From the Dome

I finally told my aunt (she’s married to my uncle and only 4 years older than me and basically one of my best friends (sad I know)) that I want to be the Dominant one in my sex life.

We were talking about my single life and how I need to really find out what I want and she assumed I would want a very Dominating head strong male in my life. I had to tell her that I’m open to all kinds of people but I really want to ‘top’ as she would put it.

She kept bringing up the 365 movie (I’ve never seen it) and 50 Shades of Grey (Horrible movie In my opinion). I told her I wanted to be Christian Grey in that scenario, I want to tie and blindfold them. So now she’s super excited to take me to a sex shop and show me some awesome leather underwear.

She’s very vanilla but she can’t wait to do this. I’m going to bed very happy knowing I have someone who supports me in my family.

I’m starting to think that all my blogging might be at 3 am. Is this the witching hour? (I don’t even know what that means really)

Being back in my hometown has made me realized how much I have changed. Some places can really hold you back from your potentials.

If I would’ve never left I think I would still be scared of what I really wanted, to scared to try new things. And people will always tell me “you’ve changed so much” but it always sounds like they don’t like this version of me where I’m more confident and I’m excited for life and the unknown.

I’ve never been the one to set boundaries with people because I thought, I love them, I would do anything for them even if it’s not something I’m comfortable with.  Now I’m not afraid to say no or afraid to ask and try. It’s a great feeling.

Maybe none of this make sense I mean it’s almost 3 in the morning and I have to be up by 8 so I’m trying to get all of these thoughts out of my head.

Or maybe it all makes sense……. No it doesn’t.

I'm looking to learn more about being dominant to others sexually. I’ve been learning how to be a good submissive (still need work) since I was 18. But lately as I’ve grown I’ve been having this need, not a want but a need to tie some poor needy person up and have fun teasing and denying them what they crave for. So I’m ready to learn how to be a good Dominant.

Ive noticed I tend to switch around certain people, some bring out a more submissive I want to take care of vibe while others bring out the Dominating I won’t take any shit from you but I will still take care of you vibe, so if I can have someone tell me what’s going on that would be great.

I know I’m young, I turn 24 in Late July. But I don’t think age has anything to do with what you need to love your life to your fullest without being ashamed. I hate when people tell me I’m to young to know what I like sexually or mentally but I know me better than anyone else.

I’ve been on this site before but I was definitely a different person then. A lot has changed as you can see and I’ve definitely grown. Just taking it one day at a time.