My true experiences

So I've stepped away and again I let myself lose whatever happiness I might have had....I've darken the light that was slowly starting to shine again inside me....and again I know this is where I have to be...once again alone...and as much as I wish I could stand on top of this life a shine my light BRIGHT and BEAUTIFUL and never let it falter...like I had done so many...MANY years ago.....my light is like moth to flames and although my light is soo very bright and soo very beautiful and so many have tried to catch or capture MY light...tried to claim ME....I know better....I've had to dim my light so it barely shines...so I'm only a blip in someone else's life....so I'm only a blip in my own....this is what I know needs to be.....alone...always alone but I will never let anyone be burned by my beautiful flame...bc I will keep it hidden....always 

So today just as a few other times a FWB had posted something about me on his blog, which he has done before but in this one he really shines the light on a big issue I deal with.... keeping people away...I do this for their protection but also bc I guard my heart inside a fortress....and I DON'T WANT TO GET ATTACHED...so this friend let's call him *J* he is very forthcoming and honest with what he feels and thinks about me..and as much as I want to be able to drop this fortress around my heart completely for him, I know better...I know myself and my luck or karma or whatever you want to call it....there's always something waiting behind me to wreck and destroy the happiness I might find and have and TRY to hold onto...so yes I DO push him away and I don't tell him the depths of my heart and soul...I cannot reveal my truth for or to him....bc I will only end up hurting and destroying such a wonderfully loving, kind, caring amazing man...not to mention he's just coming into his own.... finding his true self in his life and wanting to be apart of this lifestyle...how can I in good conscience claim him when I KNOW WHATS TO COME? But there is a plus to this bc as much as we desire each other..he is a poly...so there's another woman who makes his heart sing and takes his breath away and I'm guessing a great deal more than I bc I'm sure she gives him all he needs in being an expressive person with him, which is wonderful bc as much as I'd LOVE to just slit myself open and bleed out for him...I cannot....I will not bc if I did his life would be in grave danger for reasons I will not reveal but he knows...but he also scares me bc of the way he makes me feel, act and behave...NEVER IN MY WHOLE 21 YEARS OF LIVING THIS LIFE, has anyone gotten what this man has gotten and of my OWN FREE WILL GIVEN IT TO HIM...that in itself scares the living light inside of myself....he shakes me to my core and I WANT HIM TO....which is why I've stepped back and kind of shut him down from myself which I am truly sorry about but I cannot have him....not only that we live in different countries but the danger I will not put him in....but even if I didn't leave destruction in my wake...and my life was still my life to live and give to him...it still wouldn't work bc he's a poly and I am not....I'm a very open-minded person if there's no labels on something...but once he was to take claim and I reverberated this action...then I'd not allow another soul to have and share what is MINE...and again not fair to him bc he needs to be free to explore his style in this life...I've had 21 years to go explore, experience and figure out who and what I am....he has just begun...how can I take that away from him? We've already established we hold a great deal of love for each other...short of saying it....which is right where it needs to remain...bc I can't  be anything except a fun chick that hopefully some day we'll actually meet in RL..I am scared that when we finally do connect and indulge in each other's skin, I won't want to let him go EVER....and the question I asked him so long ago will b spoken again as I whisper it in his ear as I'm cuffing him to my bed in my special place for him and him alone.....❤️

I'm am soo tired....tired of this...whatever this is....it isn't anymore....whatever we shared its slowly fading...slowly disapating into nothingness again and as it disappears you have noone but yourself to blame

I thought I could be your help..your guide...I wanted to be this for you so badly but as time progresses you seem to be digressing...and I can't go backwards....I can only move forward...

It was beautiful this brief moment when both of us were on the same plane of existence..

When we were able to be in each others universe....to actually feel each other....such beauty....such life was given back to both of us

But now that time has passed...that height of awareness can NEVER be reached again. .you've made sure of that....I can't be your crutch and you obviously DONT see value in your ownself...so how am I suppose to see value in whatever this MIGHT have been..

Whatever this COULD have been? You've killed this....you've made it clear you can't go forward and I can't go backwards...

And the fucking worst part about this is YOU'VE done this all before...you think this is going to help you but it will only hinder you my sweet....you'll back pedal until you're stuck...stuck in that ever turning loop that you were in when we first met....the one I freed you from...when I reached into that darkness and held you close and told you to embrace the darkness....its WHO WE ARE..but even in darkness we can see...and I can see...see us slipping away.....

I am here right now in this moment, and I want you to come with me into the perpetual darkness that is me...it is us....but I can't follow you back into that loop that for some reason you are so god damn comfortable in and I fucking hate it.....I hate even more that I let you in....that you made me let you in bc I knew this would happen...I knew it the first message that we exchanged but you have a way about you...almost like you enjoy the misery secretly....and as you capture souls to bring yourself out of the misery...you never truly leave it.....you always have something touching it...almost as if its your fucked up lifeline....and now I'm just another soul you thought you could take in, covet make your own to bring down into that misery you love soo dearly....but I cannot and will not go....you've already found another that will though and another...you've found a few that will so I will release you as you release me...our universe will never be in the same orbit again but you have left your mark on mine....it will forever be there for me to see and remember but never to have or touch your soul again....sadness can also be seen in darkness....I will hide mine away...forever.

This isn't a vacation for me nor am I a tourists, this is me truly and completely. 

So long have I been living this life I forget that people still find me to be a bit forward...

I am here and I am waiting....did you not tell me to wait? My punishment was given bc of course I can't keep my mouth or time in check but what he doesn't know is I CRAVE PUNISHMENT.....it excites every molecule in my body.....it can and has put me on, then pushed me over the edge and as I fall my body, mind & soul are on fire...I bask in this fire...I'm addicted to this fire...I know this but you see this I keep hidden from any prying eyes or ears..it is my secret...nobody knows...and as I'm falling from his sky....from this punishment he's commanded of me...I relish in my secret...as my hands caress my body....feeling every molecule under my fingers light up and burn...my pussy aches so intensely and my nipples turn into diamonds...a small smile touches my lips and a soft moan escapes me.....and I can feel him watching me intently....watching me with a purpose in his eyes....I can see he's trying so very hard to figure out what my secret is....but as he watches my every touch...every lick of my lips...listens to every breathy moan to tumble from my pretty red lips....it betrays him....bc no longer is he searching for my secret..no....now he is searching....needing that sweet release....now only seeing what I can give him....his eyes have tunneled and all he can see is the climax he soo desperately wants...its very apparent now...my fingers dance across my panties....I slow to put the softest bit of pressure on my rosebud that is my clit....moan out and breathe in...he can't take it anymore...I watch him through my long eyelashes....he can only see me...its not enough for him....he stands, his hand has been stroking his hardening cock and he doesn't even realize it....I can feel his power...his need for just me alone....and as I am waiting....all he has to do is come claim me and all that is me and that sweet release he craves...he needs...his very own secret....is me.

You needed something or someone, you never really know which it is until its in front of you..but bam it fuckin' hits you like a slap in the face..so you take it bc its the only thing you can do....questions follow questions and still get more questions...you take your time to answer these questions...you take your time to nurture it... So you give it everything

..fucking EVERYTHING...IT TAKES EVERYTHING AND DEVOURS IT..KEEPS EVERYTHING GREEDILY.....MAKES NO EFFORT TO CONTROL WHAT OR HOW  IT TAKES

AND YOU CONTINUE TO GIVE....IT TAKES EVEN MORE...MORE THAN YOU HAVE...SO BITS OF YOU START TO FALL AWAY BC OF ITS NEEDS AND ITS EATS YOU TOO....IT JUST KEEPS DEVOURING YOU...

SUCKING THE VERY ESSENCE OF YOUR SOUL...SO YOU TRY AND SPEAK BUT IT LULLS YOU INTO A FALSE SENSE OF A FUCKED UP "REALITY"....TELLS YOU WHAT YOU NEED TO HEAR AND FEEL SO IT CAN GET WHAT IT NEEDS....

THEN ONCE YOU'RE RIGHT WHERE IT WANTS YOU....RIGHT WHERE IT NEEDS YOU..

IT LAYS YOU DOWN...SOFTLY...EVER SO GENTLY...PUTS YOU AT EASE...BEFORE  IT

MAKES THE KILL SHOT

AND AS IT WALKS AWAY LICKING YOU OFF ITS FINGERS AND LIPS...YOUR SCENT...YOUR VERY ESSENCE...ALL OVER IT BC YOU GAVE IT ALL OF YOURSELF....

YOU FINALLY CAN SEE IT FOR WHAT HE TRULY IS....BUT ITS TOO LATE...FAR TOO LATE.....

I can feel his cock hard as a rock and twitching...all bc of 1 simple set of actions...in my mind I think "I can't believe that something so simple, can turn this Master into putty in my hands" all too soon I realize that it isn't that easy for me to just put my dom away...actually its going to be one hell of a struggle bc I'm going against my very nature...but if I want to achieve the satisfaction this Master needs...I'm going to have to put my dom on lockdown...I'm going to have to put her into a steel box and hide the key...I take a deep breath and focus my mind on putting my true nature in check, just for a small amount of time....I silence my thoughts, I silence my dom who is clearly trying no to be silenced....breath....focus.. I quiet my mind and my dom follows...he is still straddling me..watching me...he brings his hand up and places it around my neck, he starts to squeeze, just a small amount of pressure, he leans down to my ear and whispers "now that's my good girl..see, not so bad, right babygirl?" In return i give him what he wants "no sir" another shiver runs through him, he lays his head down on my massive tits and like a baby snuggles them...in this moment he's calm, cool and collected...I think to myself..I can do this..."you know how long I've waited for you to utter those words?" "And not just the words babygirl, to me?" "No sir, I do not" He's very excited, I can feel his throbbing cock as it presses against my stomach..a moan comes from him, he lifts his head up, drops his mouth down onto one nipple clamp and removes it, spits it out onto the floor, his hand is now caressing my bare nipple as he proceeds down to my other nipple and takes the same action, spits the clamp in the very same area, his mouth opens around my nipple, his tongue gently swirls around and little by little my nipples become hard again..he switches nipples and plays with the other while his hand handles the other...his mouth, tongue and teeth seem to be playing a game, seeing just how hard he can get my nipples, all the while he's grinding down on me, "I want you so bad babygirl...I want you to be screaming my name by the end of our time together" biting down on my nipple, I gasp and moan...he repeats with my other nipple..this time harder, and a small squeal comes from me "ooh babygirl likes when sir bites hard, huh?" Not knowing if I should answer, I look at him with questioning eyes, "Yes babygirl , when I asked you a question, I'd like you to answer your Master" at that my dom breaks away and before I can even think what to say, my mouth opens and "oh hell fucking no! I'm am not YOUR slave and I definitely DONT HAVE A MASTER, so keep it up and I'll shut my mouth for good and you won't even be able to get your dick wet" Fuck me and my mouth! His hand comes down across my face with a hard *slap*"you'll fucking do as you're told, or else you won't be getting up from these restraints and I lodge my fucking cock right into that smart ass hole you call your mouth, you're mine and I'll do WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT TO DO, either willing or by force...don't fuck with me, bc I ALWAYS WIN, and I'll have you on your knees begging me for more, so DONT TELL ME SHIT!" This whole time his hands have been wandering around my body, touching, grabbing and squeezing...He stops everything and grabs my chin, "do we understand each other babygirl?" "Yes sir".."hmmm...its not Master, but then again, that's not what was agreed upon" "so good girl" he gets up from straddling me, and still standing over me reaches down and grabs his belt, steps down off the block "now babygirl, you deserve punishment, please turn over and get up on your hands and knees" the restraints are tight but only around my wrist, so I turn onto my stomach and lift myself up onto my knees and palms...I can't see him but I feel his hands, and hear his voice,very firm and commanding..."mmmm god damn baby girl....your ass...mmmm...fuck...just beautiful" He's hands are caressing each ass cheek and he's grabbing a hand full of my ghetto ass in his hands, spreading the cheeks apart...he blows air right onto my asshole...spits onto and starts to rub his spit into my asshole, and then I feel it "pop" one finger goes in and he starts to finger fuck my asshole...he spit on it again and then its 2 fingers in, rotating them..He's moaning and breathing heavy, and as he moves even faster I squeal bc of the depth he just hit...it snaps him back to reality...FUCK BABYGIRL...That ass of yours! Goddamn! But that will wait right now, your ass is in need of punishment." As he finishes the sentence, I hear a swoosh sound and a crack before I feel it on my ass..again he brings his belt down across my ass, and a moan comes from deep inside me, he brings it down again harder...I vocally moan "oh, mmmm!" He is clearly surprised by my reactions "oh my, you fucking like this, you little fuckin' slut.." Again he brings it down and every time, I moan louder, I can't help myself bc I am a algolagnia....he starts putting his back and weight into every strike...I know my ass is starting to welt and turn red, he stops, I feel his hand softly rubbing my ass..MMMM MMMM GODDAMN! THAT IS ONE FUCKING UNBELIEVABLY BEAUTIFUL SITE!". He frees me from my restraints, takes both my hands and as I step off this wooden block, my legs aren't strong enough to hold myself up, I fall but he catches me "whoa! Babygirl....here let me help you" I couldn't even protest bc before I knew it he scooped me up like a bride and walked us over to a full length mirror....placed me down, holding me up by my shoulders, turned me around "look at the beauty your ass and my belt made" and my skin being as fair as porcelain, my ass was all different shades of reds..pinks and maroon...it was such a beautiful sight...we stood and looked at the beauty that he had painted on the canvas that is my porcelain skin...

As I'm sitting here just having my first ever experience on this mechanical jack hammer of a dildo...and even though I did have an  orgasm...it still didn't feel like a real orgasm...I know its bc its this mechanical thing...it just felt cold and there's no sensual touching...really nothing but a dildo pumping in and out of my pussy....even when you do it by hand there's still a hand, ya know? Anyways, Jacob is towering over me as I'm still a little lightheaded from the whole experience, its almost a blur, I feel one cuff unlock and fall to the ground and then I'm being scooped up by a pair of strong muscular arms, he rests my head on his shoulder and whispers in ear "Mmm babygirl, your just absolutely perfect, and I'm going to make this night, with me, just as perfect as you are...I want you to see god from the orgasm I give you with my cock.." I laugh and tell him "you've picked the wrong girl sugar, I'm not a believer. "After I'm done with you, you'll know what it means to believe babygirl." He smiles soo sweetly down on me that I think "what is with this man?" And the next thing I feel is the cold clasp of his collar being placed around my neck...and I'm watching him as he unclasps my nipple leash and grabs another from a table, it connects to the collar and my nipple clamps and as I'm being placed down on what seems to be a hard wooden table almost...its literally just a huge solid block of wood....strong too....with all sorts of bars, spreaders, chains and other equipment for pleasure or pain..."I want you to lay back and spread your legs open wide for me babygirl" again my dom side comes through alarms blaring, I act as I'm crawling in to the center of this wooden block and quickly slide over and stand on the opposite side...he doesn't even flinch..."oh babygirl, why do you fight this?  Why do you fight me? He sighs, stands up and with 2 strides he's on me, I back up but I hit the wall with an "ooaf" shit! Laughing he reaches down and grabs me by the leash he had attached, and pulls me hard to him, with his free hand he pulls my hair into his fist and bends me so I'm looking up at him, "you see babygirl, mmmm, you can't get away, you won't fight me anymore, do I make myself clear?" I'm contemplating his words, he breathes in deep and the hand that was holding my hair, is slowly caressing my body, hes moaning low in his chest and watching his hand go over every inch of my velvet naked skin, "Mmm Gd fuck babygirl, you're one beautiful fucking piece of artwork...mmmm" and with that he scoops me up with one hand and brings me back to the wooden block "stand there for sir" as I'm trying to do as I'm told, "spread your legs for sir, now" I slowly separate my legs, "Mmm beautiful" his hand runs up my leg and thigh, he gently opens my pussy lips and just staring at my pussy, he leans forward and gently, slowly i feel his lips and tongue kissing my tight pussy, he places his hand at the small of my back and and pushes my body into his mouth more forcefully...I moan "oh my, Mmm" biting my lip my head falls back.."good babygirl" and I feel him, he clasps my clit with a clamp and attaches the rest of the leash...the pressure of the clamps all hitting very sensitive spots on my body, has almost a waterfall effect when he tugs on the leash...cascading pleasure rolls down my body.. He places a spreader bar on my ankles "lay down now" I look at him with a hint of defiance, a smirk spreads across his lips as if to say "I dare you" and of course I do, I try to jump off the block but he catches me and throws me down hard on my back, his hand was at the back of my head so he didn't hurt my head, and he straddles me, grabs my wrists and straps me down. "Tsk tsk tsk...my babygirl, if you choose to continue on your path of defiance, I'll just have to keep you tied down." "I won't mind you being helpless to my every whim, but I'd also like it if you'd willingly submit to me babygirl" still on top of me staring down, waiting for my answer, he starts to trail his finger tips over my collarbone...to the clamps on my nipples, tweaking them, just waiting for my mouth to open and give him the answer he wants...he needs...so I say "I'll try my best SIR" "Good girl, that's all I need, I need you to TRY and work with me, OK babygirl?" Yes SIR" after he hears this fall from my lips, a shiver runs through his body, a moan leaves his mouth, and his cock turns rock hard and pulsating...I think to myself "hmmm? Found his weak spot."

TBC

As the sound of this jack hammer is buzzing my head all I can see is this man smiling from ear to ear...as the dildo slowly starts to make its way into my very wet and tight pussy...it feels soo fucking strange...to have an actual man with a cock bigger then this but to each their own, I always say...Jacob is sitting in the chair gripping tightly to my ankles...He's watching this mechanical jack hammer, slowly it fills me up completely, and as it submerges fully into me, I moan low in my chest...as it slowly plunges in and out of me, I noticed jacob has a remote in his his and but as he turned the speed up 2 dialed this jack hammer really starts to pick up pace...I can feel the pressure inside myself building already which is fucking a little frightening not to be able to even stop my own orgasm from building...especially bc I am all about some form of control..even in situations where I have to be submissive, I still can control what I actually give and take from the experience but this is a whole different kind of animal, and me being not that into "new technology" this shit scares me...also it being a somewhat new gadget also throws me off....im trying with every ounce of my being, every instinct, breathing technique and meditation trick I've ever learned, I'm using it here in this moment,and I hear 'click' and a "stop fighting it babygirl, just let go" and in that moment I can't! I know its childish or futile to try and fight this orgasm that is soo close to breaking my surface like a wave that will crash over my body leaving me drenched and shaking...but that is just what I do, I fight and I try soo hard to not let this machine win....yes it was stupid...bc 'click, click' and its thrusting in and out of me a little faster then if somebody else was fucking you with a dildo by hand.."you will not win babygirl" laughing...his hand comes and releases my tits from my corset I was wearing and his kneeling on my side now...whispers in my ear "don't make me go any higher...just let go...you know you'll feel soo much pleasure from just letting go", he licks my ear and down my neck, he sucks one of my nipples into his mouth an audible pop, and as his teeth lightly graze my sweet hard flesh i can't hold out and longer as the buzzing is in my head, him sucking and teeth grazing my very erect nipple this jack hammer thrusting in and out all comes to a point and with one final breath I let go and my pussy tightens just before my flood gate releases and I scream "oh fuuuucccckkkk....im....cccuuummmiiiinnnng!"my body is literally just convulsions and twitches...and my pussy juices are just flowing down my bubble butt and pooling at the spot where my backbone is resting on this contraption...as I'm just a puddle of short breaths and ohs and mmms...he finally clicks it off towering over me, watching me says "there, now that we've gotten the easy stuff out of the way...the true fun can begin." Umm what? 

TBC

That little voice in my head started to speak up..."omg,who is this man?" I rack my brain trying like hell to run over every guest at every demonstration I ever done...hes now circling me, lightly he drags his fingers over my shoulders and then his hand is tangled in my thick red curls, he pulls my hair and head back, He's towering over me, I tug at my wrists...locked tight...his hand is caressing my face softly...."hmm mm....what's a matter my little baby girl?"...."do I know you?" 'Am I suppose to get that comment you made earlier?" He chuckles...."it'll come to you my beauty....now no more questions....I've finally have you...and in MY dungeon...you're not going anywhere.....not until I've peeled back every soft, velvet layer of this beautiful specimen....babygirl." His hand grabs my chin. "Look at me...I need to see those eyes ..like the fucking ocean and I feel like taking a dip!" He turns my face to look up at him, I study his face closely, I'm trying to picture where I've seen him...I was soo busy in my own head I didn't hear his question...his hand came down right across my face and I was brought back to this moment "wha....what...sir?" "I said how many inches have you had stuffed in that tight little hole of yours?" I try and bring my hand up to my cheek and it stops at my thigh...again I realized I'm not the dominant one in this situation..he chuckles in his chest and softly caress the side he just slapped..."Mmm I know you liked that babygirl." At the same time those words come out of his mouth his free hand slips behind my butterfly and he slips 2 fingers in and I'm very wet...he moans and growls low in his chest.."I knew you were perfect....that first night I watched you demonstrate...mmmm"...his lips crash down onto mine as he holds my chin and fingers my wet pussy, He's growling while his tongue devours my mouth...he pushes himself into my arm...his very large girthy cock is now on the top of my arm, I don't think he notices how excited he's getting by this...I don't think he'll last too long...oh how wrong I was...

As he's kissing me he pulls my hair back tightly,his tongue leaves my mouth and he licks and sucks his way all down my neck...to my collarbone where he proceeds to bite the sensitive skin, it starts off like nibbling and as he continues to trace my collarbone, in the center he bites down, sucks in and pulls my hair hard and tight..."mmmmm....soo fucking sweet" and continues to trace to the other end of my collarbone..I'm still trying to figure out who this guy is so of course I'm not really paying attention to what he's doing to my body...well that made him angry..so as my head is tilted up his hand comes right across the other cheek...and hard, I snap back and I growl at him...his voice is dark and firm.."you fucking slut, you think I'm just going to let you ignore me?" He grabs my face really hard and his nails are digging in around my cheeks, he's staring dead in my eyes "I've waited so long for you, YOU WILL NOT RUIN THIS!" Right before he releases my face he pries my mouth open and spits in it the pushes me on my back...he walks to the cabinet on the opposite side and gathers some tools...Im in my head thinking OK, I need to stop trying to figure this out now...just do this job and get out and then I can figure it out....so as he walks back he stands legs spread with some stuff in both hands...I can tell he's still a little hurt I wasn't paying attention so I look up through my lashes, in my sweetest, softest voice I say "sorry sir...it won't happen again"....in an instant he softens, the anger and hurt that I could feel radiating off his begins to dissipate and he smiles "that's my good girl" "now I want you to just lie there well i get this ready" he squats down in front of me and his connecting a dildo to this motorized part on this horse I'm laying on...and I realize this is not just a stationary cuffing horse....this is one of those mechanical jacking horses....and i know im fucked...I've never been good with anything "mechanical" and I'm a little scared...I'm very petite and I know these things can tear a woman apart if the person doesn't know or care about how fast or hard he sets the pace but he hasn't cuffed my feet back thank god...I started to calm myself bc at least if I need to adjust I can...he stands up smiling from ear to ear...looking down at this mechanical jack hammer he just set up..."now I only fit it with the 8 incher bc you're petite and I really don't want it to hurt you"..."I'm reserving that pain for myself" he reaches down and takes hold of his cock..."I'm going to pound you into oblivion babygirl....until your begging me to stop...and then I'll cover your slut mouth and drill you some more..." Chuckles...he walks up and stands behind me..I'm still lying down as he put me, he stands, towering over me,bends lifts me up from behind my shoulders, and sits me up....he comes around in front and places his hands on my thighs, "babygirl, i want you to scoot forward now." "Yes sir" I do as requested, I scoot as far as he let's me "STOP" "yes sir" "good babygirl"....his hands caress my thighs all the way down till he gets my ankles...and pulls my legs up...I didn't even notice the chair he placed at the foot of the horse until he's sitting with my legs on his thighs...he's almost sitting on the horse that's how close he is, his hand slide up my legs all the way up my skirt were he takes off my butterfly "you're not going to need this anymore babygirl"he places on the little table that he also must have set up with the chair...on it are some towels and a huge bottle of lube...fuck me...this is going to get intense..his hands find there way back up my skirt where he removes my thong...folds it so gently and places it on the table...."Mmm...I fucking love your scent....like sweet georgia peaches..." As he says this he slips 2 fingers inside me and his thumb finds my clit, slowly his thumb creates friction and my pussy begins to ache and get slick..."thats right babygirl.....fucking get wet for me.." A breathy moan leaves my lips and he's watching my every facial expression....I pant a little and bite my lower lip...."mmmm.....im going to really enjoy you" his fingers slip out as he sits back down....he licks the juices of my pussy off his fingers..."Georgia fucking peaches...mmmm" he settles in puts my legs on his thighs, positions the dildo at the very front of my pussy....I'm a little nervous...takes the lube and pours some onto the dildo....I hear a buzzing like a motor being turned on and all I can see is his face smiling from ear to ear...

TBC

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I'm watching his hand turn the door knob..as I try to keep the fire that he's is trying to ignite at bay...but its hard...and I know he is too....the door opens and with it light pours in from the 'green room' i can't see everything but what I do see makes me tremble....in anxiety...excitement...wonder...and just a small dash of terror....he can feel me tense and he chuckles...."hmm so baby girl....you've grown quiet " chuckles again.  "Now we'll see how many things I can do with that pretty disobedient mouth of yours...among other things baby girl....ah...you know you'll be mine afterwards, don't you?" As he walks me fully into his dungeon, he turns and shuts the door, now we're in complete darkness...I feel him chuckling...I tense significantly...chuckling.."you're not scared are you baby girl?" I clear my throat and as firm as I can muster...I say "No, NEVER!" He laughs..."we'll see, now won't we?" He switches on the light, its all red and dim but certain equipment is highlighted with little floor lights...omg this man is truly serious about the lifestyle and I'm sooo excited as I look around the room...but then it dawns on me that I'm not the one who'll be dominating tonight and my dom starts screaming inside my head....he takes me down off his shoulder and takes a key out of his pocket and locks the door....with the key in hand he comes right to me..."open that pretty little mouth of yours babygirl" I press my lips together in defiance..."I said OPEN THAT PRETTY LITTLE MOUTH OF YOURS...NOW!" His voice is very powerful and it vibrates my chest...I do as I'm told..."mmmm...good girl...please stick out your tongue for sir.." I hesitate just a second and do as I'm told, my tongue comes out and he sees the ring I have in...he bites his lower lip "omg babygirl, you've got some secrets...hiding things from sir are you?" He takes the key and runs it on my tongue. "You feel this babygirl?" Yes......sir" I say defiantly..."yeah you do, well this key is THE ONLY way out of my dungeon, do you understand?" Ahem...."I'm waiting." "Yes sir" "MMMM..MMMM...MMMM That's what I like to hear come from that damn gorgeous mouth of yours babygirl...damn gorgeous." He grabs me around my waist and holds me into him, being as short as I am my head only comes up to his chest, he laughs and almost lovingly he rests his head on top of mine "oh you're sooo damn cute!" "With that mmmm...plump ass!" His hands come down and he scoops my ass into his hands squeezes and lifts me up, wrapping my legs around his waist, "now babygirl...what is it that sir wants to strap you on, in or to right now?" He's turning in circles with me still wrapped around him, my ass is now resting on his forearm, he brings his free hand around to my pussy and wasting not one second his fingers are back to fucking my tight hole, "hmmm....fuck babygirl...you are extremely tight.." "Mmmmm yes...I know exactly what I'm going to strap you to," chuckles ..he brings me to a black slick leather hump....it looks like the horse they use in gymnastics except this one has places you can cuff someone to and that's exactly what happens to me, he sets me down gently, sweetly..."good girl" "now can you sit still for sir, if I walk away?" "Or am I going to have to keep you by me by your leash babygirl?" I look at him through my lashes and I get a little smart ass smile on my lips and before I can answer or do anything he pulls me up by my leash.."oh.mmmmmm""fuck me" I say it quietly..."what?" "What was that remark babygirl?" He tugs me to him and another moan comes from me..."uhhhmmm" "fuck me"..."that's exactly what I'm going to do, but first I need your tight little hole to fit my meaty cock babygirl..mmm...mmm...mmmm" he pulls the leash so I am forced to walk in front of him and *slap...slap* he slaps both my ass cheeks hard.."damn...Mmm....you are just so fuckable, I can't wait to unwrap you and feel my fat cock slide into your tight holes." I swallow hard....what have I gotten myself into?....he tugs on my leash when we've reached the other side of the room, he opens up 2 cabinet doors on the wall, inside he's got everything your heart could desire....I'm just have had a worried look on my face bc he says firmly "don't worry babygirl, everything is brand new...I NEVER reuse toys and tools unless the can be cleaned and sterilized." He points to a small room to the right.. Its filled with medical grade cleaning and sterilizing equipment. I relax...he feels this and hugs me to him,I'm standing in front of him, he runs his hands down both my arms and takes them into his and he starts placing our hands on the tools and toys he has all nearly hanging on the wall.."hmmmmm....what feels good to you babygirl?" "Um what?" "Shhh shhh shhh, close those twinkling eyes of yours please, and feel what you want me to use on you.." I giggle a little, "what? Something funny babygirl?" I shake my head "no sir" as I say this I do a little salute like his my drill sargent. He finds this terribly funny and as I peek at him his smile actually touches his eyes, he clears his throat "aaahem, that's it, get over here!" He's pointing behind him, I do as I'm told, "face the wall, now I'm picking what I'll use" I can only hear not see what his grabbing and it seems like a lot...."OK walk to where I just had you babygirl...and don't try anything funny, am I clear?"  "Yes sir" and walk back to the black horse..."sit"...I bite my lip....."sit down now" I do as I'm told, he slow and carefully takes my wrists kisses and licks and sucks it...nibbling on my wrist, it feels soo good that as he slides the cuff on, I don't know its even on until I feel him locking the other cuff to a ring on the floor *cliiiick* i watch him do it and that wicked smile plays across his face....I'm about to open my mouth and protest, he must have felt my tension bc he scoops my face into his hands and says "shhh shhh shhh" and then his mouth is on mine slowly he kisses me deep and long, his tongue slides over my lips as I open my mouth to let him in, he knows how to take my breath away by just this kiss as I'm lost in his kiss *cllliiiiiccckk* he cuffs my other hand in place, and with one last soft but firm kiss he pulls away, he still has my face in his hands, He's looking down into my eyes, "god, those eyes, your beautiful" " and your going to show me every expression on it and in those dark blue diamonds you call eyes babygirl"..."you think you won't, but you will be mine and only mine after tonight"..."mmmmm.mmmm..mmm..god do you know how long I've waited to have you here like this?" When he says this a warning bell goes off in my head....oh fuck!