Indigo Blue

Hello Indigo Fam,

   Well I am 3 weeks post surgery and just got my staples taken out Thursday. I convinced Beast to let me try a session. We went round and round, but he let me try. It was a soft session to test some limits. It went pretty well, but I have a hang up fam....my back scar is hideous. I upset Beast because I told him I don't see how he could even look at me. I feel damaged and broken. I still have some mobility issues until I heal more. I start PT Tuesday so that should help. I just wish my body wasn't so ugly and scared.

Peace 

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

   I come to you 1 week post op. I am moving pretty good, but still using a walker. Staples come out June 3rd...it looks like a zipper down my back. Beast and I agreed to wait till the staples come out to even think about sex. Going to get graphic...yall know I have no secrets from my fam. Constipation has been a issue due to all the meds I am on. Using depends now at night because I am pushing water and cranberry juice to fight a UTI. Once I get pass all the hiccups then maybe the real healing can begin. I will day this Beast is the best caretaker in the world. He cleaned up me and my accidents when they happened. He makes sure I take my meds and keeps me mobile. I feel I can conquer any obstacles that come my way. That is the side of the lifestyle no one sees. The love and care that is given by the Dominant in the dynamic. Life is wonderful with Beast around.

Peace

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

   I come to you today with a deep issue close to my heart. My 21 year old daughter was date raped last week. A friend from high school Contacted her and wanted to hang out. Not unusual because since the lifted restrictions of covid a lot of them have been reaching out and reconnecting. She went to his house, alcohol was involved, she said no but you can imagine what happened next. This is why I want to talk about consent.

 It's important to know that at anytime you feel unsafe or hurt that NO means no. Safe words in Our community is a must. A real Dom, Damme, Master, Mistress, Daddy or Mommy will stop when a safe word is used. Even though we are the subordinate in the lifestyle dynamic we still have the right to say no if something isn't right. I am so over the predators in and out of the lifestyle. There is someone out there that wants the same things they want. Stop bothering  or trying to force people to bend you your will. Please if red flags go up Contacted someone for help if you can't get out of the situation. My daughter said there were red flags when she was there so she shared her location with a couple of friends and my Beast. The guy brought her back home though before anyone could react. She has been checked out medically, but we are now dealing with emotional scars. Please if you are going out with someone make sure there is at least one person that knows where you are and who you with. If anyone else has a story to share or tips for safety comments are welcome. 

Peace 

Indigo 

Have you ever seen the sun rise and wiped the moon beams from your eyes. You turn and see that an angel has fallen by your side. Hugging you tight as the morning light touches his face gently from your window. You smile and know that everything is right in the world because you have him...that's what being in love is all about. 

Hello Indigo Fam,

   So I come to you all with news about my well-being. I am having back surgery May 12th. My current mobility is affected ? and my nerves are being pinched in my lower back. It definitely has affected play time as I love for Beast to pull me by my legs to him when I am on my back. It's a rush and it makes my giggle like a piglet  cause I know  what's coming next. I am concerned about life after surgery. Knowing that this will possibly change the way we play. Not sure if anyone out there has had any surgery done, but I would love some tips or suggestions on how to adjust and adapt when it's all done.

Peace 

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

    Under the weather and feeling blue. I am missing Beast badly. I will get to see him Wednesday through the following Monday though. His birthday is next weekend and looking forward to some fun times....if I can get rid of this cold. I tried toddy, Tussin, and Nyquil. And suggestions would be appreciated. No it's not the Rona, I was tested today just to be on the safe side.

Peace

Indigo ?

Hello Indigo Fam,

   Last night I had a super intense session with Beast. He worked me over good!! I layed on his chest when we were done and drifted off. He woke me after a while so we could get ready for sleep. Night meds and he has sleep apnea so he had to put on his mask. I kinda felt funky, sad, touchy all at the same time. I tried to shake it and get some sleep. I tossed and turned then my CGM alarm went off. My blood sugar dropped low. I didn't know what was happening to me. I woke Beast and told him I was low and he asked if I needed him to get me something to eat. I told him I was fine. I ate some Thin Mint girl scout cookies and snuggled in his arm. I still couldn't shake the other feelings I was having. I went on FB to one of my groups and started describing my feeling. Immediately everyone came back with the same response " sub drop" . I was given some tips on how to handle the situation. I didn't want to wake Beast so I tried to deal with it on my own. In the morning I did wake him early and started to tell him what happened. 1st he hugged me and told me he was sorry for not recognizing. He said he had never had a sub that had that happen to them. 2nd he went and picked up my favorite breakfast hot cakes and sausage. We talked more over breakfast and  formulated a plan for the next time it happens. I would love to hear other people's experiences with sub drop if you would like to share. You all know I love a healthy discussion lol

Peace 

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

    So I come to you with a sensitive subject. I have read many an article about grief and BDSM. My Beast confused to me that he started to spank me till I cried to release some of the emotion I was hiding. He didn't because he was not sure how I would process what he was trying to do. Sometimes I wish he would ?.  I think I need pain exchange to help me release the anger and hurt inside. Sometimes I want to rip my skin off, transform into something new. Each day is new and I struggle to get through. Does this make me a masochist? Sometimes I am so lost in my emotions. What am I.... who am I. Just not sure anymore. ? HELP!!!

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam 

 It poetry time!!!! Check this out

Eyes down sitting at you feet

Dick so hard waiting to release 

That sweet sweet nectar that I drink

Like fine wine it quench my thirst ? 

For you

In my mouth or on my face 

In my pussy or in my ass 

You pick the place

Just not the hair....you know how long it took me to sit for these braids.

The ones you love to tug as you ride me deep

Sometimes I weep 

Tears of joy knowing I am about to get that good good

From your

Sweet Thang

Peace

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

      Just wanted to share my excitement. Beast is in town and I can't wait for our session over the next couple of days. Michigan is due for a major snow storm this week so he might be staying till Friday instead of Thursday. Ouch ouch twist my arm about that lol. Here is a little something for my community, my sanctuary, my Fam,

    Sit he says with a low growl in his voice. I do as he command. Sitting at his feet worshiping him gives me a inner joy that is hard to put in words. He strokes my hair a few times then grabs my by my chin and tilts my head upwards. You are my good girl he says. I smile in anticipation of what's to come. He walks behind me and selects a couple of items from the wide array of toys and things that are layer out on the desk. He blindfolds me then tells me to get up on the bed and lay on my back. One of the things Beast always does with me is tell me to study the room. That way once he blindfolds me I can maneuver with easy to complete any task I am given. On my back I go. He places my ear buds on me and plays Enigma...loud. I melt deep into the music as he switches on the small wand. Carefully caressing my nipples till they are rock hard then taking each one into his mouth like he was sucking on candy. He traces the wand down my stomach to my sweet clit. Plump and wet he teases it and makes me squirm. He removes one bud and whispers in my ear " you better not cum without asking". I nodded and he replaces the bud. He works my clit over bringing me closer and closer to my release.......

.....and you gotta stay tuned to part 2

Peace 

Indigo