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5 days ago. Sep 16, 2020, 8:50 AM

Have you ever struggled with your inner self? Like your fighting with yourself in your head? That has been me today. After everything I've been thru past of me wants to argue and put myself down about still doing this life style, because of my scars now, not being a full woman anymore on the inside because of the fact I can't have kids, no one will want you now, you need to quit doing this. I can't, this  who  I  am, this is me, my submissiveness comes naturally and has been party of me for a long time. Stupid fucking conscious.

1 week ago. Sep 15, 2020, 4:54 AM

Due to all the traumatic stuff my body has been thru I had to have energy surgery and have my whole right ovaries taken out. If feels good to say it publicly.

2 months ago. Jul 11, 2020, 10:49 AM

It's official y'all, I'm now in remission! 

3 months ago. Jun 16, 2020, 8:40 AM

Sorry it's short and plain y'all, but all I want is to be spanked right now. Serious mood.

7 months ago. Jan 26, 2020, 8:34 PM

Im back and im feeling better than ever!

 

10 months ago. Oct 23, 2019, 10:13 AM

I am severely depressed,  I start chemo Thursday and radiation Monday. I hope it's worth it, I hope it will work and I hope I have the strength to fight 

11 months ago. Oct 14, 2019, 11:47 AM

Prayers please, I found out I am most likely going to have surgery, I have to wait till Tuesday to find out more when I go back for a follow up. I have been sick since Friday morning with severe stomach cramps and they have not let up, I'm not going to say what yet. I just hope all goes well. In tired of hurting like this, crying and having to sleep with a heating pad on my tummy for some relief to be able to sleep. 

11 months ago. Oct 13, 2019, 8:20 AM

Is anyone else having a problem with their kik. Mine deleted everything and won't let me log back in, it's like it deleted my account? 

11 months ago. Oct 9, 2019, 7:08 AM

Im really depressed right now, in emotionally and physically drained. Two days ago was the 16th anniversary of my dad's death. I was 14 when he died. I have been suffering from my insomnia even more lately. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him and what a great man he was. I cry when I think if him and what I missed out on after he was gone. My heart is heavy and there is a constant hole. I just needed to vent. 

11 months ago. Oct 7, 2019, 5:34 PM

SilentAce 

 


A Woman with sex in Mind
I am a female
I am a fucking being
The two are, surprisingly 
Not mutually exclusive.

A whore, a slut, 
As the society might describe it
Are words with the meaning
To keep women submissive.

I may fuck who I please
When I please
For whatever reason I so choose.
And it doesn't have a damn thing to do with you.

Heaven forbid I'm not viginistic 
When my ring finger is bound
Because viginity is a 'gift'
I mustn't pass it round.

I must walk like a lady
And only fuck who I love
But the boys can run freely
Kiss and tell and call me a skank

He's been with eleven girls
And has a girlfriend on the side
I've been with two 
And not at the same time.

A pat on the back for him
Because he's got all the pussy
But social exclusion for me
Because my sexual nature is vicious.

God, I must be a whore
For actually speaking of sex
I'm a woman, we can't do that
But, fuck, sometimes I forget.

See, I was raised to hold my head high
Without looking up.
I was raised to be ladylike, polite
And wait until I found love.

I was brought up to hold my tongue
I was trained not to take up space
I was taught not to roughhouse about
Or follow the boys' ways.

I was brought up to fear sex
Until I found love or was married
But what the hell is love or a ring
When I can't even get equality?

I was taught that I should be ashamed
If I thought sexually
And I shouldn't even consider trying
fucking.

I was told to hide my body
Because women are to be pure
If I wasn't pristine, who would want me?
I'd be a lonely spinster.

My body is my own
To do with what I please.
So fuck your expectations, Society;
I will have equality