Indigo Blue

Hello Indigo Fam,

  It's been a while....too long. You know how much I love my community! Been busy with a few ventures. First Beast and I are Tiny house owners now. Broken down into 3 phases. In the end hoping to have a play area attached! Second Beast and I have joined a IRL community and will be attending our first bubble party soon. Third.....this one is exciting...Beast and I are getting married April 30, 2023. Been busy planning our wedding. Peacock themed and very DIY. We feel it makes it super personal. I promise I will get back on track with my blogs soon. I will give you all a report after the party (2/25). Till then love you all!!

Peace

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam

  No matter what type of dynamic you have there is a need for structure. It defines us and controls chaos. It reminds us the is a hierarchy and succession. The degree of rule depends on if you are a bedroom submissive or 24/7 engaged in the lifestyle. I for one need this in my life. The vanilla world for me hold me accountable to be "in control" over many processes. My children, family, and friends hold me to a high standard...to solve all problems and take care of things. My job puts me in control of many people, rules, and processes. When I am with Beast I can let go to a degree...His control is my release. From simple rules like folding his clothes a particular way, taking his outside shoes off once we are in for the night or laying out the items he requested for our session are examples of my tasks. His commands and praise when I am his good girl...or dirty slut allows me to detach from the vanilla. Even when I am a bit bratty or I don't ask permission to cum, the consequence of swats on my calves(I hate those cause I have thick juicy ones) keep me structured. So let's share. How does structure work in your dynamic. You know I love to hear from my community. Love you all!

Peace

Indigo

Hello Indigo Fam,

    A lot has been going on with Beast and I over the last few months. I promise I will get back to posting more content soon. 😌  love you all and thanks for your support.

Peace,

Indigo 

Hello indigo Fam,

     So anyone that follows my blog will know life has been kicking me in the ass over the last year and a half. Lately our dynamic has been suffering as well. This morning changed that completely. I told Beast I was horny and missed his head between my legs. He went to work on my clit with his tongue like his life depended on it. For some strange reason I had the urge for him to put a finger in my ass. This is a big deal for me because I struggle with the whole anal thing. As he went into our toy bag to grab the lubricant I spotted my rose. I hadn't had much luck with it since we got it, but I thought what the hay. Well.....let me tell you once he got the finger in my Ass and one in my pussy, I started using my rose. I CAME SOOOOOO FUCKING HARD!!! I started giggling uncontrollably. Beast was like what the fuck? Talking to me baby. I tried to explain the best I could. I flipped over and he road me hard and put me away wet! He took me to breakfast afterwards. My clit was sensitive, my own lips were giving me a sensation like I was going to cum again.....after the 3 more times he made me cum fucking me. In sub space like a motherfucker. Man I love Beast so fucking much. So glad he is apart of my world.

Peace

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

    It's been a minute.....dealing with some things. Hopefully I am back on the regular bringing  you entertainment and inspiration. 

Today's topic is "TOYS". So everyone has been raving about " the Rose". Beast and I got one recently along with a pussy spreader. Sooooo let me share my thoughts. You know I keep it real with ya and Beast is fine with me sharing. First he clamped me up with the spreader the came the Rose. It felt good...so good I popped the clamps off lol. It wasn't enough though to make me cum. Beast has to resort to our "old methods" to get me off. I can see it more for edging which we are not into. The clamps...well we just need to adjust them to stay on I think. We both are big fans of toys. Beast is particularly fond of the Wand. So Fam...let's discuss. Best toys out on the market today? How do my other sub sisters feel about the Rose? Can't wait to read your comments.

Peace 

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

   My birthday fast approaching and I am very anxious. Beast is taking me on a trip to see one of my little sis in Cleveland. Super stoked about that because we have been friends about a year and just now meeting up. It's going to be a bitter sweet trip as my birthday also is sore reminder of the last time I spoke to my daughter before her death. I am looking forward to the emotional support from Beast and my Sis. Oh and I am doing much better after surgery 🙃. 

Peace 

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

    To those of you that have been following my progress from back surgery, I am doing pretty good. I am walking without assistance for the most part. Almost to the point of walking erect again. Thank you all for the prayers and support.

  Today I would like to talk about a different subject though. I suffer from anxiety and Depression. My Dom(Beast) knows about it, but to be fair he has PTSD from the military. He does the best he can when I get in my moods even to the point of putting his own feelings aside. When you have that connection with your Dom(Domme) you give all of you to them. They protect you, they manage you, they give you pleasure and discipline. Not sure about anyone else out there, but when Beast is upset I feel small and incomplete. He tells me that he is not mad at me, but I have a hard time shaking my anxiety and depression creeps in. He has me mind,body, and soul. I would love to know if this happens to other subs and how do you deal with it.

Peace 

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

   Well I am 3 weeks post surgery and just got my staples taken out Thursday. I convinced Beast to let me try a session. We went round and round, but he let me try. It was a soft session to test some limits. It went pretty well, but I have a hang up fam....my back scar is hideous. I upset Beast because I told him I don't see how he could even look at me. I feel damaged and broken. I still have some mobility issues until I heal more. I start PT Tuesday so that should help. I just wish my body wasn't so ugly and scared.

Peace 

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

   I come to you 1 week post op. I am moving pretty good, but still using a walker. Staples come out June 3rd...it looks like a zipper down my back. Beast and I agreed to wait till the staples come out to even think about sex. Going to get graphic...yall know I have no secrets from my fam. Constipation has been a issue due to all the meds I am on. Using depends now at night because I am pushing water and cranberry juice to fight a UTI. Once I get pass all the hiccups then maybe the real healing can begin. I will day this Beast is the best caretaker in the world. He cleaned up me and my accidents when they happened. He makes sure I take my meds and keeps me mobile. I feel I can conquer any obstacles that come my way. That is the side of the lifestyle no one sees. The love and care that is given by the Dominant in the dynamic. Life is wonderful with Beast around.

Peace

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

   I come to you today with a deep issue close to my heart. My 21 year old daughter was date raped last week. A friend from high school Contacted her and wanted to hang out. Not unusual because since the lifted restrictions of covid a lot of them have been reaching out and reconnecting. She went to his house, alcohol was involved, she said no but you can imagine what happened next. This is why I want to talk about consent.

 It's important to know that at anytime you feel unsafe or hurt that NO means no. Safe words in Our community is a must. A real Dom, Damme, Master, Mistress, Daddy or Mommy will stop when a safe word is used. Even though we are the subordinate in the lifestyle dynamic we still have the right to say no if something isn't right. I am so over the predators in and out of the lifestyle. There is someone out there that wants the same things they want. Stop bothering  or trying to force people to bend you your will. Please if red flags go up Contacted someone for help if you can't get out of the situation. My daughter said there were red flags when she was there so she shared her location with a couple of friends and my Beast. The guy brought her back home though before anyone could react. She has been checked out medically, but we are now dealing with emotional scars. Please if you are going out with someone make sure there is at least one person that knows where you are and who you with. If anyone else has a story to share or tips for safety comments are welcome. 

Peace 

Indigo