My love my life ...

I need to be honest for my own safety. I am a masochist (no secret), who enjoys painful, forced, physically demanding play. 

Beginners close your ears,  and don't I repeat DO NOT try this as you learn about BDSM.

I never used safe words. I found I abused the use. I would see the first slap coming and scream my safe word. Or there was the other extreme where I would be in sub space unable to verbally communicate. So, safe words have not been of great use to me.

My Dominant in the past has checked my wettness to ensure my pleasure level. Also, afterwards we would have a conversation of my experience. So far this has worked for me.

This is one big reason I am real time only. I am very non verbal in the moment. In person you can read me to ensure my safety.

I just made less work for my therapist 😋

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The real Dominants here far out weigh the fakes. I am currently not owned ( no worries no rush), but I have a Protector miles away, that helps me with difficult situations ( grown up stuff, when I don't want to be a grown up). Also, I have a Dominant here that writes me nightly bedtime stories, history lessons of the dark side.

Omg, do I want to be owned. Yes, while I am not thank you Guys for taking great care of me,with no strings attached...

Safe Place for,

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How my mind says fear, and my body gets wildly aroused. My heart starts beating fast, the tears are waiting for the first slap, my body waiting knowing it will be helplessly pinned down to take whatever he chooses to give ...

Oh, I remember this. I was much younger when the same things occurred, and he laughed because I came. I was to young to know what my body had done. I just know I felt a tingle in pelvic area ...

Now, I am addicted...

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I was rewriting some parts of my profile and thought dam! Whoever gets you will be a happy (you know what) Dominate. Loving every bit of my submissive world. Hope you are enjoying yours...

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After a year of lost, after lost I stop having dreams and goals for my self. Because of the honest sharing here on how soul for filling it it is to be a submissive, I dream again. I look forward to be His choose One. Wow!

My therapist is going to be impressed LoL 😁! 

Thank, you all for your honesty, that is keeping me on the path to self.

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Master, I am pregnant. They say it's a boy! He cried every day all day he first year of life and suddenly stop on his birthday LoL 😁. Clothing, haircuts, homework, training, watching him grow into a man for the last 18 years I have been blessed. His father nor myself ever showed him any part of this lifestyle. Surprise, surprise here is 18 years later is a 6'2 240lbs Sadist, with no boundaries. He thought Mom would be his first prey. Sadly, mistaken. I have to let go always watching... Knowing that he has to find his way be it in this lifestyle or not. It's never acceptable to consider love ones prey. My son, my heart beat ....

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