I have gotten a sense of happiness
Change is always a bit scary
Then you come to realize this change should have taken place sooner.
I have found joy and excitement with my new change of self
I wish everyone to find this sense of self happiness
New life changes are around the corner. It can be stressful. It is taking up all my focus. It is all a good move and I'm excited to start my new chapter in life. Just like any change I am a bit worried. I am trying to stay focused on the silver lining and the positive points.
LIVING LIFE FOR MYSELF ?
This year has gone by so quick
New year is here
As I look back
Only for memory not for regret
I plan on the future
Change for the better
Things that can be, bye to those that cant
Always remember the past
The lessons learned
Forever live for the future
I wish everyone a safe and prosperous new beginning.
To all friends
May all your holidays bring you joy and happiness. This time of year can be stressful for many reason. It can be wonderful. Relish in the friendships and another year to come. I wish everyone the very best of tomorrow...
As this year closes the nights get colder
Time to cuddle up and contemplate
The year that has past
The time to come
What we hope to accomplish
Always remember the past and what we aspire to come
Ending always come. It's part of the journey. Time to evaluate what was learned, good and bad. What will I do differently, what will I hold back, what I will hope for to come.
I will miss your sweet lips
Time will tell all
As my walls fall, the trust becomes apparent.
The possibility of getting hurt, sense of being betrayed or feeling of being a stupid girl, versa being a good submissive. Then the mistrust is fueled...
The doubt kicks in...
Rethinking, reevaluating, convincing myself
The trust bricks start to rebuild the security around my ever changing emotions.
The wall
I feel stronger, less vulnerable, more in control
Less submissive
It is a scary moment when you feel yourself falling.
It is all exciting, getting to know your Dom, testing him, and testing yourself.
I am switch by definition and training my sub side has been difficult, but my Dom has been stern, understanding, informative, and sweet when I needed it. I attempted to let go of my dominate side fully and super sub(as he called it). His reaction was surprising to me...
"The you I like is not so submissive. I dont want to change you. "
Oh my...now I'm falling...
The walls I put around me to guard my feelings, I feel the crumpling. I feel like I'm crazy. How can I possibly be feeling this so quick.
I am risking myself, I am exposing who I am.
I am enjoying this journey fully knowing I may be hurt in the end.
For now I will feel the fall and relish in all its bliss.
My willingness to fully submit will be deserved, it is nothing I will give up easily. When I do find that strong willed, capable, understanding Dom that is ment for me, then and only then, will I graciously and willingly fully give myself fully to him.
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