From the Dome

Summer Semester has me super busy with homework plus everything is hectic at work. Since I cant post my thoughts Im leaving you this treat because why not and if its to much please let me know I will take it down in a heart beat. But here's a fantasy I've had for a while, this has made me realize that I might want to Top or be more Dominant then I originally thought. or Im at least into edging, orgasm control whichever one fits. 

There's someone on my bed ( a person with a penis) and they are handcuffed, spread wide for me. They are sensitive to my touch but I don't know if its because I've been teasing them or if they are just sensitive but either way I don't care. I guide my tongue down their body,  I start at the ear nibbling lightly even flicking their ear lobe with my tongue. Slowly I like their neck, lightly bite just to make sure they are feeling my presence.

Im consuming their every sense. Im all around them and they feel me to their bones.

Then I make my way down to their chest licking and biting making sure I show appreciation to their nipple but only lightly. Just barely touching, ghosting my breathe across making sure their nipple is tight and pebbled. Before I flatten my tongue across and give one good lick then I move to the next nibble and do the same. While Im doing this my nails are lightly scrapping the sides of their ribs and going up and down. Every now and then I trail my tongue along the path i'm creating with my fingers. tracing their ribs with the side of my tongue.

They are pushing their hips at me begging but I ignore it, this isn't for them this is for me. Once i'm satisfied i trace my tongue across your stomach feeling them flex and shiver. At this point I know they are hard just like I know i'm dripping.

Both of us are anticipating my next move, none of this is planned i'm just mapping their body to my leisure. 

I scrape my nails down their thighs pushing their legs wider so I can kneel in between. I blow air on their cock loving how it flex and reaches for me, begging me to have a taste. But thats not what I want so lick the side and head down to their balls. I lick right between the sack then I just keep licking lightly all over. Eventually I suck one into my mouth swirling my tongue. I let go and move to the next ball doing the same them I move just a bit more down. Pushing their balls with my nose just to get right under a lightly lick.

I can't tell if they like it or if its ticklish but I like the reaction enough to do it a little more. Once i'm done teasing I lick the balls all the way up to the tip of their cock. 

I swirl the head of their cock with my tongue before swallowing as much as I can. My hands are on their knees making sure they aren't able to thrust up. This is going at my pace I control the movements.....

But then I start losing the fantasy right around here. I don't know what happens next, If i'm dreaming this is where I begin to wake up I try hard not to but I always do and if i'm just day dreaming this is where it begins to fizzle out. I know how I want it to end but I never get the satisfaction of it. At this point am I edging them or me? Its horrible honestly. 

I wanted to write an about me post thats a little more in depth than my profile. I said little but clearly Im a liar. 

          I do have bipolar depression (manic depression), so I do tend to distance myself every now and then in a low. I got into kink around 15 but with someone who called themselves a Sadist Dom and was way older than me so bad 1st experiences. Then I got back into the BDSM lifestyle around 21, and met a Master. He gave some training but I realize I didn't want what he was training me for. So I went off on my own and just incorporated what I liked from this lifestyle into my sex life. But lately it just feels like Im missing something, theres a potential I'm not reaching yet. 

          I am Pansexual and Polyamorous, so no one is safe from me 😉 I love trying and exploring new things, but I've learn to like the way people bring out different parts of me the most. I've never cared for someones gender or the way they look I just need to like the way I feel or the vibes they bring. I am sensitive in all aspects. Emotional and Physical. No further explanation. 

          Some hobbies or things that I love: Reading reading and reading. I love a good book. Some of my favorites are probably Kindred by Octavia Butler, Curious incident of the dog by Mark Haddon, Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhao, Stalking Jack the Ripper by Kerri Maniscalco, Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides, and A Certain Hunger by Chelsea G. Summers but one of my favorite authors is Mitch Albom, I love the way he writes its just beautiful. I also love picking up new hobbies, I recently taught myself how to embroider and now Im either going to do Knitting or Crocheting, don't know which one yet. I love languages so I listen to music in all kinds right now I like a lot of Greek Music but I was all about British Rap 2 weeks ago. I love learning about religion its amazing. If you aren't seeing the theme, I love learning and exploring. 

          I work 2 jobs and Im currently back in school, college at 25 isn't that weird honestly. So I am always tired, sadly it doesn't help that I do have some medical problems but its ok I don't let that stop me. What I do let stop me is how clumsy I am, and not a awww she bumps into things cute clumsy its more of an oh my god are you ok as I twist my ankle and break everything clumsy. I have no spacial awareness and suck at looking people in the eyes so I will always forget what someone looks like as soon as they walk away. umm I have a lot of tattoo's i think its around 24 but they are all small Im waiting to do a big one. I have 10 piercings in total, might get more who knows. 

          I am the oldest child, born on the east side. Moved to Florida, moved back home, moved back to Florida and now I live in Hawaii. Funny how like works huh. I am Puerto Rican and Spaniard. More Puerto Rican than anything else. I have a long name and Kora is short for Koráliná and Xiomarā are both my middle names and I have 1 first name 3 middle names and 2ish last names (my parents split but i didn't really take my moms last name)

          Man if you made it this far.... well holy shit even I would've given up. Let me know if I should post my more rated x posts, these fantasies are just brewing. Im going to end this like looney tunes with a "That's all Folks" :)

Have you ever read something, it can be the most ordinary thing but the way its written just does something to you. Not sexual exactly though closeI did get a flutter and iykyk. But its written with feelings you didn't know could be portrayed in words. Anyway I'm distracted but I guess thats ok since this is for my thoughts and you just get a front row seat for it.

Does anyone have an addictive personality, or I guess disorder... Not like you are so amazing and others are addicted to it but you get easily addicted to I guess things. I easily get addicted to caffeine, I let myself get consumed by reading that its all I do. I become addicted to watching tv, or I'll start smoking (cannabis) and then thats all Ill think about doing but then I'll withdraw, its odd I get headaches and nausea especially withdraw from caffeine. Ok anyway, I thought it was hyper fixation but Im not so sure. So Im wondering what other people have to say.  

I think Im going to start another journal thing about fantasy's I have but I don't know if I want anyone to read it, yet at least. Is there a way I can do that? I feel like its good Im getting all this off my chest and not keeping everything locked up inside of me. Ill have to mess around and figure it out. Im still getting used to how this and the Fet site work. I know its obvious Im a newbie to this but you'll be shocked about how much I know and experienced. Hopefully I don't get to comfortable and start trauma dumping thats dangerous. 

If you made it this far in the post then maybe we should be friends.Ok I'll stop rambling... for now :)

It's been so long since I've been on here, lots of things have happened and I feel like a new person. 

I moved to Hawaii, not the big island but Oahu, with my sister two-ish years ago. Im still trying to discover and learn so that hasn't changed still a very curious cat. 

I've also decided to retake the BDSM test and wow definitely have some changes on that. I always new i was a switch and a brat but Masochist top of the list and a voyeur is wow didn't expect that. 

I honestly don't know what else to say.... hopefully I wont disappear again but out of sight out of mind.

Anyone on Oahu or any communities I can join I would love to, its a small island so who knows. 

I finally told my aunt (she’s married to my uncle and only 4 years older than me and basically one of my best friends (sad I know)) that I want to be the Dominant one in my sex life.

We were talking about my single life and how I need to really find out what I want and she assumed I would want a very Dominating head strong male in my life. I had to tell her that I’m open to all kinds of people but I really want to ‘top’ as she would put it.

She kept bringing up the 365 movie (I’ve never seen it) and 50 Shades of Grey (Horrible movie In my opinion). I told her I wanted to be Christian Grey in that scenario, I want to tie and blindfold them. So now she’s super excited to take me to a sex shop and show me some awesome leather underwear.

She’s very vanilla but she can’t wait to do this. I’m going to bed very happy knowing I have someone who supports me in my family.

I’m starting to think that all my blogging might be at 3 am. Is this the witching hour? (I don’t even know what that means really)

Being back in my hometown has made me realized how much I have changed. Some places can really hold you back from your potentials.

If I would’ve never left I think I would still be scared of what I really wanted, to scared to try new things. And people will always tell me “you’ve changed so much” but it always sounds like they don’t like this version of me where I’m more confident and I’m excited for life and the unknown.

I’ve never been the one to set boundaries with people because I thought, I love them, I would do anything for them even if it’s not something I’m comfortable with.  Now I’m not afraid to say no or afraid to ask and try. It’s a great feeling.

Maybe none of this make sense I mean it’s almost 3 in the morning and I have to be up by 8 so I’m trying to get all of these thoughts out of my head.

Or maybe it all makes sense……. No it doesn’t.

I'm looking to learn more about being dominant to others sexually. I’ve been learning how to be a good submissive (still need work) since I was 18. But lately as I’ve grown I’ve been having this need, not a want but a need to tie some poor needy person up and have fun teasing and denying them what they crave for. So I’m ready to learn how to be a good Dominant.

Ive noticed I tend to switch around certain people, some bring out a more submissive I want to take care of vibe while others bring out the Dominating I won’t take any shit from you but I will still take care of you vibe, so if I can have someone tell me what’s going on that would be great.

I know I’m young, I turn 24 in Late July. But I don’t think age has anything to do with what you need to love your life to your fullest without being ashamed. I hate when people tell me I’m to young to know what I like sexually or mentally but I know me better than anyone else.

I’ve been on this site before but I was definitely a different person then. A lot has changed as you can see and I’ve definitely grown. Just taking it one day at a time.