, as I said we were young and really did not know what we had was agape and what she got from him was sex.
We first met our current Sir when he was a 16-year-old man and yes, I mean MAN to see what I mean see our blog (chapter 3 responsibility it contains part of his early life, and you will understand). he was not yet a gentleman still ruff around the edge but well on his way, both of us were impressed with him and could tell with time he would be a force in his own right. In a way we should have known he would be ours's in time since both Jane and Sir James always looked ahead and planed ahead. Over time a deep friendship developed between the three of us. when Mari and Jill claimed him as their Dom and brought him back to the main ranch, we were happy to see him again. when Mari gave the nod of O.K. Sue leapt like a starving wolf not that I blamed her, having learned that I to need a Dom to make Shure I kept on track in my life, I kept myself open gave him a chance, but I was to be earned and it had been 7 years since we had seen each other.
God, he started slowly with us both too slow for Sue but just right for me. It started with reestablishing the deep friendship we one had this took a few months until sue could not stand it and she asked him for sex came to me and said to me "Deb's sue just asked me to make love with her and you know our lifestyle means for me to take her as my sub it can be no other way. But she is your partner, and I will come between you or even appear that way." His respect for me made that little bell all women have inside them went off with a single chime and halfway there to earning me as more than a friend. And it stayed there until the day he came into our office and just took me I wrote about that previously a while ago and it was the trigger for me this time it left me needing more of this new man in my life and I got it. He had earned my respect and then my love because of it. Debs had found a new owner of her hart and along with that my bodies use. the way a true Dom should with respect and care for its use.
shit that was hard to wright but also a great relief also love Deb's
I am a slut and enjoy being one this is a fact. The truth is from the time I entered this property I was willing to f88k that old man's ass off to keep it and he just shook his head and laughed. Then looked at me and said Mari my child there may come a time when I take you BUT, two things will happen one you will desire it with every fiber of your body and two when it is over you will be in a very different place in your mind.
It is true I am not the little girl I was when we met, (thank God) that girl had no clue the changes in mind and body I went through to become the lady I am now. He and Jane transformed me from a little girl into a woman who can handle the life I live now, strong independent and wealthy but woman enough to handle the responsibility that comes with it. It started with Jane.
Jane showed me how to be a lady in public and a complete submissive slut for he who holds my leash. There is an old saying behind every successful man is a strong woman well I am here to tell you behind every strong woman is a stronger man. She showed me what a working dynamic looks like and even more important what if feels like. "Though he be a thousand miles away I still feel him by my side" these were her words and over time I learned what she meant and how it feels. When I told Jane what I had done she smiled and said that's a good sign it means he see's something in you worth keeping. For the next three months I worked with him helping to handle his business every morning till lunch and every afternoon learning to be a lady every night when I went to bed my brain hurt.
Over time I began to look at things differently I now know it was how he made me fall in love with them both of them really, they never made me feel stupid even though I was I was used to using my body to get things done now I was using my brain for everything and using my body just for relief and pleasure with Jane. I know he must have felt the sexual tension I was feeling towards him, and it was also disturbing to me after all he was 40 years older than me yet the lines in his face changed him from old man to experienced man and on the rare times, he laughed it was a young men add to the fact he still moved with the grace of a panther, and I felt the change in my mind.
Jane gave me the key and the warning as well on how to tell what he was feeling "it's in his eyes in them he does reveal his sole, but know while you read him, he will see more of you then you may choose to show" it happened so suddenly it took me by Suprise it was just Jane and I in his office when it happened, I looked in his eyes and there was a click in my mind then before I could even register it there it moved to the rest of my body it was on fire I was in a fever he stood came around the desk looking in my eyes and said well I see the time has come, I could not stop myself I remove my clothing one piece at a time till i stood in front of him never once did he take his eyes off mine when he reached out and cupped my face in his hand it felt like I stuck my finger in a wall socket but the shock went from his fingers directly to my nipples then to my pussy and I was wet in that instant I was ready. He could have thrown me down and had me instead he slowly kissed gently first my forehead then both my eyes closed, and he kissed them and lightly stocked my neck. when he finally kissed my lips, I was gone I have no idea where he went from there all I Rember is coming back to myself, and Jane was to my left and he to my right. he was saying to Jane move her to our room. 😍 Mari 😍
This is why agape is so important to your dynamic.
Agape= is more than an emotion. It is a sentiment expressed by actions.
Agape is both easy and hard to see when expressed by a Dom easy in the way he just sets his actions free but are hard sometimes for his sub to see but over time they will find the consistency in them. And this is key they must always be seen as to the benefit of the sub or even more difficult to his sub's. This takes time to study how his decisions affect all and sometimes these decisions are to his loss that is the true mark of a great Dom he puts the need of his subs first.
(Quote, we are the knight's little girls dream about but alas we are also men or women and are subject to mistakes) Sir Tim
(Quote, any future Dom's out there remember you must be ready to avenge an insult to your chosen and this means paying the price for the punishment the law may decide to give you) Sir John
(Quote, the one phrase that has always pissed me off was " you have won her trust" God damn it I did not win it I fking earned it) Sir James
Agape expression is easier for the Dom to see but is so much harder for an alfa sub to express for we are hard to see and even harder to admit the truth of what we are. We cannot be won with words alone and we judge hard the actions we are shown. But the true Dom those that lead with love are patient men/women. They will wait for you to admit they dominate us and are worthy of all we offer. They even in most cases have earned the right to say I told you so, but they will never say it so secure in themselves and their choices. But then again, we are not children. we may be littles or brats or masochists or yes even sluts like me, but we all crave one thing a leader. One that truly knows our value and values us more then we value ourselves.
We youngsters are fortunate for the great umbrella that we enjoy now thanks to those who came before B.D.S.M. has come to be the catchphrase for every kink the human mind can come up with. But it must be remembered that it is all about the sex we like to indulge in. And while great it is not the core that is agape and that has nothing to do with sex.
Remember before that catchphrase we were just a bunch of mentions under abnormal behaviors in a textbook somewhere.
Mari
I was born into a life of structure and a house of rules. I was a good girl and followed the rules, until I met him, he was young handsome and had money and a house he also turned out to be a narcissist that lasted 3 years. Next was a wild boy completely untrustworthy but I did get a beautiful baby girl. Four years later I met him not my usual kind of man he was short but not to short but what an incredible ass he had it held all the promise a single working girl wanted for night of pleasure I was looking for. When he approached me and asked to talk to me, I said yes and talked we did we talked for the next 6 hours but what got me was his eyes. Thay both scared and captured me with one look here was a man who new pain and lived with it even enjoyed it. I found myself telling him everything I knew about myself and everything I wanted for myself, and my daughter and he not only listened but acknowledged my wishes but respected them and later he helped me achieve them beyond my dreams. And all he ever asked of me was my body and complete obedience he did not want to marry me just chain me to his sole. So, I made a deal with this devil, and he showed me what an angel he was.
He introduced me to his assistant angel and together they opened doors that I locked away tightly, and I thought forever but they opened with ridicules ease to this man. He showed me the pleasure of building an empire and the pleasure of being owned by someone who truly cared for my wellbeing and showed me how to handle this newfound freedom. I learned that through my submission I learned what true freedom was. True freedom only can happen when you feel safe, and you can only feel safe when you give yourself to something or someone else. for me that something was God, and that someone was him. He did not rush his ownership he gave me the time I needed to get comfortable with being owned. Two years later I found myself with a growing business a house that even my father was impressed with and a boyfriend as he called him that measured up to his little girl my little girl was getting the best education and she loved it she was a sponge soaking up water she cared deeply for my master and girlfriend.
The day came as he knew it would I came to his business and asked his assistant and my girlfriend if he was free, she said he is just finishing up his morning meeting and would be free for a few hours after. So, I sat and waited she asked me if I was there for business or pleasure, and I said I'm not sure. She looked at me hard and said I see. After the men left the office, she went in and announced me when I entered, she was right behind me and locked the door I proceeded to undress completely she did as well I kneeled as I was taught and looked up at him, he just looked at me with indifference and said speak your mind. I then let the words out with fear Sir it has been two years and you have not asked me to bond with you, so I have come to ask you to take me in bond as your second. Dena put her hand on my shoulder and said I accept her if you wish it. He looked at me and said the reason I have not asked is because for you if I asked you would feel trapped after all I do have controlling interest in your company and i felt in would not be proper and you would feel forced to say yes so I waited for you to make the decision on your own and my answer is yes you have become a part of me and are worthy to be my sub and she I know loves you as much as she care for herself the bonding will happen in one month Dena will help you with the ceremony.
One month later I became complete the third part of the whole together we are one. MY NAME IS JANE AND I AM OWNED BY SIR JAMES AND LOVED BY DENA FOREVER.
I am going to attempt to explain why our life seems to work and work for us alone. First and foremost is the fact that we ladies are bisexual and being that way, we have a strong bond between us as women so all a Dom can do is (as john puts it handle it) or not and yes it gets harder the more you add to the soup. And we are all very different people we range from slut trying to act normal to dyke trying to act normal. (Three ring circus does not even come close to describing what it can be like sometimes) and Sir must find a way through without hurting any of us. so don't envy him because I am sure there are times, he just wants to walk away but he does not he stays true to his bond to each of us.
Now' thanks to Jane we have learned a way to make it easier on him we ladies having the bigger harts work hard to work out the problems between us before they turn into deal breakers and only after trying hard, if we can't come to a resolution, we bring it to our sir for him to decide what course we take. As you know we four were friends with benefits before we met jane and sir James. Through his not so gentile (at times) training we became the family we are now. One rule work's best for us (it is not the Dom's role to stand between us his role is to stand above us.) With that said understand men and women speak and deal with problems differently. Women prefer to talk in a spiral men like to listen and solve simple sometimes one-word answers. Because of this we have found it best for we ladies to talk it out between ourselves first. Then if we can't solve it ourselves, we take it to sir.
As I hope you can see by now is both simple and hard for many women, hard because we women want him all to ourselves at times, even then we know he must be shared. This is where the simple comes in learn to love the others like Thay are yourself. And in this way when he is with them, he is still with you.
Have you ever wondered why the ceremonies in our lifestyle all have these two cymbals in them because it shows what you are willing to give to keep to who you are.
Ours was different then the rose. But this is kept there was blood and fire. And I have never felt such love and belonging as I do now to a Sir that I know will give his blood and endure the pain this life we go into all together as one.
It started early in the morning for us ladies we woke for the first time in months alone he was not there for the morning kiss. But breakfast was wheeled in by Sir John in his place He told us to eat his ladies will be here to bathe and dress you. our gowns where simple leather and lace the only parts exposed where our breasts ( I will admit we looked hot the four of us coming down the isle two at a time) the lace on the sides highlighted our legs the leather bodices tight across our stomach and ribs the shelves under our breasts holding them high and proud for our Sir. He standing in linen pants black as night to our white the white wolf tattoo on his chest the red fangs and gold eyes he looked young handsome and strong.
Sir john stopped at the foot of the platform and spoke. Sit Tim it is my pleasure to offer to you these ladies. He held his right hand out and I stepped forward to stand by his side he lifted my vail and said first I offer the lady Mari mother of the house of Jane dully elected to lead the subs of the house into the future and guide the children of the house. I stepped forward and said Sir Tim you know my needs and you know my wants and I have learned yours do you accept and are you willing to meet them. He looked down on me and stated yes if you are willing to keep my hart and soul safe. I said Sir I will keep them safe and place all my honor in the keeping. He look hard into my eyes so deeply I felt tears come to my eyes and felt my hart stop his eyes then gentled and said come to your new protector lady Mari if you can take the test of blood I will take the test of pain with gratitude.
I stepped up in front of him he swabbed my right nipple and it stood out further he then pierced it and let the drop or two of blood drip before putting ointment and a bandage over it (and yes it hurt like hell) once I was steady on my feet and I could steady my hand I took my brand from the fire and put it to his chest over the head of wolf tattoo ( I almost got sick when the smell hit me) but god love him he did not even flinch he just stood there looking me in eye. I put the brand down and fell into his embrace he held me till I stopped crying. I stepped back and watched my sister subs take there vows to our new Sir Mari
THE HOUSE OF JANE
Early on when Sir James was teaching both sub's and Dom's in the lifestyle and it's safety in rope, restraints, impact play as well as forging the needed trust for all of the above. He noticed a trend in the people who came to him he called it transient love where the partners really had no long term commitment in their desire. So he stopped teaching to work on a beneficial system one for both sub's and Dom's to adhere to one that would protect the sub's who gave their trust and submission for the long term but did not have a marriage to back them up. So he he came up with the teaching of Janes house named in honor of his lady Jane. Together they worked on the concepts of protection and security.
This is the main reasons of the house formation. This divided the protection is afforded by all the Dom's to every sub under house protection IF a sub finds that their Dom has not returned their or honored the trust given to them they have the ability to come to the house I.E. the ranch for food and housing and if wanted another Dom to care for them (it also gives them a place to recover) until they are ready to get out and love again. The security is provided by the fact that their Dom's are required to give money annually to a fund in their name. This is an open arrangement usually about 25% of his base pay and all of hers if she works. This is agreed between the sub and Dom prior to the ceremony of bond and the money is managed by an agreed financial planer. No we do not have any say in the money. Sir James and Jane took care of us ladies separately through a family trust. But it is reported to us if the proper amount is not placed in trust and the Dom is warned and the sub advised so that they can work it out between them.
Now that you know the reason for our existence.
it is my pleasure to announce between talks between us and the voting it has been decided THE HOUSE OF J. by one vote thank you bellAtEl for the suggestion
THE LADIES
As you all know Sir James and the lady Jane were our teachers in this lifestyle, so it was only natural for us to change our name to SIR JAMES LADIES. But as you also know with his passing and us claiming other Dom's it no longer seems proper to us to keep the name. With Doc and Jen having their own Dom's and Jo-Beth married to another Dom with V and Stacy not having chosen yet and we four taking Sir Tim as our Dom. It just seems to us ladies inconsiderate to our Dom's to wright under this name. let it be known our Dom's have not made an issue over this it is us ladies. So we have chosen three different names to put forward.
1) go back to taxi's ladies?
2) Janes girl's
3) the house of Jane.
we would like to hear your opinion's as well if you have another name we will pay it due respect.
thank you THE LADIES
From time to time I will enter an excerpt from one of our founders. The reason for this is to show why we follow his lessons and hers not just because they started this family but because they had much to teach us learned the hard way and gave to us the lessons so as to avoid the pitfalls in life.
Alone
Over time the animal we call human have developed certain traits and one of them is time to be alone with ourselves, I have also discovered that the harder a person works at some thing creating a business the more alone time they need. This I believe is because of how much of themselves they share and put into the business. It is also true for anything a person put so much care into that from time to time they must stop and replenish themselves this is best done by the use of what I call alone time and for this one needs a place to be alone. It needs to be someplace that they feel safe with their aloneness. When they enter that place it should make them feel they have come into their hart. This I have built for you, as each of you came to me and expressed your wish to join me and become part of both our and your personal dynamic with me I built you a small gazebo enclosed with wall of wood or stone to fit your own personality what is inside I do not know it is your place to make your own. You may keep it as clean or make it as dirty as you wish it is yours. you may find you use it often or not you will learn things about me and most defiantly about your self that will shock you and disturb you to your perceived core thus you will need to take the time to examine and accept or reject I only ask you to study yourself very deeply and long before you reject because every thing you reject is really a part of you so do not take to much of what make you unique away.