First experiences

What is happiness?  Everyone is going to answer that question differently because, simply put...everyone is different.  You might get answers that range from being rich to just being content with your life to being able to travel to loving the place you live at.  Nobody is going to answer that question the same as anyone else.  There are common threads though....and in a relationship, happiness is essential to the survival of said relationship.  One of the most often repeated phrases I have heard about a relationship is "Happy wife, happy life."   Yes, that is true...but it shouldn't be about just the wife's (partner's) happiness.  You need to be happy as well, and that happiness was not there for me and my kitten for a long time.  I was doing everything that I thought of to try and make her happy, but we only seemed to grow further apart.  It got to the point that, while I didn't dread going home after work, I was somewhat resigned about it....and I didn't understand why that was...not entirely, at least.  Our relationship was suffering, badly, and it was either going to end...or it needed some serious intervention.  Kitten was spending almost every waking moment on an electronic device, scrolling Facebook, playing a game, talking with people I had no idea who they were, and just blocking herself off from the outside world.  I would try and pull her out and she would for a little while, and then go right back into it.  I was terribly unhappy, and it showed in my actions and my attitude...which made kitten more unhappy.  I was constantly cranky, annoyed, easily aggravated, and stressed out all the time, which transferred to my kitten, and then it transferred back to me, and round and round and round....it took a drastic change in the dynamic of our relationship to break us from that cycle, and that change was my kitten telling me she was a sub/little, and that she craved being under control.  Turns out, I needed to be in control, and had just never realized that fact.  Once we figured that out...???   I haven't seen my kitten this happy in several years now, constantly happy, that is, not just moments of happiness.  She bounces, giggles, flirts, teases, drives me crazy with desire again, and I just can't get enough of her.  I'm happier, less stressed, more playful, and when I'm at work, I can't wait to get home to my kitten now.  When I'm working now, I'm more relaxed, more joking around again, and fun to be around.   It had been pointed out to me a few months ago at work that I had changed...that I was quieter, not as engaging, didn't joke around as much, and just seemed depressed more often.  I had been asked several times if everything at home was ok, and just always said "yes," because I didn't know how to talk to anyone about home issues.  Now, if anyone asks me how everything is?  "Fucking awesome!  That's what it is."  Lol.  I love my kitten, and cannot wait to get home to her.  So I leave you with this tidbit....while it is important to ensure the happiness of your partner, it is equally important to to ensure your happiness as well...

And now, I have to head out to my motorcycle for the ride home....my favorite time if day to ride....cool and calm.  Have a great day, y'all!  

Came home from work this morning, and kitten and I left immediately to go to the store and get some breakfast and some minor groceries.  We spent most of the morning together, talking and laughing  and holding hands.  No phones, I kept them in my pocket in case the school needed to call us about our son.  We had fun just walking around and then we went for breakfast.  After we got home and out groceries away, doorbell rings and I see a UPS driver walking away.  There's a package outside.  I bring it inside and open it and walk towards my kitten holding her first stuffie.  The look on her face was breathtaking, a mixture of anticipation, love, and excitement.  She was so happy that it made me grin like a fool as well, watching her light up like that.  Being able to provide her with a stress free (or as stress free as I can make it) environment has made her happy, which has made me happy.  She hasn't been feeling well today, so she settled in for a nap with her new stuffie while I went and showered and got ready for bed myself, gotta go back to work again tonight...I kissed her on the cheek, tucked her in, and as I turned to walk away, she murmured "thank you, Daddy" with such an expression  of contentment and peace on her face that I had to go and kiss her again. I cannot believe how much our relationship and happiness has changed in such a short time.  She means the world to me, and I will do anything for my kitten.   

It's been almost a week.  Almost a week since my life changed. Almost a week since I heard something that would lead me to this incredible change.  What I heard?  "I'm not happy and I need something more.  More than what I think you are willing to do."  And when I found out what it was, it shocked me, a bit, to be honest.  But what made it worse was the fact that this person didn't feel like she had been able to confide in me about this need she had.  She told me that she was into something called DaddyDom/littlegirl, and was a submissive, and needed a Daddy to control her, and give her order and stability in her every day life by taking the choice away from her.  She told me that she craved this control, and that her having to make decisions or be "in charge" made her stressed out.  When she told me that she had found someone to act as her Daddy, but wanted to see if I was ok with it, I didn't know what else to say but "ok."  I had no idea about this world she was now a part of.  But I knew what I was feeling.  It was hurt.  Hurt that she hadn't trusted me enough.  Hurt that I had failed her, without realizing it, yes, but still a failure by not paying enough attention to her to realize what she was going through.  I also felt anger.  Not at her, much, but at the thought of another man telling my woman what to do and when to do it.  It made me realize that, she is mine!  And I wanted her back.  I spent the next day or so researching, reading, and exploring the world of DD/lg, D/s, bondage, and other things, and I realized a couple of things.  1. I was extremely intrigued by this world that I was learning about.  2.  The description of Daddy Dom, of how they take over the world of their little girl, or in my case, my kitten, making all decisions, controlling all aspects of their life, while simultaneously ensuring the happiness and wellbeing of their little or their kitten...this description super resonated with me, and I knew that I wanted, no...i NEEDED to go and get my kitten back.  She was mine.  I wrote out a long letter (novel?...heh) and gave it to kitten while I went and showered after work.  We then sat and talked for a couple of hours, her in somewhat a disbelief state, me serious, nervous, excited, and hopeful that she would give me this chance.  And she did.  For which I am eternally grateful and happy about.  And this is incredible.  It has changed the entire dynamic of our relationship, which has made my kitten much more relaxed and happy, which makes me happy and relaxed.  The feelings of being in control, of possessing her as mine, that as her Daddy, she does what I want her to do, that she needs me to control her, take care of her, set rules and limits for her,  give her tasks and chores and give her punishments for not obeying me, not doing her chores, not completing her tasks....these feelings that have come out....I never thought that I would be Daddy in a relationship like this.  It struck a chord that i never knew was missing in my life.  Our relationship has gone upwards in just a few days... of course we have moments where we almost forget that I no longer have to ask her, she needs me to tell her, command her, punish and reward her.  I cannot wait to explore this world more fully and discover mine and my kittens limits.