Hello Indigo Fam,
Under the weather and feeling blue. I am missing Beast badly. I will get to see him Wednesday through the following Monday though. His birthday is next weekend and looking forward to some fun times....if I can get rid of this cold. I tried toddy, Tussin, and Nyquil. And suggestions would be appreciated. No it's not the Rona, I was tested today just to be on the safe side.
Peace
Indigo 🤧
Hello Indigo Fam,
Last night I had a super intense session with Beast. He worked me over good!! I layed on his chest when we were done and drifted off. He woke me after a while so we could get ready for sleep. Night meds and he has sleep apnea so he had to put on his mask. I kinda felt funky, sad, touchy all at the same time. I tried to shake it and get some sleep. I tossed and turned then my CGM alarm went off. My blood sugar dropped low. I didn't know what was happening to me. I woke Beast and told him I was low and he asked if I needed him to get me something to eat. I told him I was fine. I ate some Thin Mint girl scout cookies and snuggled in his arm. I still couldn't shake the other feelings I was having. I went on FB to one of my groups and started describing my feeling. Immediately everyone came back with the same response " sub drop" . I was given some tips on how to handle the situation. I didn't want to wake Beast so I tried to deal with it on my own. In the morning I did wake him early and started to tell him what happened. 1st he hugged me and told me he was sorry for not recognizing. He said he had never had a sub that had that happen to them. 2nd he went and picked up my favorite breakfast hot cakes and sausage. We talked more over breakfast and formulated a plan for the next time it happens. I would love to hear other people's experiences with sub drop if you would like to share. You all know I love a healthy discussion lol
Peace
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam,
So I come to you with a sensitive subject. I have read many an article about grief and BDSM. My Beast confused to me that he started to spank me till I cried to release some of the emotion I was hiding. He didn't because he was not sure how I would process what he was trying to do. Sometimes I wish he would 😕. I think I need pain exchange to help me release the anger and hurt inside. Sometimes I want to rip my skin off, transform into something new. Each day is new and I struggle to get through. Does this make me a masochist? Sometimes I am so lost in my emotions. What am I.... who am I. Just not sure anymore. 😕 HELP!!!
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam
It poetry time!!!! Check this out
Eyes down sitting at you feet
Dick so hard waiting to release
That sweet sweet nectar that I drink
Like fine wine it quench my thirst 😋
For you
In my mouth or on my face
In my pussy or in my ass
You pick the place
Just not the hair....you know how long it took me to sit for these braids.
The ones you love to tug as you ride me deep
Sometimes I weep
Tears of joy knowing I am about to get that good good
From your
Sweet Thang
Peace
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam,
Just wanted to share my excitement. Beast is in town and I can't wait for our session over the next couple of days. Michigan is due for a major snow storm this week so he might be staying till Friday instead of Thursday. Ouch ouch twist my arm about that lol. Here is a little something for my community, my sanctuary, my Fam,
Sit he says with a low growl in his voice. I do as he command. Sitting at his feet worshiping him gives me a inner joy that is hard to put in words. He strokes my hair a few times then grabs my by my chin and tilts my head upwards. You are my good girl he says. I smile in anticipation of what's to come. He walks behind me and selects a couple of items from the wide array of toys and things that are layer out on the desk. He blindfolds me then tells me to get up on the bed and lay on my back. One of the things Beast always does with me is tell me to study the room. That way once he blindfolds me I can maneuver with easy to complete any task I am given. On my back I go. He places my ear buds on me and plays Enigma...loud. I melt deep into the music as he switches on the small wand. Carefully caressing my nipples till they are rock hard then taking each one into his mouth like he was sucking on candy. He traces the wand down my stomach to my sweet clit. Plump and wet he teases it and makes me squirm. He removes one bud and whispers in my ear " you better not cum without asking". I nodded and he replaces the bud. He works my clit over bringing me closer and closer to my release.......
.....and you gotta stay tuned to part 2
Peace
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam,
Today I want to talk about being old and the BDSM dynamic. As we age our body's are not ad giving as they used to be. In my own relationship I have a bad knee so I can't kneel properly for Beast. I instead came up with an alternative. I sit at his feet or put a few pillows down that will allow me to suck his cock while he stands up. Another position we do is I lay on my back with my head hanging over the bed. It gives him a good angle to fuck my mouth and grab my tits. Beast loves playing with my nipples!! Doggie style can be a little difficult sometimes too because of my trick knee. I shift to take the pressure off....but then that can affect my stripper hip as Beast calls it(never stripped just a joke). Just because we have a few aches doesn't me we will stop our activities. So fam what are some old folk issues you have and how do you over come the obstacles Comment below.
Peace
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam,
Today I want to talk about being sassy. I can be a sassy pants sometimes, but I know my limits. The whole brat thing has been so controversial in all the groups I belong to. I think a small amount of sassy or brattiness is ok. Like a cat that catches a mouse. He likes the chase and excitement of it trying to get away. Letting it thinks it has the upper hand only to pounce again. I love predator/pray play with Beast. I have seen too much sass in some groups to where it down right disrespects the Dom. That I don't agree with. I blame 50 Shades of gray for this crop. The way Ana disrespected Christian is ridiculous. From the whole contact negotiation to the obey part in their wedding vows. Give me a break, subs please stop imitating this movie. Not really life behavior of a D/s relationship. This is just one subs view. Tell me what you all think about sassy subs or bratty sub which ever you want to call them.
Hello Indigo Fam,
Ok so Beast and I had a deep conversation about my anxiety and depression. The solution was a support animal. I welcome Athena to our family. She is a 3 month old calico kitten. I had to let my premium subscription go due to priority so I can't post a picture. Oh and I have a book coming tomorrow from Amazon to assist in my violin training. To hell with what ANYONE thinks. It may sound funny in the beginning, but it will be beautiful in the end. Thank you to my community for the support. Once I get back on track my content will get back to normal as well. I know you all miss the poetry and steamy stories. Speaking of stories I do have a book recommendation. The Mister by E.L. James. It's very good.
Peace
Indigo
Not my normal self fam
Feeling down and depressed 😔. Beast gets mad at me when I talk bad about myself. I feel lost and useless. Beast got me a beautiful violin for Christmas. I have always wanted to play and he said I need a hobby. Now I am teased by my children and don't want to do it anymore. I have no hobbies and because I only work 4-5 hours a day doing Amazon Flex I have alot of free time. My mind wonders to all the terrible things that happen last year. Not going to rehash just read back through my blogs if you need to catch up. I always look to my community for support. You all have been in my corner more that anyone in the vanilla world...even my own family. I just want to dissappear from this world. 😩 it's not the same anymore. My dynamic is even suffering. Beast is great and will crawl over broken glass for me....I just feel like I am in my own private hell. 😭😭😭😭
Indigo
"Somtimes life has to take you through a thorn bush so you can appreciate the beauty of the rose"
~unknown~
Have you ever wondered "why me"
Why do I always fall for the wrong ones? It's a life lesson my sweethearts. Not every road is going to be clear or every water way smooth sailing. Unfortunately sometimes we do get hurt along the way, but it's about how we bounce back and what did we learn that make us better. Helps us make better choices. As it relates to the lifestyle, I always say proper vetting is important. Taking your time to really get to know a person. When the right one comes along you will know it. Take strength from those bumps and lumps we have received to know who is "The One". Only then will you "Love the love they give". I am fortunate that I have found that love in my Dom. It's out there for everyone!!! If you are not sure or need help this community it a mighty one. Inbox and ask a experienced Dom or Domme. There are plenty that would be willing to answer questions. Also experienced sub will help guide you as well. I hope everyone finds that "ONE" and Love the love they give.
Peace
Indigo