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1 year ago. January 5, 2023 at 12:38 AM

I just saw a tik tok where a creater by the name thatdemonicbaker has a tamagotchi attached to her water bottle. Every time she it beeps to be taken care of she drinks water. 

Freaking genius! 

I use finch. I love my bird, but I can so do both!!! Finch app is awesome btw!!! Message me if you want to know more.

 

Doms get your sub a fun bottle and attach a tamagotchi to it!

 

I just bought a grogu one! 😀

3 years ago. January 21, 2021 at 4:09 AM

 

Sometimes it is ok just to be sad.

3 years ago. January 5, 2021 at 3:51 PM

She's a fixer with no one to fix her. She's a lover who won't love herself. She's a heartbreak away from a horrible place. 'Cause fixers never fix themselves

She's a fighter with no one beside her In a corner alone on the ropes. She's a let down away from a terrible place. She'll fix every scar but her own

Oh, she fixes the lonely, fixes the broke. But tends to forget who needs fixin' the most. Buried in bandages, hiding the hell 'Cause fixers never fix themselves

She's a liar, a calm to the fire. Shamed when we all follow suit. She's a whisper away from a dangerous place. 'Cause lies aren't a fix for the truth

Oh, she fixes the lonely, fixes the broke. But tends to forget who need fixin' the most. Packed with prescriptions, disguising the hell. 'Cause fixers never fix themselves

She's a handful. A whole lot to handle. But worth every thorn in my side

She's a sunset away from the darkest of days. No fix for the fixer tonight. She's a sunset away from the darkest of days. No fix for the fixer tonight

 

This song resonates with me. I am a fixer and as I am working on myself sometimes forget when others come along in need. 

3 years ago. January 4, 2021 at 1:30 AM

The truth in these words reside with me tonight. I am a strong women, I have accomplished so much, and have big things I am going to accomplish in the future. 

 

I like to be anchored through those seas. Have someone to fall on when I am feeling overwhelmed. To get a high five for doing a simple task or just because. 

 

D/S relationships are built upon strong foundations with trust, and communication. In all my years in the community it is not that submissives are weak...we aren't we just simply need someone who is stronger than us. 

3 years ago. October 6, 2020 at 2:31 PM

For you I offer a Haiku I created: 

 

Moon rises at night

His howl I hear in song

Felt deep inside me

3 years ago. October 6, 2020 at 12:55 AM

I just took the step in a new career change!!! I applied to an online Master's of Social Work program. I have a few more that I need to apply to, but I just got done applying to my top choice. 

Send positive vibes!!! I really want this change.

3 years ago. August 18, 2020 at 10:20 PM

ok so I need your help. I am thinking about going back to school for my mhc (mental health counselor) degree. 

My question...if you were looking for a therapist would you see one out that is kink friendly? 

Also what would you want them to be knowledgeable about? 

 

3 years ago. August 5, 2020 at 6:07 PM

Are you there My Moon?

It is late, the world is still, and I decided to creep outside on this clear night. I lay my pale naked skin against the grass and let the darkness swallow me whole. I close my eyes and take the deepest breath in before I open my sky blue eyes and focus on you.

I long for you to see me, to know that I am here, and to see that I exist. I know I am so little in this big giant world, and at times I feel so lost. I look out at night, and I take comfort knowing that you are watching over me even when you do not know it yet.

I wish that you could reach out and touch me right now. I want to feel you run your hand on my cheek, and tilt my chin up to meet your gaze. I want to surrender my soul to you and know that you would keep it safe. To know that I could submit myself and not be abused or hurt beyond consent.

The tears are running down my face because I want this so deeply. I want to be connected with you on a level that no one can understand. I have been so hurt, and my kindness has been abused. I know that you would not betray me in any way. Can you help me repair myself? Is it ok that most of the time I am not strong? Are you willing?

Moon, I wish you see me here in the grass naked, pale skin glowing against your light just like a shiny star. I want you to wash over me, envelop me, and lay your claim on me. Take me as yours, and what I have to give because I have a lot to offer. I want my sadness to wash away, and replaced by the joy that only you can give.

I close my eyes, I take another deep breath which comes out as a sigh, wipe my tears, and then open my eyes one more time. Outloud I whisper " Are you there my Moon?"

 

3 years ago. July 29, 2020 at 2:42 PM

3 years ago. June 1, 2020 at 11:50 AM