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This is what my innocent mind thought what watersports was...

I didn't know in BDSM it is was THIS...

I know the Cage is a kink site and we come here to experience BDSM in a safe and private manner with others who also want to share these experiences with other human beings. I know this site is supposed to be like an island where you can let your freak flag fly, so to speak, at least that's how I see it. Friends, I've got no kinky feelings today. I've just been feeling blue. No energy. Blah. Kaput. I usually can get aroused when I start writing my erotica and thinking of all these power-play scenarios in my head that I'll probably never write and that makes things more exciting for me, but man today, has just been like...nothing. I know, I know, you'll probably say, well everyone has their ups and downs. And you are probably right. I think I'm afraid that depression is starting to grip me hard just like my mom. I actually have a few doctor appointments coming up, one being with a psychiatrist. My most recent depression intake with the nurse practitioner said that I scored high on moderate to severe depression. I told her the truth. I didn't want to cover up my feelings. I told her I think depressing thoughts on most days. I am honestly glad I did that because now I can get the help I need. A long time ago my mom told me that she thought I always had depression and there was a time I was taking medication a long time ago for that but I stopped on my own. I didn't believe her at first because she is bi-polar, has tried many suicide attempts, is manic-depressive, and has a lot of health things she suffers with. Perhaps, since she had dealt with it for so long, she recognized it in me and now that I am a mom, I understand how we see issues in our children that they cannot see in themselves. Also, I mentioned this before, but my partner is the least supportive person, ever. In my profile, I've mentioned how he is a narcissist and I believe this to be true. He cannot face feelings. He thinks feelings are for weaklings. He things people fake depression and other mental illnesses so that they can get help from the government or sympathy or whatever. I don't give a shit what he thinks and I think he is wrong for even thinking that, but it doesn't help my case because my lack of support from friends and family is what is probably driving my depression further. Also, since I'm going deep in to my life story, my dad was a gung-ho Scientologist. Scientologists hate psychology. They hate psychiatric medication. It's kind of funny that he ended up with my mom though, because she took all kinds of medication all her life and still does. They are not together anymore though. There were a lot of times though that he tried to get her to see their (Scientology) way and have her believe that because we are all spiritual beings, medication is not required as we can heal on our own. If you ever seen documentaries on Scientology you know that they are bat-shit crazy and a very manipulative cult. (I'm looking at you Tom Cruise.) Anyways, the reason I bring it up is because I think I internalized these beliefs and thought somehow if I just did things the natural way, like taking vitamins, going to chiropractors, acupuncturists, exercise, and always thinking positive, my depression would be cured. Sometimes, it doesn't work that way. I mean, of course all the things I mentioned are great and beneficial, but sometimes people need more. And that's me. I need more and I've been denying myself help for a long time. So, sorry if I came across like this character today.

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Gotta go for that vintage style!!!

I know the score like the back of my hand
Them other boys, I don't give a damn
They kiss on the ring, I carry the crown
Nothing can break, nothing can break me down
Don't need no advice, I got a plan
I know the direction, the lay of the land
I know the score like the back of my hand
Them other boys, I don't give a damn
I'm the man, come round
Nothing can break, nothing can break me down
I'm the man, come round and
Nothing can break, you can't break me down
I got gas in the tank
I got money in the bank
I got news for you baby, you're looking at the man
I got skin in the game
I got a household name
I got news for you baby, you're looking at the man
When it comes to Friday, I always earn
But don't try to teach me, I got nothing to learn
'Cause baby I'm gifted
You see what I mean?
USDA certified lean
I'm the man, come round
Nothing can break, you can't break me down
I got gas in the tank
I got money in the bank
I got news for you baby, you're looking at the man
I got skin in the game
I don't feel no pain
I got news for you baby, you're looking at the man
Who's the man? Who's the man?
I'm the man, I'm the man
Who's the man with the plan?
I'm the man
Who's the man? Who's the man?
I'm the man, I'm the man
Who's the man with the plan?
I'm the man
I'm the man
I'm the man
I got gas in the tank
I got money in the bank
I got news for you baby, you're looking at the man
I got skin in the game
Headed to the hall of fame
I got news for you baby, you're looking at the man
Right hand to God
First in command
My testimony, but I take the stand
Who's the man? Who's the man?
I'm the man, I'm the man
Who's the man with the plan?
I'm the man
Who's the man? Who's the man?
I'm the man, I'm the man
Who's the man with the plan?
I'm the man
I don't give a damn
I'm the man

But lowkey this song is fire!!!

So, because of my ADHD, I'm still writing an erotic fan fiction I mentioned that I needed help with a few weeks ago. I have it set in the 1940's because of the game it's based on. I've been doing some research to make the story sound close to that time period and I found that I've been having fun looking at the fashion of that time period, the events going on at that time, and the slang they used. A lot of the slang we got from the 1940's is still in use but they should bring back the antiquated words or phrases just for fun.

Active duty: A promiscuous male
Ameche: Telephone
Anchor cranker: Sailor
Cheaters: Sunglasses
Crumb: A jerk
Doll dizzy: Girl-crazy
Dead Hoofer: A bad dancer
Ducky shincracker: A good dancer
Fat-head: A stupid person
Flip your wig: Lose control of yourself
Floy floy: Nonsense
Gammin’: Showing off
Going fishing: Trying to get a date
Hen fruit: Eggs
Hi sugar, are you rationed?: Do you have a steady boyfriend?
Khaki wacky: Boy-crazy
Motorized freckles: Insects
Mud: Coffee
Off the cob: Silly or goofy
Popsicle: Motorcycle
Reet: Very
Share crop: A promiscuous female
Snap your cap: Get mad
Stompers: Shoes
Strictly from Dixie: Uncool
Take a powder: To leave
What’s buzzin’, cousin?: What’s going on?

My favorite:

Strictly from Dixie 😎

I came on this website to explore BDSM and the people that are into it. I still find it interesting and more enticing than the typical "vanilla" relationships that people have. I like that communication is key to making BDSM work and how it's emphasized a lot and how open most people are about sexuality and their experiences. 

I've realized that plenty of people on here have a lot of experience with this lifestyle either currently or in the past. I have none. Sometimes I feel like in my mind, I am a submissive, but I don't know how good of submissive I would be to a Dom. I feel like I would need a ton of freedom and might feel suffocated. I'm an introvert that values her space immensely. I'm in my mid-thirties but I think I am still not emotionally mature and sure of myself in a lot of ways, which I believe you need, to be in order to commit to a relationship with a power-exchange. I identified as a sub on here for a while, but I took it off recently because I don't want to claim I'm something if I never even experienced anything like it (which I haven't). I don't want to waste anyone's time. If I am ever sure, you guys would be the first to know!

All you have to do is put on anything Jane Austen related:

Pride And Prejudice (any version)

Sense And Sensibility (any version)

Brigerton

Austenland

Persuasion

Mansfield Park

Northanger Abbey

Emma

Poldark

And BOOM, he is gone in a flash!!! 🤣🤣🤣

*Laughs In British*

Currently, I just started reading a book called "Sleep Smarter" by Shawn Stevenson. Yup, I'm reading it at 3 in the morning, go figure! And he mentions how you can re-frame your view of sleep (for people like me with sleep issues) by imagining you are going on a "hot date" with sleep. Kinda a cheesy analogy, but something else popped in to my mind while I was reading that...sometimes I wish I could be spanked to sleep like a naughty kid! A few spanks with a paddle would do some good followed by firm words of "Go to sleep!" Then with a sore bum, I could drift off into slumber. Anyways, just a thought. Goodnight!